recovery isn't real, and never will be real

[PeakIncels]

I have been inp many, many times
even now, I'm in a medical ward, I got phone access rn

i have gone through this cycle over and over, hospital, tube, go home, relapse, over and over again

it's been a few days here and I'm in a pain that i have never experienced, it was never this bad, my limbs and muscles hurt so much, I can barely move, my eyesight is shit, and I'm always cold, so damn cold

it's 25° or 77° for the burger people

everyday, I see people here I already saw before druggies, ana, sh

i don't even want to speak when they give you the 1:1 treatment, legit suifuel

the only thing I want rn is to be on every drug possible because i legit will start tweaking soon, my stomach hurts horribly, and my back as well, same with every other rfuckass muscle

 

[PeakIncels]

@greycel @trench

 

[PeakIncels]

this therapy is bs btw

 

[Cats]

Damn

I feel bad for you

 

[greycel]

It'll get worse before it gets better

 

[PeakIncels]

what did i miss @greycel

 

[Deleted member 142159]

Hospitals are depressing. Theres a reason why so many horror films take place in a hospital.

 

[PeakIncels]

Hospitals are depressing. Theres a reason why so many horror films take place in a hospital.

big news!!

 

[greycel]

what did i miss @greycel

Nothing happened while you were gone, forum's been stale recently so I dropped a thread
But that's not important rn

You made any friends there?
I know they're druggies but any of them cool?

 

[PeakIncels]

Nothing happened while you were gone, forum's been stale recently so I dropped a thread
But that's not important rn

You made any friends there?
I know they're druggies but any of them cool?

I can't go out of my room that much lol

no, I didn't make any friends, there's just this girl i know and we occasionally, speak together when there's the therapy bs because we get some free time after

like 20 minutes, but just because we have the same disorder and all we speak about is our methods to B/P, that's really it

 

[ImVerySorry]

inp

The inustrial nutrition party? like whats inp

 

[greycel]

I can't go out of my room that much lol

no, I didn't make any friends, there's just this girl i know and we occasionally, speak together when there's the therapy bs because we get some free time after

like 20 minutes, but just because we have the same disorder and all we speak about is our methods to B/P, that's really it

You eating the food they make there?

 

[PeakIncels]

The inustrial nutrition party? like whats inp

in patient, where you get put in a medical ward or mental one, to recovery for long periods of times, it's different from hospital, where you stay at for short periods of times, here it's for weeks, months, or years if you are really deep bottom rock

 

[PeakIncels]

You eating the food they make there?

I'm on a tube, they are feeding me, they know I'll just purge it, I don't know how many cals the IV is giving me and it's driving me crazy

 

[ImVerySorry]

in patient, where you get put in a medical ward or mental one, to recovery for long periods of times, it's different from hospital, where you stay at for short periods of times, here it's for weeks, months, or years if you are really deep bottom rock

damn, one of my wrestling coaches work at one of those, i think its a mental asylum or ward, get well soon though

 

[PeakIncels]

damn, one of my wrestling coaches work at one of those, i think its a mental asylum or ward, get well soon though

he must have a big big patience

 

[ImVerySorry]

he must have a big big patience

no he's he has this, might crash out any time type of vibe

 

[ImVerySorry]

he must have a big big patience

You must have a big big heart though

 

[greycel]

@PeakIncels are the staff good?

 

[PeakIncels]

You must have a big big heart though

I don't

no he's he has this, might crash out any time type of vibe

?

 

[PeakIncels]

@PeakIncels are the staff good?

they don't gaf about us, to me they occasionally check in, refill when necessary, and gone

 

[greycel]

they don't gaf about us, to me they occasionally check in, refill when necessary, and gone

So what do u do there? Lie in bed for the most part?

 

[PeakIncels]

@PeakIncels are the staff good?

i mean the nurses aren't mean tbh, neutral

 

[ImVerySorry]

I don't

you do though i remember when you called me a pookie

?

i dont know how to explain it, hes like, without joy.

 

[PeakIncels]

So what do u do there? Lie in bed for the most part?

yes, now that i have my phone i can rot on org, I have a tv though otherwise I wouldn't have survived these 2 days without phone

 

[greycel]

yes, now that i have my phone i can rot on org, I have a tv though otherwise I wouldn't have survived these 2 days without phone

Sounds pretty chill
If I were you, I'd watch Netflix or smth

 

[PeakIncels]

you do though i remember when you called me a pookie

i dont know how to explain it, hes like, without joy.

can you blame him lol, one day here and you won't even be sad you'll just get insta nausea by the sight of chronically ill ana girls with a BMI of 13-14 with every bone defined

 

[PeakIncels]

Sounds pretty chill
If I were you, I'd watch Netflix or smth

I was actually rewatching love death and robots

 

[ImVerySorry]

can you blame him lol, one day here and you won't even be sad you'll just get insta nausea by the sight of chronically ill ana girls with a BMI of 13-14 with every bone defined

then why work there? or take the education to get a job there, like just get a job you enjoy.

 

[PeakIncels]

then why work there? or take the education to get a job there, like just get a job you enjoy.

I don't know, it's like asking a surgeon why you do your job, like why you like seeing people guts open yk

 

[brownmutt42]

Is this for ED?

 

[ImVerySorry]

I don't know, it's like asking a surgeon why you do your job, like why you like seeing people guts open yk

well im sure its about status, helping people, ego, or money for surgeons

 

[greycel]

I was actually rewatching love death and robots

That's been collecting dust in my list for the last 3 yrs

You might like TLOU & Lost in Space

 

[PeakIncels]

Is this for ED?

yes

 

[PeakIncels]

That's been collecting dust in my list for the last 3 yrs

You might like TLOU & Lost in Space

I already played tlou2 and 1 :>, the serie is ass though, worst adaption oat

 

[PeakIncels]

That's been collecting dust in my list for the last 3 yrs

You might like TLOU & Lost in Space

numb got demoted? bro said I didn't miss out on anything...yea alright

 

[PeakIncels]

well im sure its about status, helping people, ego, or money for surgeons

same for the nurses here ig, not that heavy of a work

 

[ImVerySorry]

same for the nurses here ig, not that heavy of a work

well, get well soon POOKS

 

[PeakIncels]

well, get well soon POOKS

I won't get better but thank you

 

[ImVerySorry]

I won't get better but thank you

Why notttt

 

[PeakIncels]

Why notttt

ill be here max 1-2 months, reach a stable weight, one where i won't need a crane to walk, go back home, therapy bla bla bla, and then relapse

 

[ImVerySorry]

ill be here max 1-2 months, reach a stable weight, one where i won't need a crane to walk, go back home, therapy bla bla bla, and then relapse

no i believe in you you can do it, if that one asian guy managed to become navy seal and a doctor that you can at least get well

 

[PeakIncels]

That's been collecting dust in my list for the last 3 yrs

You might like TLOU & Lost in Space

I was contemplating dropping out of school ngl

 

[greycel]

I was contemplating dropping out of school ngl

You still in school?
College or hs

 

[PeakIncels]

You still in school?
College or hs

im 17, hs

 

[PeakIncels]

You still in school?
College or hs

did you assume I was older or younger?

 

[greycel]

did you assume I was older or younger?

Thought u were older, around early 20s

 

[PeakIncels]

Thought u were older, around early 20s

I'm not reaching them anyway

 

[greycel]

I'm not reaching them anyway

Find the positive stuff in life + Stay away from the negative

Look, read this post of mine I once wrote a long time ago:

This is what a true IOI looks like:

I never knew he was this good looking in motion. I knew he was up there with Johnny Depp and Leonardo Dicaprio, but he blows them both out of the water

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