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I grew up religious. I believed it, followed it, lived by it because that’s all I knew. It gave structure to everything and for a long time, I didn’t question any of it.
But now I don’t know if I believe in it anymore. I’ve changed. The way I see the world, the way I think, what makes sense to me it’s all different now. And when I try to force myself back into that old mindset, it just doesn’t feel real.
The problem is, my parents are extremely religious. And when I say "extremely," I mean they would probably disown me if I stopped following it. They wouldn’t see it as a personal decision or growth they’d see it as betrayal or the devil got to me etc.
It sucks to feel trapped between wanting to be honest and not wanting to destroy everything around me.
There’s main two options that I have:
Option a: live with it, this means marrying a woman of the same religion or living alone. Living my life as a lie.
Option b: own up to my disbelief, disowned and no support system.
Both options will probably lead to rope.
But now I don’t know if I believe in it anymore. I’ve changed. The way I see the world, the way I think, what makes sense to me it’s all different now. And when I try to force myself back into that old mindset, it just doesn’t feel real.
The problem is, my parents are extremely religious. And when I say "extremely," I mean they would probably disown me if I stopped following it. They wouldn’t see it as a personal decision or growth they’d see it as betrayal or the devil got to me etc.
It sucks to feel trapped between wanting to be honest and not wanting to destroy everything around me.
There’s main two options that I have:
Option a: live with it, this means marrying a woman of the same religion or living alone. Living my life as a lie.
Option b: own up to my disbelief, disowned and no support system.
Both options will probably lead to rope.
