theonewhocantascend
Mengele is coming for your kids.
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F22 before commenting on me telling me I'm a misogynist, I wouldn't dare to hurt another human male or female and this is a vent how a sick mind works, I know it's not normal so yeah and when I have these thoughts I try to eliminate them as soon as possible but they are still there, if this post evoques a negative reaction on you knowing you can't understand what I say for mkne and your own good and resource of tome please ignore it.
What do you mean I have to fast, think about food 24h, count kcal and eliminate them after a binge with the most horrible methods and I'm not still skinny? Fuck you, then you post your little TikTok "sT0pp sk!nnyYh sh@aaamIIng" acting like being thin is a problem, I perfectly know you want approval being insufferable.
And no, skinny people don't have idea how being called fat changes your whole life.
When I see a woman thinner than me on the street my brain just goes blank, I feel this unexplainable rage and I want to manually remove my fat and scream at her face "why?" The wrath I feel along the envy is agonizing, Im the most envious person I know and it makes me feel sick about myself, about my lack of self control and unjustified hatred for other.
Is either worse when you are talking with one of them and they start "oH I wIshhh I wAs cUrvbierrr" shut up, just shut up please shut up, is not fair, is not fucking fair even if it's illogical I don't give a fuck my sacrifices go down the drain and you just get called pretty, femenine and delicate for existing fuck you.
They remember me I'm a failure and yeah, woman can get as cruel if not worse than men.
I think this comes from the fact I was bullied horribly and two of my bf cheated on me with my ex best friend which was severely underweight and really attractive.
I feel like a monster worse now that I'm skinny-fat I'm literally deformed and I feel so unthankful to God and life saying this I ask for forgiveness but I see my body as the one of am ogre I'm horrible.
I feel less of a woman when I see a beautiful delicate slender woman, I dont give a fuck if these standards were set by men themselves or aliens I just want to be weightless too but I can't because I'm a failure.
I ended up becoming obese 2 years ago (which I never was) and lost more than 25kg in less than a year using methods I wouldn't recommend to no one nor I encourage going down that path because well I'm here as an example of what it does to you.
They always remember me I'm disgusting, men will say they love feminine curvy women AHAHAHAHAHA AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA no, the bastards will cheat on a girl that is visibly malnourished, watch petite actresses in porn and subtly or directly bully you in the most obnoxious ways to loose weight.
"You should be healthier" "Actually yeah, you are right those sweets are bad for you" "ahaha you skipped a meal?"
And the retarded dunces don't have the intellect to understand you're deep in an ED or know but they will ignore it.
I want to be thin but I know I never will, I hate myself so much and I hate others because I hate myself.
Thanks for reading, if this post gets blocked I'll completely understand.
What do you mean I have to fast, think about food 24h, count kcal and eliminate them after a binge with the most horrible methods and I'm not still skinny? Fuck you, then you post your little TikTok "sT0pp sk!nnyYh sh@aaamIIng" acting like being thin is a problem, I perfectly know you want approval being insufferable.
And no, skinny people don't have idea how being called fat changes your whole life.
When I see a woman thinner than me on the street my brain just goes blank, I feel this unexplainable rage and I want to manually remove my fat and scream at her face "why?" The wrath I feel along the envy is agonizing, Im the most envious person I know and it makes me feel sick about myself, about my lack of self control and unjustified hatred for other.
Is either worse when you are talking with one of them and they start "oH I wIshhh I wAs cUrvbierrr" shut up, just shut up please shut up, is not fair, is not fucking fair even if it's illogical I don't give a fuck my sacrifices go down the drain and you just get called pretty, femenine and delicate for existing fuck you.
They remember me I'm a failure and yeah, woman can get as cruel if not worse than men.
I think this comes from the fact I was bullied horribly and two of my bf cheated on me with my ex best friend which was severely underweight and really attractive.
I feel like a monster worse now that I'm skinny-fat I'm literally deformed and I feel so unthankful to God and life saying this I ask for forgiveness but I see my body as the one of am ogre I'm horrible.
I feel less of a woman when I see a beautiful delicate slender woman, I dont give a fuck if these standards were set by men themselves or aliens I just want to be weightless too but I can't because I'm a failure.
I ended up becoming obese 2 years ago (which I never was) and lost more than 25kg in less than a year using methods I wouldn't recommend to no one nor I encourage going down that path because well I'm here as an example of what it does to you.
They always remember me I'm disgusting, men will say they love feminine curvy women AHAHAHAHAHA AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA no, the bastards will cheat on a girl that is visibly malnourished, watch petite actresses in porn and subtly or directly bully you in the most obnoxious ways to loose weight.
"You should be healthier" "Actually yeah, you are right those sweets are bad for you" "ahaha you skipped a meal?"
And the retarded dunces don't have the intellect to understand you're deep in an ED or know but they will ignore it.
I want to be thin but I know I never will, I hate myself so much and I hate others because I hate myself.
Thanks for reading, if this post gets blocked I'll completely understand.
