Should I end my life?

[Deleted member 14699]

I do not know where to start. I am a 22 year old guy who has never had a girlfriend or friends since the last years of primary school. I literally have no life.



I was going to the gym until 2022, the year in which I got a pretty good point physically. Everything changed when I started my third year of university: practices, work, exhibitions, exams... It left me absolutely dead and without wanting to do anything. I know it's not an excuse, but a lot of things came together: lack of motivation in the gym, fatigue from uni, etc... that led me to leave the gym.



The point is that I have returned to training at home (I have weights at home) and I have not been able to finish the training because of the depression that makes me look visibly bad and not move the weights from before, added to the existential emptiness that the simple fact causes me. to live.



I sacrificed a year of college to look bad physically, and looking bad physically leads me to not perform academically. Precisely, this is the year in which I have four university subjects left (I only passed 9/13...). I don't know what the hell is wrong with me.



I can't go to the gym either because I'm so embarrassed that other guys look at me badly and that they see me in this deplorable physical state in which I am. That's why I planned to spend a few weeks at home before going to the gym, because I don't want those who were there before to tell me that I've lost muscle and compare themselves with me.



Currently I have started to do things in FL Studio without success, so I ask for your opinion (if you know) on how to improve in this facet. An issue (not finished) that I have is this:

 

[Jase]

yes.
end the life you are living now and build a new one.

 

[Deleted member 14699]

yes.
end the life you are living now and build a new one.

That's suicide

 

[Jase]

That's suicide

for your ego.

 

[norwegianfreak]

Yes you should @Yuno_howitez maxx

 

[St.TikTokcel]

I do not know where to start. I am a 22 year old guy who has never had a girlfriend or friends since the last years of primary school. I literally have no life.



I was going to the gym until 2022, the year in which I got a pretty good point physically. Everything changed when I started my third year of university: practices, work, exhibitions, exams... It left me absolutely dead and without wanting to do anything. I know it's not an excuse, but a lot of things came together: lack of motivation in the gym, fatigue from uni, etc... that led me to leave the gym.



The point is that I have returned to training at home (I have weights at home) and I have not been able to finish the training because of the depression that makes me look visibly bad and not move the weights from before, added to the existential emptiness that the simple fact causes me. to live.



I sacrificed a year of college to look bad physically, and looking bad physically leads me to not perform academically. Precisely, this is the year in which I have four university subjects left (I only passed 9/13...). I don't know what the hell is wrong with me.



I can't go to the gym either because I'm so embarrassed that other guys look at me badly and that they see me in this deplorable physical state in which I am. That's why I planned to spend a few weeks at home before going to the gym, because I don't want those who were there before to tell me that I've lost muscle and compare themselves with me.



Currently I have started to do things in FL Studio without success, so I ask for your opinion (if you know) on how to improve in this facet. An issue (not finished) that I have is this:

Going outside, sleeping, hobbymaxxing. That's all you need, bozo. The holy triad.

 

[Deleted member 14699]

for your ego.

Then? What should I do? Suicide is the only alternative

 

[EXTREME SUBHUMAN]

age 22 talking about suicide lol

 

[Jase]

Then? What should I do? Suicide is the only alternative

ill do a vid about it later

 

[Alexanderr]

Short Answer: No.
At least not during your time here.

 

[Deleted member 14693]

Why do you care about the gym so much lol?

Just stop that shit as soon as possible and don't stress about it.

Don't rope atleast. Get some time off. Chill in nature. Appreciate life. Search hobbys that could fulfill you. Maybe try fucking a sex worker if your KHHV status pains you.

So many things to do before roping.

So no, definitifly don't rope yet.

 

[Deleted member 30325]

It's probably just a period and you will start feeling better with time you're too young to be depressed

 

[BrendioEEE]

Brother all of this pales in comparison to the fact that you posted your penis on .org. But don't rope bro, I need more Brendio dopplegangers (ironic we're both suicidal though).

 

[Deleted member 14699]

Going outside, sleeping, hobbymaxxing. That's all you need, bozo. The holy triad.
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The thing is that I cannot go outside because I get anxiety

 

[Deleted member 14699]

Brother all of this pales in comparison to the fact that you posted your penis on .org. But don't rope bro, I need more Brendio dopplegangers (ironic we're both suicidal though).

