Self diary- will improve myself

[retardthatwaited]

20 year old male. About to be 21 in some months. Last I checked barely 6ft. Never had a gf. Thankful have 1 friend. 0 life experience in fucking everything. The only thing I got going is my okay intelligence and I'm basically turning into a schizo vampire. I've had girls interested in me but I either didn't pursue or they lost interest.

I used to wish so badly when I was like 12 to grow up into being 6'4-5 with 8 inch dick. Did not happen . I don't know what happened but my genes aren't to blame for this. I fucked up. I'm not sure if it was the lack of exercise or the constant sleeping or eating shit. From time to time I'd eat really healthy just to fall back into shit food again then repeat. I even took a large range of height supplements in my adolescence. I mewed. I did looksmaxxing before it was ever fucking looksmaxxing. I was on the hub not gooning but looking for strats on how to improve all facets. I'm too ashamed to show my skinny-fat body / face.

What i want-
-some inches
-some extra height to atleast 6'2 ( I do not care about growth plates)
-facial symmetry
-visible jawline
-i guess better hairline/ beard fullness even tho I prefer clean shaved