Ropemaxx

[jord@nbarret]

I found out I had just been cheated on during my 2 year relationship, she was htb with a good body, Ive been close with this girl since 9th grade, im now a senior. I just transferred from the school we used to go to (smaller private school) into a bigger public school so I knew there was gonna be some trouble getting through the year, that's why I started taking LM seriously, I figured if I ascend more over the summer I wouldn't have a problem getting over this girl if anything happened or ideally that we would be happy together if I was better looking. I made a lot of improvement over summer with the help of the hammer, and some substances, I felt not only more confident, but on top of the world when school started. Once school started we couldn't make as much time for each other due to obligations starting up and what not, but other than that we were completely fine, we would talk at the end of the day and wind down with each other, and everything seemed like it was going fine. Prior to school starting I had just picked up a new job to save for running a cycle before my growth plates fused. Pinning 350mg of tren was the only thing I could think about doing during this time period, so I was picking up shifts like they were candy. I had a lot of conversation with my girlfriend about this cycle and she was okay with it, but what I did notice was that the relationship started changing. She started getting more jealous and insecure around me, (nothing that I wanted at the time) the sex was better on both ends ect. Now around 2 weeks ago, things started coming up about this guy she was talking to at school (he was black) I confronted her about it, she told me it was nothing, I had suspicion but I trusted this girl with my whole heart. Fast forward to 4 days ago, I get sent a video off of her phone on a Saturday at night ( she told me her grandma was home and I couldn't come over JFL). The video was him fucking her from the back, I immediately blocked her and I haven't heard a single word (honestly made it worse) I have no motivation to live, I don't want to roid, I don't want to go to work, I don't want to show up to school, I don't want to keep up with my hobbies. I have a horrible weed and nicotine addiction. I want to rope so bad I can't take the pain and agony. What is the most painless way to commit?