foid_destroyer333
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can’t even speak to friends without being mocked so i’ll post here instead, with being ND does it ever get better? i lack the social skills to hold a basic conversation with a fem or with most people for that matter. i used to think it was because of my appearance (definitely mainly still) but even after going from a lardass sub human to a pretty lean ltn at best nothing seems to have changed i blame medication mostly for my loneliness as since started methylphenidate for my adhd my focus has improved by miles but its too much, schoolwork being the only thing i can focus on my social skills began declining this is probably because i was jestering so much before the meds as that was the only source of attention i could get but atleast i gained friends and spoke to girls much more. i started feeling incredibly down recently and lacked any motivation i beg myself to get active but i end up not even trying, getting home from school after masking nd and my social battery drained all i can do is ldar, i overthink way too much and feel trapped in my own head i have also realised my friends probably don’t like me as i never get invited to things or involved as a group this is one of my biggest fears and i feel no one understands me i tried telling my mom how i was feeling depressed and other things but she told me i was emotionally blackmailing her and kicked me out, my craving for attention is so bad to the point i often fantasies of extreme illness or injury just to feel the attention of others, but what i wish for the most is to be born normal without nd and to be a normal teenager doing normal teenager things, i hope for my friends to notice my struggles and help me but i fear to tell them at the thought of being made fun of. i’m surrounded by people yet feel so alone. will i ever escape this or is it time to let go?
