AlexoJeLTN
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I would really appreciate if you read this, its simply worded
Personal Context: Me(16), 187cm, about mtn, neurodivergent. Her(16), high ltb, neurotypical. We are classmates, we sit in the same desk, go to school and home with the same bus. Im her 4th bf she is my 2nd gf
We started dating like almost 2 months ago, i broke up with her like a week ago, i still loved her but i just felt like she doesnt care about me, like i dont even matter. after a day we got back together, but 2 days ago she broke up with me, saying that she loves me, but our relationship doesnt work, we always argue etc. and sadly its right. I dont know what to do, today i went home early from school, because it was almost like she was pretending like im a stranger to her, i wanted to greet her, but when she didint even look at my face, i didint. In school, after 1 hour i couldnt take it anymore, i just went home, it was hard seeing her ignoring me. Later she texted me why i left, bla bla bla, i told her that i couldnt take it her acting like we are strangers, she said that she cant even look in my face cuz she would just cry.
I have gone bit off track
We always plan that we will go out but she never does, the last week, we were supposed to go like 3 times and we only went 1, even that was shorten for an hour. We said we will go this monday, obv she cancelled, the on tuesday morning before school, she said she didint wake up, then on this friday, she cancelled it, and even today, i just wanted to talk with her, but she said that cuz we arent in dating anymore, she thought it was cancelled and is going out with her friend instead. In the last few days i noticed that she was being avoidant, she stopped sending me videos, stopped showing me affection, stopped wanting conditional physical touch, less texting etc. etc.. I straight up asked her if she got someone else, she said no. She still claims that she misses my touch, loves me, etc. i just cant believe it, she stopped showing me the love. After we broke up the first time and got back together, she said we wont break up again. It doesnt hurt that the claim was broken, because i already expected it, i already expected her to cancel our hangouts, i dont have any positive expectations of her, so i should be sad right? yes, but there still was a little bit of hope left that she will do something, but didint. I feel like she doesnt even wanna talk genuinely with me. When something was bothering her, she never communicated rightly, i was the one who had to determine if she was angry/sad and ask her like 100 times whats wrong. Is proper communication really that hard?
I dont know what to do, i dont even wanna get back together cuz it js aint working, cuz im not really social person, (i try to be), but i am just not, its hard finding a girlfriend, she is the only girl i think will be interested in me. Im starting to feel like im unlovable.
I can already see the mainstream, kinda agenda. "Oh she is fucking another chad" "For ltb you have to be 190cm htn+" "hypergamy this hypergamy that"
Please give me real advice, all i ever wanted was to be happy, i just wanna be loved