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Whenever I get called ugly or I get treated in a way that indicates that someone thinks I'm ugly (staring, disgusted face, whispering about me to friends), I become genuinely absolutely CONVINCED that I'm the only young skinny no beard no glasses white guy they find ugly, and I'm the only one they ever will find ugly, I genuinely am unable to comprehend them finding anyone else ugly in that category besides only me, when I try to it's like my brain just fucking falls asleep and i truly can't picture them thinking anyone else besides me is ugly
It got so bad at one point I messaged this random girl from my from my gym who constantly acted disgusted by me who I somehow found the tiktok of, a weird message with an unattractive white guy as my profile picture, just in hopes of seeing her getting annoyed and calling him ugly just so I could relieve myself of thinking I'm the only young white guy she thought was ugly, it's actually quite an unbearable painful feeling to feel like I'm the only one they find ugly to the extent that I get the urge to do this shit to quell this "only ugly one"
feeling
It got so bad at one point I messaged this random girl from my from my gym who constantly acted disgusted by me who I somehow found the tiktok of, a weird message with an unattractive white guy as my profile picture, just in hopes of seeing her getting annoyed and calling him ugly just so I could relieve myself of thinking I'm the only young white guy she thought was ugly, it's actually quite an unbearable painful feeling to feel like I'm the only one they find ugly to the extent that I get the urge to do this shit to quell this "only ugly one"
feeling
