AscendOrRopemaxx
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I am 15.5 years old, 15% Bodyfat, 5'6, 124lbs (17lbs~ fat), and skinnyfat. I seriously consider killing myself everyday because I know its over for me before it even started. At school I get not only mogged by all of my classmates but also height mogged by every male I can think of. My only wish in life is to ascend to a psl god (unironic.) Currently I am cutting in a 250kcal deficit in hopes to lose my facial fat which is what ruins my lower third and my double chin is horrendous. However I do not think this is optimal because I am in a stage of development in terms of height and bones. I know a bulk is optimal for growing taller but I don't think I can mentally survive another year of being ugly while knowing its not getting better anytime soon. Also its important to know that I used to be incredibly overweight (150lbs at 5'0) however I starved myself due to depression so now I am skinnyfat and short, I likely ruined my development because this was around when I was 12-14 which are the main years of growing I think.
So what should I do? Is it ok to cut until I get rid of my face fat and then bulk immediately, or should I just bulk now and just pray for the best?
Its over for me
So what should I do? Is it ok to cut until I get rid of my face fat and then bulk immediately, or should I just bulk now and just pray for the best?
Its over for me