Serious confidence issues

[BETAisodona]

So basically I‘m 21M and a virgin. I never kissed or touched a girl sexually. My best friend is very good looking and confident. He never had a problem getting girls. He went to parties and events without me. Probably because I‘m socially awkward and kind of ugly. He got into contact with a lot of girls that way, while I don’t even have one girl on my phone. I went through a lot with my narcissistic dad and my mother. I think all of those things combined are the cause of my inability to get girls.

Current Situation (looks):
My looks improved over the last 3 years and I’m not completely horrendous looking anymore. I’m a classical normie with a few good and a few bad features.
I’m 6’1 175lbs, no sixpack, but good body overall. My face is asymmetrical and very long. Ok jawline. No real cheekbones and definition. Eyes are ok after waking up and get worse over the day. eye colour is darkish blue. Very visible under eye circles (always). Long nose with dorsal hump.
Also started balding at age 15, now stage 2 MPB. Actually very big penis (didn’t even notice until Measuring and r/BDP) but no use.

Recent “Success/failure“:
Recently I had some success, if you want to call it that. Didn’t accomplish anything…
#1:
I once got approached by a younger girl. I already spotted her earlier and imagined how hot she would be in bed. She told me her friend was interested in me. I asked her why her friend won’t talk to me herself. After that she told me she was also interested. So She was tipsy, way out of my league and clearly interested.
Nothing close to that ever happened to me. I was so overwhelmed that I just left the conversation. I literally had to pinch myself…
Later that night I sit on a bench alone, still thinking about her. Suddenly she sits down next to me without saying anything. She was as close as any girl ever in my entire life. I think I flinched as she touched my thigh and started going north. I felt myself getting hard so I jumped up and left again. Leaving that hot girl sitting alone.
And belive me I wasn’t the only one thinking she was hot. Everybody in my group talked about her body.

#2:
A girl I know because of a common friend. We went out together (The common friend invited both of us). As usual I only talked to the boys and ignored the girl. In such situations I always think the girl is watching and listening (they don’t) so I act differently, trying to impress her. After a few drinks the girl said she was cold and I was carrying my hoodie because the alcohol got me warmed up. So I threw the hoodie at her and she seemed happy. I was pretty drunk and most concerned with having fun, so I didn‘t see her for the majority of the night. Suddenly she appeared in front of me very drunk. She told me how nice I am and she wanted to thank me somehow. I realised it’s maybe part of her game, so I played along. I told her it’s ok and asked her what she wants to do for me. She told me she wants me to fuck her hard. I got a hard on instantly. I told her no, because she is drunk and a good friend of my good friend.
She then suggested to give me a “delicious“ blowjob, while groping me. I again run away…

I have a few more, but thats enough for you to understand what the fuck I am doing, hopefully. Because I don’t.

I really want to have sex and fun with girls. I just can’t do it. I don’t know how to kiss, do oral or fuck. I’m literally afraid ever time a girl shows interrest. I’m starting to think I need to get professional help. But before that I’m going to ask here. What can I do?

 

[Chad69]

Dn rd

 

[JosephGarrot123]

its over

 

[Deleted member 12669]

So basically I‘m 21M and a virgin. I never kissed or touched a girl sexually. My best friend is very good looking and confident. He never had a problem getting girls. He went to parties and events without me. Probably because I‘m socially awkward and kind of ugly. He got into contact with a lot of girls that way, while I don’t even have one girl on my phone. I went through a lot with my narcissistic dad and my mother. I think all of those things combined are the cause of my inability to get girls.

Current Situation (looks):
My looks improved over the last 3 years and I’m not completely horrendous looking anymore. I’m a classical normie with a few good and a few bad features.
I’m 6’1 175lbs, no sixpack, but good body overall. My face is asymmetrical and very long. Ok jawline. No real cheekbones and definition. Eyes are ok after waking up and get worse over the day. eye colour is darkish blue. Very visible under eye circles (always). Long nose with dorsal hump.
Also started balding at age 15, now stage 2 MPB. Actually very big penis (didn’t even notice until Measuring and r/BDP) but no use.

Recent “Success/failure“:
Recently I had some success, if you want to call it that. Didn’t accomplish anything…
#1:
I once got approached by a younger girl. I already spotted her earlier and imagined how hot she would be in bed. She told me her friend was interested in me. I asked her why her friend won’t talk to me herself. After that she told me she was also interested. So She was tipsy, way out of my league and clearly interested.
Nothing close to that ever happened to me. I was so overwhelmed that I just left the conversation. I literally had to pinch myself…
Later that night I sit on a bench alone, still thinking about her. Suddenly she sits down next to me without saying anything. She was as close as any girl ever in my entire life. I think I flinched as she touched my thigh and started going north. I felt myself getting hard so I jumped up and left again. Leaving that hot girl sitting alone.
And belive me I wasn’t the only one thinking she was hot. Everybody in my group talked about her body.

