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cheifkeefmogs
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I’ve spent basically the entire summer trying to improve myself. Lifting, working on my looks, trying to improve my style, confidence, everything. I’m currently MAX reaching MTN and honestly I thought I’d feel different by the time school started.
Now it’s only the second week and I already feel like a fucking loser.
I do have friends, so it’s not like I’m completely alone. But even when I’m hanging out with people, I still don’t feel happy with myself. It’s like I spent all summer trying to become a better version of myself and I’m still stuck feeling the same way.
Then there’s girls.
First day I saw this pretty, short brunette and immediately thought she was out of my league. Didn’t even try because I already convinced myself I had no chance. A week later I see her posted up with another dude. Brutal.
Then there was another girl, blonde, who I actually started talking to. Sat next to her on the first day, been having small talk with her since, asking about her summer, just being friendly and polite. Then she adds me on Snap and I’m thinking, “Oh shit, maybe she’s actually interested.”
Nope. She was just asking if my friend was single.
That one was sad
I know I shouldn’t let two girls determine how I see myself, but when you already feel insecure about your looks, shit like this hits way harder than it probably should.
I’ve spent all summer trying to improve myself, thinking maybe if I put in enough work I’d finally feel confident and actually have a chance with girls. And now I’m sitting here wondering what all that effort was even for.
I don’t even know. I just feel fucking defeated right now. I’ve been feeling like an incel and honestly I’m starting to wonder if I’m ever going to feel good about myself.
( first time posting on org)
Now it’s only the second week and I already feel like a fucking loser.
I do have friends, so it’s not like I’m completely alone. But even when I’m hanging out with people, I still don’t feel happy with myself. It’s like I spent all summer trying to become a better version of myself and I’m still stuck feeling the same way.
Then there’s girls.
First day I saw this pretty, short brunette and immediately thought she was out of my league. Didn’t even try because I already convinced myself I had no chance. A week later I see her posted up with another dude. Brutal.
Then there was another girl, blonde, who I actually started talking to. Sat next to her on the first day, been having small talk with her since, asking about her summer, just being friendly and polite. Then she adds me on Snap and I’m thinking, “Oh shit, maybe she’s actually interested.”
Nope. She was just asking if my friend was single.
That one was sad
I know I shouldn’t let two girls determine how I see myself, but when you already feel insecure about your looks, shit like this hits way harder than it probably should.
I’ve spent all summer trying to improve myself, thinking maybe if I put in enough work I’d finally feel confident and actually have a chance with girls. And now I’m sitting here wondering what all that effort was even for.
I don’t even know. I just feel fucking defeated right now. I’ve been feeling like an incel and honestly I’m starting to wonder if I’m ever going to feel good about myself.
( first time posting on org)