
iblamemyself!
Jesus is the only way
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i didn’t even want to be like this. i swear, i never wanted to end up here. i’m christian. i was trying to stay pure, trying to fight it since like 2023. i knew porn was poison. i knew gooning was messed up. i knew it was all a trap. but it crept in anyway. slow at first. “just one time,” “just a little scroll,” “i won’t fall that deep.” next thing i know, it’s years later and i’m stuck in this cycle like the rest of them.
i installed reddit just to look, not even to do anything. just see what’s out there. bad idea. ended up in some goon thread. saw a video of 2 dudes and 1 woman. disgusting, soulless. but the worst part wasn’t the video. it was the comments. grown men, actual adults, saying things like “i wish i was the middle one,” “i want to be the top one so bad,” “if you're the top one i'll be the middle one.” like… bro. no shame. no dignity. just pure hunger. they weren’t even hiding it. they were proud of how far gone they were.
and i realized i was one of them. maybe not as vocal, maybe not as far gone, but spiritually i was in the same pit. rotting with them. feeding the same demon. i don’t want to end up like those 30-year-old fat incels who gave up on life and just live to coom. i can feel it stealing my soul. the longer i stay in this, the less of me is left. i want to quit. i want to escape. i’m tired of fighting and losing. i don’t even know how to stop anymore. i just know i don’t want to be this person. not in the eyes of God. not in the eyes of anyone. Help me quit this shit bro please
i installed reddit just to look, not even to do anything. just see what’s out there. bad idea. ended up in some goon thread. saw a video of 2 dudes and 1 woman. disgusting, soulless. but the worst part wasn’t the video. it was the comments. grown men, actual adults, saying things like “i wish i was the middle one,” “i want to be the top one so bad,” “if you're the top one i'll be the middle one.” like… bro. no shame. no dignity. just pure hunger. they weren’t even hiding it. they were proud of how far gone they were.
and i realized i was one of them. maybe not as vocal, maybe not as far gone, but spiritually i was in the same pit. rotting with them. feeding the same demon. i don’t want to end up like those 30-year-old fat incels who gave up on life and just live to coom. i can feel it stealing my soul. the longer i stay in this, the less of me is left. i want to quit. i want to escape. i’m tired of fighting and losing. i don’t even know how to stop anymore. i just know i don’t want to be this person. not in the eyes of God. not in the eyes of anyone. Help me quit this shit bro please