grilldaddy❤️
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I’m worthless and I do nothing to know and I’ve never done anything in my life worthless. I hate my life. I keep getting bullied and no no one around me does anything bad to me no one of my family but still I’m hard to understand because I think it’s a depression. That’s just like make me think that everything I do it. I don’t think that everything I do wrong. I just hate everybody. It’s like coping with this. I think maybe it’s a different stage of depression. I know that even that dumb you know the stage I don’t even know if it’s a real thing Like I’ve had. I’ve been very emotional lately. I’ve I’ve been very like my dad is depressed. My dad says I’m depressed. I don’t know still like I fucking hate this man. I’m gonna be honest I use my anger as a cooking and making me. I think you’re like it. Cancel me a week ago or some shit. I don’t even know if my sister can hear this rude that she could like it’s a coping mechanism for me, which is horrible. I hate it. I don’t know what I can do. Maybe any answer to it like I think my dad is already had a bad day. Maybe I didn’t feel like mentally horrible I didn’t feel that way I just physically I was filled alphabet. You know I wasn’t actually that to know I had to go. I did see my dad a different way. I didn’t seem like a different way like the same like I’m panicking because For them I didn’t seem in a panicking, but I’m losing him but I assume my AirPods off OK OK I mean my hours just fell off and just text to speech is horrible anyways so I wanna show this to my dad this English. I don’t even know why but I’m too worthless. I don’t know if I could change it like it’s any Wi-Fi if I’m not happy and my dad you think like school is making me have a social aspect And I feel so worthless so mentally I feel I’m mentally weak and I’m I’m wrong because that guy is bullying me you know it’s horrible. It’s horrible. He’s burning me a shit self improvement. I had a great man, but this makes sense. At least I could express my fault and you know that was great because at least my fault to my dad you know a coping mechanism that was healthy. This isn’t healthy self-destructing but you know yesterday I could actually focus on self, which felt great you know I was and you know kind of worried but I was getting better. I still didn’t feel didn’t feel happy I feel better. But I feel better than doing that right now. I’m being bored just just I don’t know why I just need him to die. You know before I would say I had a still filled in those things so bad you know Russian people will die like that. I’m just so angry right now. I don’t know if I’m angry or actually change myself. I don’t know, but I hope I have a chance. It’s probably my hormones, but I hate everything I have to take so I can actually you know what could help you right you know I would I know I would but could do that now or a bit of social ration. My dad is the best but I have those in actually one. Maybe I’m just thinking because somewhere taking this down and I’m talking to my phone. Because I’m talking to my oh my gosh, damn text to speech you know I’m talking to my notes app. I don’t know if it was like my dad may crash. it’s so depressing man I can fit I can. I’m not even joking. I can like feel myself lose slowly losing my sense of like purpose. You know my sense of drive. You know I know it’s because like I won’t have anyone to impress because I’m going to be a neat unfortunately if things continue just overthinking and probably overthinking and do sound weird right now I know like so weird right now it’s how to talk to people because you have to fulfill society or know as a fulfilled because able to selfish like me. Well I’m not selfish. I’m I’m not that selfish now. It is supposed to be a letter. It’s not that I don’t know if you should this depressing I’m probably gonna do it either way. I chased over two too fast now because I just I don’t have a long-term goal you know after maybe maybe I’m normal now maybe I’m normal because it chase do me a chase quick pleasures like I have no reason to do anything that sort of person maybe I’ll have to go to port but I can. I can’t both have to do homeschooling. I think this goes. I have to go to my dad I have to do homeschooling just just because maybe maybe I was just sad that I have a find a heart that that one comes with that fucking asshole you know destroyed that much but I don’t think I was so sad already but like I’m getting bored at my dad before but and it’s not his fault at all is my fault but I’m losing my sense of reality. It’s horrifying horrible and no one give me back unless I have to confirm because I don’t know which I lose. I lose to don’t like girls that I like I don’t like girls. I fucking hate every other man. I like doesn’t only because I go because I’m straight nothing wrong with that. I’ll have to lock in for school. I’m talking to a fucking app which is retarded so it’s just have to focus, but it’s gonna be happening, but I can do with the help with AI and stuff like that I believe that make me feel better. anyway, I don’t see the nurse to kill myself if I want to end