How do u know I posted my dick here?

 

[St.TikTokcel]

The thing is that I cannot go outside because I get anxiety

Go to a place without people then. I've had nausea my entire life and the only way to deal with it is to rot outside no matter what (though it never stops xd).

 

[BrendioEEE]

How do u know I posted my dick here?

Jfl.............

 

[Deleted member 14693]

Also your song sounds really good.

Im not even kidding. I was clicking it thinking it was just some popular beat you have as your signature. Didn't realize until after I wrote the first comment its your song.

You got some talent, don't waste it. Good tune.

 

[Deleted member 14699]

Why do you care about the gym so much lol?

Just stop that shit as soon as possible and don't stress about it.

Don't rope atleast. Get some time off. Chill in nature. Appreciate life. Search hobbys that could fulfill you. Maybe try fucking a sex worker if your KHHV status pains you.

So many things to do before roping.

So no, definitifly don't rope yet.

I cannot go outside man, I get so much anxiety. I fail at every of my hobbies and I cannot fuck a sex worker tbh

 

[Deleted member 14693]

I cannot go outside man, I get so much anxiety

Well, I guess start with slow steps.

Exposure therapy works the best with anxiety

I cannot fuck a sex worker tbh

Why not? You can call them to your house

 

[Deleted member 14699]

Also your song sounds really good.

Im not even kidding. I was clicking it thinking it was just some popular beat you have as your signature. Didn't realize until after I wrote the first comment its your song.

You got some talent, don't waste it. Good tune.

It can be decent if u have low music standards but for audiophiles this track sounds very amateur and noobie tbh

 

[Deleted member 14699]

Well, I guess start with slow steps.

Exposure therapy works the best with anxiety

Why not? You can call them to your house

Really u can do that? Didn't know it tbh

 

[Alexanderr]

The thing is that I cannot go outside because I get anxiety

Take lyrica.

 

[Deleted member 14693]

It can be decent if u have low music standards but for audiophiles this track sounds very amateur and noobie tbh

Thats true. I never was a music snob tbh. I like most music as long as I like the tune

Really u can do that? Didn't know it tbh

Yeah, but its a bit more expensive usually.

 

[Deleted member 30679]

Keep going to the gym

 

[Pendejo]

Even if we all told you to do it and tied the rope around your neck, you would come up with some bullshit excuse as to why you cannot do it, like you do with everything else on your life.

You are literally scared to go to the gym because how what some gymrats will think, don’t you realize how fucking absurd this is?
Even if they actually cared about you not being jacked (which won’t happen cuz you are an absolute NOBODY to them) they are just thoughts and it shouldn’t affect you cuz you already knew that and are precisely there to change it.

But yeah keep living your life on fear crying on incel forums instead lol.

 

[Deleted member 14699]

Even if we all told you to do it and tied the rope around your neck, you would come up with some bullshit excuse as to why you cannot do it, like you do with everything else on your life.

You are literally scared to go to the gym because how what some gymrats will think, don’t you realize how fucking absurd this is?
Even if they actually cared about you not being jacked (which won’t happen cuz you are an absolute NOBODY to them) they are just thoughts and it shouldn’t affect you cuz you already knew that and are precisely there to change it.

But yeah keep living your life on fear crying on incels forums instead lol.

It is not absurd to me... If only I could go with a mate at the gym... But I have no one to go with me.

I will never lift a weight anymore.

 

[Deleted member 14699]

Keep going to the gym

I won't. It won't change anything.

 

[Deleted member 30679]

I won't. It won't change anything.

How come? It won't change anything?

 

[Deleted member 14699]

How come? It won't change anything?

