Realizing you basically have nothing to lose is so freeing

[Prøphet]

I’m a schizo autist subhuman, degenerating eyesight, 2/10 eye area, lower third 404, balding, shit childhood, shit environment, failed by everyone, it’s abundantly clear to me that my life is basically worthless when compared to everyone else. So then I feel two things. First I feel an existential despair that this hellish burden has been placed on me to suffer through. But then I also feel a glimmer of something else. If my life is worthless, then cowardice doesnt make sense, because the worst that can happen is already happening. I’m not shackled by the same chains as you all are.

But the funny thing is I, living such a miserable life without anything to really lose, am probably the most cowardly, high inhibition, neurotic person in this entire community. By the way I think you would assume I must be some millionaire Chad who loves his life more than anything and is desperate to preserve the way things are. But I want change. So why do I resist change and risk so much? Why the disparity between my openness to try anything, and my neurotic compulsion to follow the rules and keep my head down? The answer doesnt really matter I guess. But I will do anything I can to extinguish the fear in me, so I can become truly free.

 

[Prøphet]

Dnr

 

[160cmcurry]

wanting change while resisting it is not hypocrisy.

it’s the final honest prayer of a soul that has been failed by every system, every person, every mirror yet still refuses to let the world have the last word without a struggle.

the rules you follow are not society’s, they are the last fragments of a childhood bargain that said if i stay small enough maybe the pain will pass me by, even when the pain already lives inside every cell.

you are not failing at freedom you are living.

 

[snuggylion5]

Dnr i lose nothing by

 

[Prøphet]

Dnr i lose nothing by

By what

 

[snuggylion5]

By what

Bye bye

 

[Foodiepill]

wanting change while resisting it is not hypocrisy.

it’s the final honest prayer of a soul that has been failed by every system, every person, every mirror yet still refuses to let the world have the last word without a struggle.

the rules you follow are not society’s, they are the last fragments of a childhood bargain that said if i stay small enough maybe the pain will pass me by, even when the pain already lives inside every cell.

you are not failing at freedom you are living.

chatgpt hands wrote this.