Self Awareness and Change

[Cayde1428F]

Recently during my school holidays I've been trying to improve my awareness, reflection and control of my thinking and actions. I want to be an individual who has the ability to control myself from a higher level, sort of like watching yourself in real time.

For awareness of myself, I feel that I'm mostly there, I've identified the problems I face, the emotions I feel during certain moments, the root causes behind some of the actions I carry out instinctually; but then again, I might also not be that self aware because I know that there are many things about myself that I still don't know.
For reflection, its honestly a good split in the middle. I can decode and unpack half the things that I am aware of myself, but there's still a shit ton of stuff I can't really explain about myself.

Honestly, the problem is reflection and control. I just keep falling back into the same fucking loops over and over. I am aware of it in real-time, its basically watching yourself plummet down a cliff over and over again wasting your potential, without knowing how to get out of it. Social media, pork, games.

I feel that its because I don't understand myself well enough thus I don't know what to do and where to start.

Has anyone been in or is experiencing this situation? I need help

 

[jozsef316@gmail]

Are you a robot dog in a subhuman body

 

[jozsef316@gmail]

Good job on discovering awearness, doggie!

Social media, pork, games.

 

[Cayde1428F]

Good job on discovering awearness, doggie!

Since you're so confident that such a thing is shallow enough for everyone to understand why not you elaborate on one of your problems? Everyone can say that they have self awareness, but what matters is the depth of their understanding. If you can't even give a satisfactory response or ignore my post we'll know who the dog is. Challenge me with logic, not insults

 

[Cayde1428F]

Reply to me within an hour or you're just proving me right