Should I just give up on HGH & Test ?

[gymcelled]

So recently I've been doing a bit of thinking.. and I feel like all I'm doing is pointless.
I wanted to "ascend" and then leave everything behind and become nt. But I feel like ts will have long term effects.
I'm fine with the thought of doing a test cycle and then cruising for the rest of my life, but at the same time I'm "just" 20 and what if at 27 or 30 I want to live a normal life and go somewhere across the world, not being able to take my test, so I just become super depressed and lifeless without it?
Same with HGH. Honestly I don't even know why I started pinning it. Maybe I hoped for some facial development and acting as a test subject. But what if it speeds up some cancer in me or gives me awful acromegaly?
And even if none of the bad sides happen. And I manage to fully recover after my first cycle and I don't get any acromegaly. I'll still be like maybe low mtn territory.

So is all of this even worth it? Should I just give up and go live my sad subhuman life without any chance of romance or success?

What do y'all think about my situation? Who can give me real serious advice?

 

[gymcelled]

you are lmtn, maybe hltn at the very lowest. quit whining

how tall are you

6’3

 

[unlawfulwaffle]

6’3

there you go. stop putting yourself down dont let this shithole of the internet ruin your mental health and self esteem. its one thing to accept that you arent specifically good looking, its another thing to let other cranky losers on here ruin your life.

ill tell you straight. the fact you're not even bad looking and youre 6'3 and even considering roping is just pathetic and an insult to people who ACTUALLY have it bad. the more time you spend convincing yourself shit like "im the flaw" the more of a disgrace you actually are.

being 6'3 also increases your hardmaxx potential.

but yea bro stop being so hard on yourself and dont take this place too seriously

 

[ASM5]

So recently I've been doing a bit of thinking.. and I feel like all I'm doing is pointless.
I wanted to "ascend" and then leave everything behind and become nt. But I feel like ts will have long term effects.
I'm fine with the thought of doing a test cycle and then cruising for the rest of my life, but at the same time I'm "just" 20 and what if at 27 or 30 I want to live a normal life and go somewhere across the world, not being able to take my test, so I just become super depressed and lifeless without it?
Same with HGH. Honestly I don't even know why I started pinning it. Maybe I hoped for some facial development and acting as a test subject. But what if it speeds up some cancer in me or gives me awful acromegaly?
And even if none of the bad sides happen. And I manage to fully recover after my first cycle and I don't get any acromegaly. I'll still be like maybe low mtn territory.

So is all of this even worth it? Should I just give up and go live my sad subhuman life without any chance of romance or success?

What do y'all think about my situation? Who can give me real serious advice?

I mean it's easy to get test past security especially if you have a trt prescription. I think you can only bring in a 3 month supply when you visit most other countries generally but each countries law differs, apparently it's harder to bring into China and Japan but still not impossible. I am tried to come off for life but its not worth the hassle so ill likely have to commit to taking weekly, there are so many endocrine disruptors in the modern day it is a pretty viable option, I personally would not reccomend it though. You definitely become super depressed and lifeless without taking it frankly since testosterone is vital in brain health it also makes you a fair bit dumber to, if your not prepared to pin every week the rest of your life even in your 30s+ or even slightly hesitant I wouldnt do it.