Self hatred.

[gurt]

I hate myself. So much so I hate looking at the mirror. I hate going out in the sun because it makes my acne red scars look worse. I avoid brightly lit rooms too because of this. I hate people getting close to my face even when they want to show affection (mother) because it makes my skin flaws more. I have a 6'5 bestfriend, we both were around the same position at 13. now, at 16 (abt to turn 17) he's mogs me to oblivion. he's way more developed. Why not me? Why not me? Why not me? I don't hate him, he's still my bro. But still, why didn't i develop the same way. i hate myself. I fucking hate myself. I am miserable. I don't want to go out anywhere to show my face. I hate myself. I don't even want to go to birthday parties of my relatives just because of how much I fucking hate myself because of my fucking skin. I fucking ruined everything and It's all my fucking fault. I'm literally fucking tearing up writing this. There is so much self hatred in my heart. So much guilt and regrets that eat me up everyday. They consume me. Everyday. Every living moment. I fucking hate it all. I didn't celebrate new years, halloween, thanksgiving or christmas with anyone. All I did was rot at my room. I fucking hate myself. My parents know Im a fucking loser with no friends because I've never even held a birthday party (im 16) nor do I go anywhere. They even asked me, "Why don't you have friends, you should go out more". They are a lovely pair. I don't blame them. I blame myself. It's all my fucking fault. I fucked everything up. I am literally tearing up man. I can't take it anymore......... I'm sorry for venting so much and being a pain here too.

dnr test + ai + acutane

 

[shaneywaney69]

Yes brother. I will. Only a matter of time.

Please believe in yourself bro, you will get better.

 

[Bizygomatic]

dnr test + ai + acutane

Already took accutane. Don't have much acne, just scars. I got my 5th session of laser treatment yesterday.

 

[moham.med2s]

and you still complaining i love my lonely life. its awesome not talking to anyone you can do whatever you want

fr

 

[Deleted member 276248]

It's my fucking face ridden with fucking pigments and slight scars that wont fucking go away even after laser treatments. I hate my fucking face. I hate my fucking self. Living at home and celebrating festivals with no one while you watch everyone doing it is not fun. I envy you if you're able to have fun in a life like this. I really fucking envy you. I feel like a disgrace.

At some point you just gotta get over it bro.

 

[maximusw]

Dude, honestly it sounds like you need a sport. I was in the same exact position as you until I started playing tennis, dude I’m not even kidding get good and you’ll have so many friends. It’s so freaking fun, especially at your age. I don’t even really think about my weight or fitness anymore because my sport keeps me in shape. You 100% get this bro, you need something to live for. Focus on your mental and social state first and your physical state will improve as well.

 

[Regular guy ltn]

I hate myself. So much so I hate looking at the mirror. I hate going out in the sun because it makes my acne red scars look worse. I avoid brightly lit rooms too because of this. I hate people getting close to my face even when they want to show affection (mother) because it makes my skin flaws more. I have a 6'5 bestfriend, we both were around the same position at 13. now, at 16 (abt to turn 17) he's mogs me to oblivion. he's way more developed. Why not me? Why not me? Why not me? I don't hate him, he's still my bro. But still, why didn't i develop the same way. i hate myself. I fucking hate myself. I am miserable. I don't want to go out anywhere to show my face. I hate myself. I don't even want to go to birthday parties of my relatives just because of how much I fucking hate myself because of my fucking skin. I fucking ruined everything and It's all my fucking fault. I'm literally fucking tearing up writing this. There is so much self hatred in my heart. So much guilt and regrets that eat me up everyday. They consume me. Everyday. Every living moment. I fucking hate it all. I didn't celebrate new years, halloween, thanksgiving or christmas with anyone. All I did was rot at my room. I fucking hate myself. My parents know Im a fucking loser with no friends because I've never even held a birthday party (im 16) nor do I go anywhere. They even asked me, "Why don't you have friends, you should go out more". They are a lovely pair. I don't blame them. I blame myself. It's all my fucking fault. I fucked everything up. I am literally tearing up man. I can't take it anymore......... I'm sorry for venting so much and being a pain here too.

