Scared of life after looks altering surgeries

[IDontBlameAnybody]

Exactly op trust me.
Even @Linoob can confirm

Most ppl don’t care and WILL treat you better as long as you look better.
And they dgaf if it’s not the « real » you. Those kind of moral ideas actually never materialize in real life.
But difference of treatment cuz of looks does materialize instantly without notice

Whenever I go to a club or get drunk and think about this topic, I immediately wonder why tf am I even scared of shit like that

Ig when the inhibition gets low and I exclude other people’s opinions, I realise that my fear is kinda bs

 

[gnwitch]

Like I have my surgeries planned and mostly paid for already, but I can't help but to think how would people react when I would look a lot different.
Idk why but it feels embarrassing to think about that, like I'm sure that most of my friends who would see me would immediately assume cosmetic surgery even before I get the chance to larp about some stupid shit that they'll probably believe.

And it fucking bothers me lol, it makes me cringe and feel embarassed.

But it's not holding me back though, I'm sticking to the plan 100%, I'm just scared what life brings afterwards. Idk. Jaw surgeries for some reason feel a lot easier to larp (I'm getting lefort 1), but I'm also getting eye area work this summer so this won't be that easy most likely.

my larps:

anything jaw: sleep apnea, i couldnt breathe
anything eyes: I had blurry vision/dry eyes and needed this to fix it
anything nose: deviated septum

but tbh for the people who saw me go through like 5 surgeries they prob know im a psycho looksmaxxer but what can they even do besides keep it to themselves lol

 

[Simikz]

Well I'm 21, I lowkey wish I had the mindset I have now when I was 17-18. I think the earlier you get shit done, the better.

How come also how would u have the money at 18?