WhiteMan
3333, STATICPILLED, Victim of MK Ultra like Lanza
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I want to take a moment to publicly apologize to @RXnd for everything that happened. I was out of line, and I need to own that fully. Calling you a “cuck” and leaking all that stuff was messed up, unfair, and honestly way below the standard I should be holding myself to. None of it was justified, and it wasn’t just a bad look — it was straight-up disrespectful.
You didn’t deserve any of that. You handled everything with way more composure than I did. While you kept your cool, I was acting out, projecting, and letting my own insecurity steer the wheel. I said things I shouldn’t have said and did things I shouldn’t have done, and I regret all of it.
The truth is, you leveled up. You moved on, you improved, you handled things like an actual adult. Meanwhile, I was stuck in my own bitterness, taking cheap shots instead of admitting I was wrong. You ascended in ways I didn’t want to admit, and instead of acknowledging it, I lashed out.
I’m not proud of it. I acted petty because I felt left behind. I felt like the “truecel” in the situation — not in the literal ideology sense, but in the sense of being the guy who’s stuck, frustrated, and resentful while watching someone else grow. And instead of dealing with those feelings in a healthy way, I tried to drag you down to my level.
It wasn’t right. It wasn’t fair. And I’m sorry.
I’m putting this out publicly because I called you out publicly, and the least I can do is take responsibility in the same space where I disrespected you. You didn’t deserve that treatment, and I’m asking for your forgiveness — not because I expect it, but because you deserve to hear me admit I was wrong.
To anyone who saw the situation unfold: I was in the wrong. Not him. I let my ego and insecurity take over, and I’m trying to be better than that going forward. This is me holding myself accountable.
Once again, I’m sorry, @RXnd. You didn’t deserve any of that, and I hope this thread makes it clear that I know exactly how badly I messed up.
I also want to be clear about something else: none of what I did came from a place of strength or confidence. It came from insecurity, jealousy, and the fact that I couldn’t accept that someone I used to talk down on actually outgrew the situation while I stayed stuck. It’s embarrassing to admit, but it’s the truth.
When I called you names, when I leaked stuff, when I tried to clown you — all of that was me trying to cover up the fact that I felt small. You didn’t even retaliate. You didn’t get dragged into all the noise I created. You just kept moving forward, and that made it even more obvious how immature I was being.
You ascended, and instead of respecting that or being happy for someone else leveling up, I chose to act bitter. I tried to frame it like you were the problem when the reality is, the problem was me not wanting to accept my own flaws or work on myself.
And honestly, calling myself a “truecel” wasn’t some edgy joke — it was my way of admitting I’ve been stuck in a mindset where I expect the worst for myself and lash out when other people succeed. That’s not something to be proud of, and it’s not something I want to keep living in. You showed more growth in silence than I did with all the noise I made.
I don’t know if things can go back to how they were, and I’m not asking for that. I’m just trying to own up to the fact that I messed up, and that you didn’t deserve to be dragged into my mess.
If you see this, just know I’m genuinely trying to be better, even if I’ve been doing a pretty bad job of showing it.
I’m just mad you ascended while I rot as a deformed truecel.
You didn’t deserve any of that. You handled everything with way more composure than I did. While you kept your cool, I was acting out, projecting, and letting my own insecurity steer the wheel. I said things I shouldn’t have said and did things I shouldn’t have done, and I regret all of it.
The truth is, you leveled up. You moved on, you improved, you handled things like an actual adult. Meanwhile, I was stuck in my own bitterness, taking cheap shots instead of admitting I was wrong. You ascended in ways I didn’t want to admit, and instead of acknowledging it, I lashed out.
I’m not proud of it. I acted petty because I felt left behind. I felt like the “truecel” in the situation — not in the literal ideology sense, but in the sense of being the guy who’s stuck, frustrated, and resentful while watching someone else grow. And instead of dealing with those feelings in a healthy way, I tried to drag you down to my level.
It wasn’t right. It wasn’t fair. And I’m sorry.
I’m putting this out publicly because I called you out publicly, and the least I can do is take responsibility in the same space where I disrespected you. You didn’t deserve that treatment, and I’m asking for your forgiveness — not because I expect it, but because you deserve to hear me admit I was wrong.
To anyone who saw the situation unfold: I was in the wrong. Not him. I let my ego and insecurity take over, and I’m trying to be better than that going forward. This is me holding myself accountable.
Once again, I’m sorry, @RXnd. You didn’t deserve any of that, and I hope this thread makes it clear that I know exactly how badly I messed up.
I also want to be clear about something else: none of what I did came from a place of strength or confidence. It came from insecurity, jealousy, and the fact that I couldn’t accept that someone I used to talk down on actually outgrew the situation while I stayed stuck. It’s embarrassing to admit, but it’s the truth.
When I called you names, when I leaked stuff, when I tried to clown you — all of that was me trying to cover up the fact that I felt small. You didn’t even retaliate. You didn’t get dragged into all the noise I created. You just kept moving forward, and that made it even more obvious how immature I was being.
You ascended, and instead of respecting that or being happy for someone else leveling up, I chose to act bitter. I tried to frame it like you were the problem when the reality is, the problem was me not wanting to accept my own flaws or work on myself.
And honestly, calling myself a “truecel” wasn’t some edgy joke — it was my way of admitting I’ve been stuck in a mindset where I expect the worst for myself and lash out when other people succeed. That’s not something to be proud of, and it’s not something I want to keep living in. You showed more growth in silence than I did with all the noise I made.
I don’t know if things can go back to how they were, and I’m not asking for that. I’m just trying to own up to the fact that I messed up, and that you didn’t deserve to be dragged into my mess.
If you see this, just know I’m genuinely trying to be better, even if I’ve been doing a pretty bad job of showing it.
I’m just mad you ascended while I rot as a deformed truecel.