Planning on getting a surgery any surgeon suggestions? Not trynna end up uncanny

 

[Regular guy ltn]

Dude, honestly it sounds like you need a sport. I was in the same exact position as you until I started playing tennis, dude I’m not even kidding get good and you’ll have so many friends. It’s so freaking fun, especially at your age. I don’t even really think about my weight or fitness anymore because my sport keeps me in shape. You 100% get this bro, you need something to live for. Focus on your mental and social state first and your physical state will improve as well.

Lifefuel

 

[sick kunt31]

I will be the next CLaviuclar

 

[DoomedOne]

dnr sucks to be u

Then why responding?

 

[Framemaxxx]

Muhmmuumm

 

[Staddber]

I hate myself. So much so I hate looking at the mirror. I hate going out in the sun because it makes my acne red scars look worse. I avoid brightly lit rooms too because of this. I hate people getting close to my face even when they want to show affection (mother) because it makes my skin flaws more. I have a 6'5 bestfriend, we both were around the same position at 13. now, at 16 (abt to turn 17) he's mogs me to oblivion.

You remind me of myself.
hope it gets better for you.

 

[Bizygomatic]

You remind me of myself.
hope it gets better for you.

I remind you of yourself? That's rare to hear. How were you like? What makes you similar? How did you overcome this?

 

[Staddber]

I remind you of yourself? That's rare to hear. How were you like? What makes you similar? How did you overcome this?

Yeah, because I used to have really bad acne. I’d break out constantly—almost every day I’d wake up with a new whitehead. I hated looking in the mirror. On top of that, I was skinny as hell, and people used to make fun of me for it.
I also had a best friend who looked way better than me, and it honestly made me jealous. I kept wondering why I couldn’t just look normal like him.
For about a year I was basically alone, and all I could think about was trying to look like a normal human being and be treated like one. Eventually, I stopped stressing over the things I couldn’t change and started accepting the way I look and what I was given in life.
Even now, I’m still kind of lonely, but I’m okay with it because that’s just who I am. I still have acne, but since I started using tretinoin it’s gotten a lot better. I used to overthink everything I ate because I was scared it would make my acne worse.
Now I look a lot better than before, but more importantly, I’ve accepted my appearance and my social life. Even when I look in the mirror today, I still remember how much I used to cry when I saw myself.
So don’t stress too much. Do what you can and your enjoy life and be positive and shit.
Used to be depressed for like 3-4 years I understand what u going through.

 

[Bizygomatic]

Yeah, because I used to have really bad acne. I’d break out constantly—almost every day I’d wake up with a new whitehead. I hated looking in the mirror. On top of that, I was skinny as hell, and people used to make fun of me for it.
I also had a best friend who looked way better than me, and it honestly made me jealous. I kept wondering why I couldn’t just look normal like him.
For about a year I was basically alone, and all I could think about was trying to look like a normal human being and be treated like one. Eventually, I stopped stressing over the things I couldn’t change and started accepting the way I look and what I was given in life.
Even now, I’m still kind of lonely, but I’m okay with it because that’s just who I am. I still have acne, but since I started using tretinoin it’s gotten a lot better. I used to overthink everything I ate because I was scared it would make my acne worse.
Now I look a lot better than before, but more importantly, I’ve accepted my appearance and my social life. Even when I look in the mirror today, I still remember how much I used to cry when I saw myself.
So don’t stress too much. Do what you can and your enjoy life and be positive and shit.
Used to be depressed for like 3-4 years I understand what u going through.

How old are you right now? (also press the little thumps up/+1 thing on my replies)

 

[Staddber]

How old are you right now? (also press the little thumps up/+1 thing on my reply

18

 

[Regular guy ltn]

I will be the next CLaviuclar

Gtfo