#2:
A girl I know because of a common friend. We went out together (The common friend invited both of us). As usual I only talked to the boys and ignored the girl. In such situations I always think the girl is watching and listening (they don’t) so I act differently, trying to impress her. After a few drinks the girl said she was cold and I was carrying my hoodie because the alcohol got me warmed up. So I threw the hoodie at her and she seemed happy. I was pretty drunk and most concerned with having fun, so I didn‘t see her for the majority of the night. Suddenly she appeared in front of me very drunk. She told me how nice I am and she wanted to thank me somehow. I realised it’s maybe part of her game, so I played along. I told her it’s ok and asked her what she wants to do for me. She told me she wants me to fuck her hard. I got a hard on instantly. I told her no, because she is drunk and a good friend of my good friend.
She then suggested to give me a “delicious“ blowjob, while groping me. I again run away…

I have a few more, but thats enough for you to understand what the fuck I am doing, hopefully. Because I don’t.

I really want to have sex and fun with girls. I just can’t do it. I don’t know how to kiss, do oral or fuck. I’m literally afraid ever time a girl shows interrest. I’m starting to think I need to get professional help. But before that I’m going to ask here. What can I do

Nobodies reading that shit, send pictures of urself

 

[shrek]

I feel bad for you bro. Should’ve just banged those girls

 

[sorrowfulsad]

h

 

[Bewusst]

 

[Chad69]

Bump

 

[Deleted member 3828]

stop reading after "big penis"

if you're so blessed why won't you just use it

listen to your primal instincts
the ones that make you picture the girl in bed
don't listen to autistic inner voice

also stop watching porn

 

[Deleted member 12344]

So basically I‘m 21M and a virgin. I never kissed or touched a girl sexually. My best friend is very good looking and confident. He never had a problem getting girls. He went to parties and events without me. Probably because I‘m socially awkward and kind of ugly. He got into contact with a lot of girls that way, while I don’t even have one girl on my phone. I went through a lot with my narcissistic dad and my mother. I think all of those things combined are the cause of my inability to get girls.

Current Situation (looks):
My looks improved over the last 3 years and I’m not completely horrendous looking anymore. I’m a classical normie with a few good and a few bad features.
I’m 6’1 175lbs, no sixpack, but good body overall. My face is asymmetrical and very long. Ok jawline. No real cheekbones and definition. Eyes are ok after waking up and get worse over the day. eye colour is darkish blue. Very visible under eye circles (always). Long nose with dorsal hump.
Also started balding at age 15, now stage 2 MPB. Actually very big penis (didn’t even notice until Measuring and r/BDP) but no use.

Recent “Success/failure“:
Recently I had some success, if you want to call it that. Didn’t accomplish anything…
#1:
I once got approached by a younger girl. I already spotted her earlier and imagined how hot she would be in bed. She told me her friend was interested in me. I asked her why her friend won’t talk to me herself. After that she told me she was also interested. So She was tipsy, way out of my league and clearly interested.
Nothing close to that ever happened to me. I was so overwhelmed that I just left the conversation. I literally had to pinch myself…
Later that night I sit on a bench alone, still thinking about her. Suddenly she sits down next to me without saying anything. She was as close as any girl ever in my entire life. I think I flinched as she touched my thigh and started going north. I felt myself getting hard so I jumped up and left again. Leaving that hot girl sitting alone.
And belive me I wasn’t the only one thinking she was hot. Everybody in my group talked about her body.

#2:
A girl I know because of a common friend. We went out together (The common friend invited both of us). As usual I only talked to the boys and ignored the girl. In such situations I always think the girl is watching and listening (they don’t) so I act differently, trying to impress her. After a few drinks the girl said she was cold and I was carrying my hoodie because the alcohol got me warmed up. So I threw the hoodie at her and she seemed happy. I was pretty drunk and most concerned with having fun, so I didn‘t see her for the majority of the night. Suddenly she appeared in front of me very drunk. She told me how nice I am and she wanted to thank me somehow. I realised it’s maybe part of her game, so I played along. I told her it’s ok and asked her what she wants to do for me. She told me she wants me to fuck her hard. I got a hard on instantly. I told her no, because she is drunk and a good friend of my good friend.
She then suggested to give me a “delicious“ blowjob, while groping me. I again run away…

I have a few more, but thats enough for you to understand what the fuck I am doing, hopefully. Because I don’t.

I really want to have sex and fun with girls. I just can’t do it. I don’t know how to kiss, do oral or fuck. I’m literally afraid ever time a girl shows interrest. I’m starting to think I need to get professional help. But before that I’m going to ask here. What can I do?

Nigga why did you have to make this that long

 

[grimy]

Lol once you just man up sleep with the first girl you'll look back and see how dumb you've been. I had crippling anxiety too and didn't have my first gf till 18. If you keep letting this go on you WILL end up an outcast, just stop running.

 

[Chinacurry]

Lol once you just man up sleep with the first girl you'll look back and see how dumb you've been. I had crippling anxiety too and didn't have my first gf till 18. If you keep letting this go on you WILL end up an outcast, just stop running.

I'm an oldcel and still have crippling anxiety, self harm episodes, panic attacks.

But that said it's a recent post blackpill thing for me, when I was OPs age o was redpilled af and had v little anxiety

 

[mulattomaxxer]

You need to live in the moment. You must be somewhat attractive if girls are approaching you. I believe once you have got your first slay, you will feel more confident.