BWC_virgin
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My life is shit at the moment, I’m sick I feel giga tired and I still have tons of shit to do
Part 1 my life sucks rn:
I wake up go to school, sit in class doing nothing for 7 hours, go to track practice but I’m injured rn so I can’t do anything, I just talk with my friends for a while then leave. Go home and try to do shitty homework (I have brainfog and can barely function cuz im sick rn). Then give up on homework and sit in my bed contemplating my existence, (where I’m writing this rn) realize Im giga lonely and a kissless virgin at 18 even tho im decent looking, reflect on lost potential like how a bunch of girls thought I was gl but I never got with them idk why. and then try to find some meaning in life, having no idea what the best path forward is in my life for the long term and bieng bieng able to acheave everything I have to but nothing I want. Like I just want a girlfriend and a simple life but I have to deal with my complex and confusing as fuck high school system To not learn anything (I legit don’t learn shit I sit in class and try to cope with sitting in a fucking chair doing literally nothing for 6 hours each day holy fuck, I can’t even drop any of my shitty classes because of my high schools retarded rules). In one of my classes (physics) I legit sit on my phone browsing offtopic on this forum not doing shit for an hour and a half and then only take the tests (I have An A- jfl).
The worst part is I know I could get what I want easily if I knew how but I don’t, this shit is not logical and I can’t figure it out,
Part 2 rant about nt
I’m gonna sound a little narcissistic here but it’s the truth, my htn+ friends and maybe me are single becouse we are high iq I know that sounds like some gigacope but legit 2 of my friends are 1500+ sat very high iq and have got asked out by women (mtbs) but they are single becouse they function purely on logic and don’t act on a fiber of emotion, they do work constantly to better themselves (study, hobbies, work, ets…) but don’t give a fuck and never brag or shit because they don’t care about validation, this makes them essentially non nt in our fucked up world, one things my friend said that I related to is that if he actually liked a girl (like a onitis) he would never tell anyone including the girl and would act completely normal as if he didn’t care. I realized I do the same shit (I literally did) and somehow in both our brains this is the only course of action that makes sense. Also both of us feel uncomfortable to go out of our way to talk to a girl becouse we like her about something unrelated or pretend you are interested in talking to them for some other reason. It seems dishonest and cucked even tho it’s probably the only way to get a girl a lot of the time.
Heres an observation (GIGAWATER)
me and lots of my friends have never done drugs or alcohol, why? Becouse it’s retarded and we never felt the need to. There is no reason too. But most people who slay do
For example:
Iv never been to a crazy high school party. A guy I know is a borderline alcoholic at 17 and constantly stoned. He slays at parties but his life and mental state are not ideal. He gets invited to parties becouse he hangs out with drugged out collage kids. Why don’t me or my friend do this, because our parents are happily married and we are not retarded his parents are separated and he grew up with them separated. He is relitivly high iq but not the brightest in other ways
I have constant decision paralysis because I make decisions based off logic rather than whatever nt people do. Like I have to decide what to do with my life and it’s literally impossible to figure out the correct life path in 2024 but normies will be like “I’m gonna go to art school, I’m not sure what I’m going to do quite yet tho” like wtf how can you not be constant tormented by the prospect of your own future
I also find it virtually impossible to justify giving girls attention by pursuing interactions with them, idk why but it’s just fucked, some of you will understand. I’m not even high inhib I’m very low inhib I just can’t do shit becouse my brain knows it’s socially cucked and retarded/illogical even tho nobody else cares or notices, like im playing 4d social chess constantly and even when it works like if girls or normies end up thinking I’m special or idolize me or something I don’t even know what to do with status so I fuck it up anyway. Kinda like looksmaxing, even tho girls say I am gl behind my back they act shy or uninterested in person, but idk why and I don’t know what to do with iois, I hate it tbh I wish people were more like me mentally. Some of my friends are like me and we are 100% honest, logical and 0 inhibition but most people aren’t.
A good example is some of my friends told me a girl I knew thought i was gl or had a crush on me or whatever (definitely legit info) but I didn’t pursue her because it seems cucked to act based on that information. I can’t explain why this is how I think but it is somehow.
Also I’m basically incapable of bieng dishonest at this point tho I have 0 inhibition as well and I tell people the truth or my legit opinion even when they don’t want to hear it. I am incapable of playing social games or adjusting to any social rules that are illogical and shit it’s retarded. I wish everyone acted like me because I wouldn’t have to constantly analyze everyone’s thoughts and mental state to see if they are bieng polite or truthful or if we understand each others intent, or whether we infer the other person properly understood our intent. People would just be straight up. Thats more so how it is in other cultures and countries Iv heard tho so maybe it’s just a cultural thing.
