kt4x_w
5.5 PSL 6'3 Slayercel
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Hello Looksmaxxers,
This yes, is very off topic, but i wanted some of your attention or opinions, or possible advice
Basically, my mental health has went to absolute utter shit thanks to my mom being a complete piece of shit to me ever since i was a little kid. She probably contributes to why today i struggle with very bad social anxiety and that i have no friends. I've been verbally and physically abused by mom at very very young age, I can give you such examples as = calling me worthless, shitty human being, scum, shadow to the earth, etc the list never ends but ever since as a kid she has gaslighted me until this day (I am 14) and what she has said to me has stuck up to me this day to where she might be right about me being a worthless piece of shit. Well not only that but I've been fucking beat with her heel until my forearms were covered in cuts and bruises contributing to why to this day if someone raises their hand or an object that could hurt me I immediatly subconsciously put my hands up. I've grew up with no father figure since my dads also an asshole and doesnt care if I'm breathing or not. Everyone at school doesnt want or like me due to me having 0 social status and barely knowing how to talk to people... I'm at a point of my life where idk what to do I'm just floating like debris in space having no idea what comes next and I feel all this underserved pain all pressed on me I did nothing wrong I'm scared people will judge me for everything i do I've honestly thought about suicide but it cant be a end to all of this + I'm extremely scared of death, I've tried to turn to god and I'm working on this but honestly if u had the attention span and took ur time to read this honestly prop to you I value it alot bro ❤
This yes, is very off topic, but i wanted some of your attention or opinions, or possible advice
Basically, my mental health has went to absolute utter shit thanks to my mom being a complete piece of shit to me ever since i was a little kid. She probably contributes to why today i struggle with very bad social anxiety and that i have no friends. I've been verbally and physically abused by mom at very very young age, I can give you such examples as = calling me worthless, shitty human being, scum, shadow to the earth, etc the list never ends but ever since as a kid she has gaslighted me until this day (I am 14) and what she has said to me has stuck up to me this day to where she might be right about me being a worthless piece of shit. Well not only that but I've been fucking beat with her heel until my forearms were covered in cuts and bruises contributing to why to this day if someone raises their hand or an object that could hurt me I immediatly subconsciously put my hands up. I've grew up with no father figure since my dads also an asshole and doesnt care if I'm breathing or not. Everyone at school doesnt want or like me due to me having 0 social status and barely knowing how to talk to people... I'm at a point of my life where idk what to do I'm just floating like debris in space having no idea what comes next and I feel all this underserved pain all pressed on me I did nothing wrong I'm scared people will judge me for everything i do I've honestly thought about suicide but it cant be a end to all of this + I'm extremely scared of death, I've tried to turn to god and I'm working on this but honestly if u had the attention span and took ur time to read this honestly prop to you I value it alot bro ❤
