mogslop9000
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For the past few years, I have been dedicated to improving myself as much as possible. I was tired of both going unnoticed by women, and feeling unsatisfied with my appearance. I had grown up a fat, short child, and have struggled with self image my entire life. At 16, I decided to starve and try ostarine in a bid to lose as much weight as possible. It worked, and I went from 230 lbs down to my lowest of 168 lbs in about 6 months. I looked and felt much better, however I now looked like a 5’7 twink. This began my seriousness in fitness and bodybuilding. Nonetheless, I managed to get my first girlfriend. She was not my looksmatch, if I may be brutally honest, yet we stayed together during my last year of highschool. For the first time in my life spanning from the last half of my junior year to end of my senior year, I had many girls voice their interest in me, and it felt great. Inevitably I ended things with my first gf and started college, where I had put on 25 lbs of lean muscle and grown my hair out a bit. I noticed a few IOI’s in my classes from girls, and even had a girl’s friend ask for my Instagram. Yet again I chose another ABSOLUTLE LTB to date, even my family couldn’t understand why I was with her. Another treacherous year passed, and summer came. I was once again single, and been growing hair to shoulder length. That fall school started again, and I met an MTB who was “alt” (should have been a massive red flag) and I even overlooked her promiscuous tendencies and body count (JFL). However, we stayed together for a year and a half. That following spring, I started my first test cycle. Even on 300 mg I became a disgusting, watery, long-haired bloatcel. I eventually came off during the summer, and it wasn’t until that winter I decided to cycle again. I had now been a longtime lurker of this sub and other forums for a few years, and decided it was time to ascend as much as I could. I developed a skin routine that included Tretinoin, and committed to introducing pharmaceology in my life to look better. I knew I could do much better with girls, and was done letting my low self confidence make me choose worn out LTB’s. I first ran Retatrutide, going from around 15% bodyfat down to 11-12% in about 2 months. I ended up leaving that gf, and decided to start a test/mast/primo cycle right after. I began this past May, and am still on now. If bloodwork allows, I plan to blast and cruise for as long as possible, unless I start too look bad or lose hair. I had long hair for the past 3 years, and it was understandably a massive looksmin, but it wasn’t until a month or two after my last relationship I decided to cut it. I am currently 5’10, 195 lbs and roughly 10% bodyfat, and pics are current. I look better than 99% of men in a 100 mile radius where I live (rural Midwest). Yet I struggle harder with getting women than anyone I know.
I finally got back into the dating scene a couple months ago. I felt it would be easy, since I objectively look much better than any young man I know of. I couldn’t have been more wrong. I am constantly humiliated on dating apps by fat women being the only ones who send me likes. I’ve talked to a few different girls, and they ended up choosing absolute DYEL LTN’s over me. Truthfully, all I want is to hookup with a chick, and no matter how hard I try and how hard I try to establish a pseudo-relationship or even friendship with a girl, it fails. It’s like every single one of them find me unattractive or unappealing in some way. I’ve even been so desperate as to send likes and attempt to DM girls that I know are farrrr under my looksmatch, even overweight girls, all in an attempt to feel like I can be attractive to women. And still, nothing. It’s either no response, very dry texts, or it fizzles out quick. I had been talking to a local girl on snap who is again far below my looksmatch, and I look today to see she’s on a date with some blue collar mouthbreathing fucktard, who has never seen the inside of a gym before in his life, and the kicker? He’s the same height as me, so it’s not even because of his height. I have accepted that women are never going to choose me first for whatever reason. I will forever struggle to appeal to them. I legitimately have spent nearly every day of the past year in the same exact routine: work/classes, gym, go home. I haven’t gone to a bar or social event, because I have legitimately no friends except one that I go to the gym with a few days a week and another I go to metal shows with on occasional, although my mom drives me to them most of the time to keep my company or I just take myself. Any outing I go to is with my family. Ever since I started to look much better, I’ve lost old friends. I have over 1k followers on Instagram, and frequently post both guitar/metal content and fitness content. Yet apart from my group of 30 post likers, I receive zero praise or compliments or even chats from women and old friends. I have spent every day of my life becoming as interesting and as attractive as possible, and it’s done nothing for me except make me bitter at my life circumstances. And before you say anything, I dress as seen in photo 1 and similar if I am going anyplace other than the gym. I don’t wear my band tees around women.
I finally got back into the dating scene a couple months ago. I felt it would be easy, since I objectively look much better than any young man I know of. I couldn’t have been more wrong. I am constantly humiliated on dating apps by fat women being the only ones who send me likes. I’ve talked to a few different girls, and they ended up choosing absolute DYEL LTN’s over me. Truthfully, all I want is to hookup with a chick, and no matter how hard I try and how hard I try to establish a pseudo-relationship or even friendship with a girl, it fails. It’s like every single one of them find me unattractive or unappealing in some way. I’ve even been so desperate as to send likes and attempt to DM girls that I know are farrrr under my looksmatch, even overweight girls, all in an attempt to feel like I can be attractive to women. And still, nothing. It’s either no response, very dry texts, or it fizzles out quick. I had been talking to a local girl on snap who is again far below my looksmatch, and I look today to see she’s on a date with some blue collar mouthbreathing fucktard, who has never seen the inside of a gym before in his life, and the kicker? He’s the same height as me, so it’s not even because of his height. I have accepted that women are never going to choose me first for whatever reason. I will forever struggle to appeal to them. I legitimately have spent nearly every day of the past year in the same exact routine: work/classes, gym, go home. I haven’t gone to a bar or social event, because I have legitimately no friends except one that I go to the gym with a few days a week and another I go to metal shows with on occasional, although my mom drives me to them most of the time to keep my company or I just take myself. Any outing I go to is with my family. Ever since I started to look much better, I’ve lost old friends. I have over 1k followers on Instagram, and frequently post both guitar/metal content and fitness content. Yet apart from my group of 30 post likers, I receive zero praise or compliments or even chats from women and old friends. I have spent every day of my life becoming as interesting and as attractive as possible, and it’s done nothing for me except make me bitter at my life circumstances. And before you say anything, I dress as seen in photo 1 and similar if I am going anyplace other than the gym. I don’t wear my band tees around women.