I hope someone finds the meaning I tried to convey within this rant, maybe people will relate to it idk.
Part 1 my life sucks rn:
I wake up go to school, sit in class doing nothing for 7 hours, go to track practice but I’m injured rn so I can’t do anything, I just talk with my friends for a while then leave. Go home and try to do shitty homework (I have brainfog and can barely function cuz im sick rn). Then give up on homework and sit in my bed contemplating my existence, (where I’m writing this rn) realize Im giga lonely and a kissless virgin at 18 even tho im decent looking, reflect on lost potential like how a bunch of girls thought I was gl but I never got with them idk why. and then try to find some meaning in life, having no idea what the best path forward is in my life for the long term and bieng bieng able to acheave everything I have to but nothing I want. Like I just want a girlfriend and a simple life but I have to deal with my complex and confusing as fuck high school system To not learn anything (I legit don’t learn shit I sit in class and try to cope with sitting in a fucking chair doing literally nothing for 6 hours each day holy fuck, I can’t even drop any of my shitty classes because of my high schools retarded rules). In one of my classes (physics) I legit sit on my phone browsing offtopic on this forum not doing shit for an hour and a half and then only take the tests (I have An A- jfl).
The worst part is I know I could get what I want easily if I knew how but I don’t, this shit is not logical and I can’t figure it out,
Part 2 rant about nt
I’m gonna sound a little narcissistic here but it’s the truth, my htn+ friends and maybe me are single becouse we are high iq I know that sounds like some gigacope but legit 2 of my friends are 1500+ sat very high iq and have got asked out by women (mtbs) but they are single becouse they function purely on logic and don’t act on a fiber of emotion, they do work constantly to better themselves (study, hobbies, work, ets…) but don’t give a fuck and never brag or shit because they don’t care about validation, this makes them essentially non nt in our fucked up world, one things my friend said that I related to is that if he actually liked a girl (like a onitis) he would never tell anyone including the girl and would act completely normal as if he didn’t care. I realized I do the same shit (I literally did) and somehow in both our brains this is the only course of action that makes sense. Also both of us feel uncomfortable to go out of our way to talk to a girl becouse we like her about something unrelated or pretend you are interested in talking to them for some other reason. It seems dishonest and cucked even tho it’s probably the only way to get a girl a lot of the time.
Heres an observation (GIGAWATER)
me and lots of my friends have never done drugs or alcohol, why? Becouse it’s retarded and we never felt the need to. There is no reason too. But most people who slay do
For example:
Iv never been to a crazy high school party. A guy I know is a borderline alcoholic at 17 and constantly stoned. He slays at parties but his life and mental state are not ideal. He gets invited to parties becouse he hangs out with drugged out collage kids. Why don’t me or my friend do this, because our parents are happily married and we are not retarded his parents are separated and he grew up with them separated. He is relitivly high iq but not the brightest in other ways
I have constant decision paralysis because I make decisions based off logic rather than whatever nt people do. Like I have to decide what to do with my life and it’s literally impossible to figure out the correct life path in 2024 but normies will be like “I’m gonna go to art school, I’m not sure what I’m going to do quite yet tho” like wtf how can you not be constant tormented by the prospect of your own future
I also find it virtually impossible to justify giving girls attention by pursuing interactions with them, idk why but it’s just fucked, some of you will understand. I’m not even high inhib I’m very low inhib I just can’t do shit becouse my brain knows it’s socially cucked and retarded/illogical even tho nobody else cares or notices, like im playing 4d social chess constantly and even when it works like if girls or normies end up thinking I’m special or idolize me or something I don’t even know what to do with status so I fuck it up anyway. Kinda like looksmaxing, even tho girls say I am gl behind my back they act shy or uninterested in person, but idk why and I don’t know what to do with iois, I hate it tbh I wish people were more like me mentally. Some of my friends are like me and we are 100% honest, logical and 0 inhibition but most people aren’t.
A good example is some of my friends told me a girl I knew thought i was gl or had a crush on me or whatever (definitely legit info) but I didn’t pursue her because it seems cucked to act based on that information. I can’t explain why this is how I think but it is somehow.
Also I’m basically incapable of bieng dishonest at this point tho I have 0 inhibition as well and I tell people the truth or my legit opinion even when they don’t want to hear it. I am incapable of playing social games or adjusting to any social rules that are illogical and shit it’s retarded. I wish everyone acted like me because I wouldn’t have to constantly analyze everyone’s thoughts and mental state to see if they are bieng polite or truthful or if we understand each others intent, or whether we infer the other person properly understood our intent. People would just be straight up. Thats more so how it is in other cultures and countries Iv heard tho so maybe it’s just a cultural thing.
I hope someone finds the meaning I tried to convey within this rant, maybe people will relate to it idk.