I'll still be ugly so it doesnt matter

 

[Deleted member 30679]

I'll still be ugly so it doesnt matter

Fair enough good physique is better than having an incel one, it's all up to you.
Way better than ldar imo

 

[plukee]

No bro don’t rope your only 22 and there’s still some time ahead. Imma be fr with You i contemplate suicide sometimes aswell but whenever I recently feel like that it’s because i attached to a girl so the best thing i do is listen to some music and embrace the whitepill and go to the gym. Your on looksmaxx for a reason and that is too self improve. Trust me don’t give af what gymrats think at all if you see any muscular dudes just think to yourself “im gonna be on there level one day” and if you hardmaxx and save up for surgerys wageslave for some time and study well in college for qualifications and you’ll get a better high paying job or simply get a trade. Ik it’s very cliche advice but for now focus on softmaxxing little bit and you’ll be slowly getting there. Looksmaxxing isn’t a fast process and don’t let any of the basement rotters here doubt you. Just know that god has a plan for you and he wants you to be the best version of you that’s why he put us on earth for a reason.

all the people who are serious about looksmaxxing, were all gonna make it

 

[ItsOver999]

The music is nice

 

[Deleted member 14699]

Fair enough good physique is better than having an incel one, it's all up to you.
Way better than ldar imo

Having a good physique is very very difficult and I never had it

 

[Deleted member 30679]

Having a good physique is very very difficult and I never had it

Eat more

 

[Deleted member 20399]

I do not know where to start. I am a 22 year old guy who has never had a girlfriend or friends since the last years of primary school. I literally have no life.



I was going to the gym until 2022, the year in which I got a pretty good point physically. Everything changed when I started my third year of university: practices, work, exhibitions, exams... It left me absolutely dead and without wanting to do anything. I know it's not an excuse, but a lot of things came together: lack of motivation in the gym, fatigue from uni, etc... that led me to leave the gym.



The point is that I have returned to training at home (I have weights at home) and I have not been able to finish the training because of the depression that makes me look visibly bad and not move the weights from before, added to the existential emptiness that the simple fact causes me. to live.



I sacrificed a year of college to look bad physically, and looking bad physically leads me to not perform academically. Precisely, this is the year in which I have four university subjects left (I only passed 9/13...). I don't know what the hell is wrong with me.



I can't go to the gym either because I'm so embarrassed that other guys look at me badly and that they see me in this deplorable physical state in which I am. That's why I planned to spend a few weeks at home before going to the gym, because I don't want those who were there before to tell me that I've lost muscle and compare themselves with me.



Currently I have started to do things in FL Studio without success, so I ask for your opinion (if you know) on how to improve in this facet. An issue (not finished) that I have is this:

literally htn/chadlite stfu

 

[Vermilioncore]

Yeah. Hang yourself. Chris Cornell type shit innit

 

[Deleted member 14699]

literally htn/chadlite stfu

Yeah, at frauded pics and 5'7"

 

[Deleted member 20399]

Yeah, at frauded pics and 5'7"

ok it's the 5'7 holding u back. start liftmaxxing asap

 

[Deleted member 14699]

ok it's the 5'7 holding u back. start liftmaxxing asap

I am 5'9" with lifts. It's the face (more than height) that holds me back.

 

[Deleted member 20399]

I am 5'9" with lifts. It's the face (more than height) that holds me back.

nigga u need to fraud to 6ft come on now son

 

[Deleted member 21467]

great music op

 

[Suimaxxer]

WHAT IS THAT MELODY
Unironically could easily be background music for a geometry dash level

 

[Deleted member 30283]

Going outside, sleeping, hobbymaxxing. That's all you need, bozo. The holy triad.
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i expected you to write rope or some shit , glad you're spreading positivity

 

[Pendejo]

It is not absurd to me... If only I could go with a mate at the gym... But I have no one to go with me.

I will never lift a weight anymore.

Stop being so dependent on other people, you are literally a puppet at the mercy of other people’s will.

Just go in there and do it, and if the presence of other people frightens you so goddamn much put some earphones on, grab the weights and zone out.

 

[Deleted member 30283]

I am 5'9" with lifts. It's the face (more than height) that holds me back.

Where do you live bro?

 

[St.TikTokcel]

glad you're spreading positivity

 

[Deleted member 14699]

nigga u need to fraud to 6ft come on now son

Well, thats not possible with my height.

 

[Deleted member 14699]

WHAT IS THAT MELODY
Unironically could easily be background music for a geometry dash level

It's a song I made at FL studio.

 

[Deleted member 14699]

great music op

tnx man