Should you care about others? Is there a correct way to live life and be happy?

[Matrix88]

TLDR: Somedays I think about living happy and caring about others, but sometimes I also think about not giving a shit about ANYONE BUT ME, because life is too meaningless and shallow to even care.

I'm 18 and at this point of my life I'm having mixed feelings about everything.

Is it worth it to ascend? Yes if I want to live the life I want. But does anything really matter?

I think nothing matters, but that's a good thing, because YOU give the purpose you want to give to your life.

But i dont know man, everything is messed up, somedays I imagine just having sex with bunch of women, some other days I imagine myself going out of the country and settling down with a woman I love, AND SOMETIMES I JUST THINK OF NOT DOING ANYTHING AT ALL, BECAUSE WE'RE ALL GOING TO BE FORGOTTEN, SO WHY SHOULD I CARE ABOUT ANYONE ELSE THAN ME?

Is it bad to feel like that? Is anything bad or good at all?

I love my family, but when I think about these things I also think about not talking to them ever again, because why would that matter? They are going to die one die and people who hated me will be forgotten.

Why should I care about anyone's feelings? I can just try to use people, oh no I CAN'T BECAUSE IM NOT EVEN MTN, but once I am able to do it, why shouldn't I? THEY DIDN'T LOOK AT ME OR THOUGHT AT ALL WHEN I LOOKED LIKE SHIT, SO WHY EVEN CARE ABOUT PEOPLE?

Guys is this some kind of mental disorder or do you think the same as me sometimes? Like really sometimes I imagine myself being so good towards people and living happy trying to make people around me happy, so they NEVER feel like I did. But other days I don't even see them as people, because they think the same about me.

 

[Mochi Force 15]

care about yourself until you're in a good enough position to pour that energy into others

 

[Imaloser7754]

How would you feel if I told you that WW3 will begin soon and you will be drafted?

 

[Matrix88]

care about yourself until you're in a good enough position to pour that energy into others

Dude I've been SO DEPRESSED I wouldn't wish it on anyone, sometimes I feel like I kinda love everyone and want them to be happy dude

 

[Matrix88]

How would you feel if I told you that WW3 will begin soon and you will be drafted?

I'd kill myself because I get to do what I like with my life, its all about being happy

 

[Matrix88]

Dude I've been SO DEPRESSED I wouldn't wish it on anyone, sometimes I feel like I kinda love everyone and want them to be happy dude

I've been lately shaped into the total opposite idea of what I'm saying there, but it's still in my nature to be good to people, i just want to feel like people deeply care about me.

Today was a total embarrassment for me, I was on a plane with my family and just started crying so much. It was something new, they were surprised it happened. My mom is so worried, but I love her and don't want her to suffer because of my lame existence.