myself anymore to myself anymore cause I just feel the hurt. I just feel like I feel everyone around me is wrong, which is hard when you go to school and suffer as if this don’t fake it then I can’t go to a gun. I can’t go to high school or the later education I can go later later education which is depressing that I have to work a normal job, but I can’t even run a social directions you know but I need social directions so I just not happy because that you know I think it drives me because it’s a new experience every day because otherwise the Internet is just mine in my life, which is horrible get into it depressing person and I know it’s horrible because like I know that I’m not gonna be happy because I know I know my life before I’m going to know what my life is before. I’m going to be depressed. Listen to worst part of things the worst. it’s annoying how he keeps cutting out before you but fuck it. I’m probably gonna take muscle and I’m probably gonna hate myself. I hate myself like I know what I’m doing to you. Loser Lucifer like if I can’t be have fun with dad or can you talk to my dad which I wanna do last resort and I loved it even though it was hard. I still loved it now I feel contempt for human reason and it’s not like some sort of always exaggeration, but I don’t feel this hatred like it’s like every person I talk to. I have to be angry with because it’s not them. It’s just like just feel right now. It’s like that he can read this and just I’m giving him a lot stress which is horrible, but I hope I can go to later education and in my own home I don’t know so so annoying. It’s like I’m getting very sad for people, but I can’t really express it anymore. maybe the ability will come back as long as I’m like this. I hate it. It’s probably gonna get worse and I know my father said that if I exist, it will happen it can happen because my brain has it. I’ve been having in this mass everything, my brain tells me truth you know fucked today. I have only a couple of duties. I have vitamins, whitening strips gym, and then I have eating and bathing and then you know hygiene, but that’s all that is pretty nice life but get depressing real quick. If I don’t have like suffer to wake up, you know they can be like talking about that if I was alone, I would probably just like be so bored in my life and do I have to make friends with my dad at least I have someone to talk to which I’ll be probably better because I’ll be with my life then I’ll have more energy to do things now and maybe I’ll be able to finish school which I just need to. I’m not even done talking like I think so many things so so much and answer the questions that I had to get for young children, so my mom told me so and they’re not fast acting they honestly said a way to work right but honestly, I just found something it’s kind of concerning how like easy to talk in English to Danish for me because I’m consuming so much media now it’s always been east of English. You know it won’t even help me in English class you know which was the only benefit of it because I not be able to go there at least I’ve show my teacher and so she’ll probably like fine fine because you know it’s not talk to people talk about PS also also I search kind of for you right now, I feel free. I’m not trapped. I can show my emotions and also I’m talking to myself right now. I don’t wanna stick around maybe more normal public actually because I’m not trying to hide something. It’s also someone else was. He was crazy. but right now I’m like talking to myself. I should’ve cut out but I miss I was talking if they cut it I’ll continue I can. I’m awake enough because I’m talking to myself enough my mind that I’ll probably be saying it, but I can feel very slim of me of my person on my identity fading away, which is horrifying depressed, but also makes her pure depression that I’m changing, but understand that they may not like they also have consent for me because I’m evil right now I’m angry and I can’t control it. It’s horrible. I hope it’ll get better. I hope they’ll be a new me but it’ll be our real friends. It’s fine. I don’t need the as long as I’m saying, as long as I’m saying, it’s fine. I don’t need them. My sister can hear it. I don’t care don’t care about. It’s like a boyfriend. so if you know, I bring the topics back-and-forth from topics, but I want to talk really I wanna talk purely I cried like school I quite like to so that I would like to speak with a winning, but then you’re not didn’t feel anything at home because of the focus on school, which made me different and maybe like if the bus like constantly imitating people which took like a year for them to warm it wasn’t do that I didn’t have an identity. I didn’t have a moral rider wrong competition. We just always do right now but that’s only because of available ones which luckily I don’t I don’t actually know, but it could in theory or in my mind. My mind texting me and over it clear my mind probably not develop so like I’ll have the same mindset which is just it’s probably just horrible now it’s scary. It’s scary to have the same minds and love is stuck as a 15 year and I’ll be home atmosphere i’ll be homeless
