Site genuinely ruined my life

[thegoat]

I used to cage when users said this and just thought they were pussies. But this site eventually will take too big of a toll on your mental health

Every social interaction is tarred by realising how unwanted I am and how easy Chad gets it. Would rather be bluepilled and innocent and at least could make more friends that way. For instance, when female friends would tell me about a date, my mind instantly goes full blackpill hatred mode. Obviously I hide this, but it means a lot of social interactions I have aren't genuine.

Failed first year of medicine due to depression. I wish I got blackpilled a little later in life. I would've careermaxxed way harder with the (false) hope that it'd get me bitches and that I was a beast. It's too difficult to operate on zero self-esteem.

Lost my virginity to an escort recently at 22. This maybe will improve things because whenever people allude to anything sexual/romantic now, I will feel like I missed out a little less.

 

[Deleted member 23558]

I don’t, this site made me finally accuse my deadbeat father and smoke like a boss in front of bluepilled parents, now I’m high T and mogger.

 

[SecularIslamist]

Being blackpilled during university years would be torture. I'm glad I found out about blackpill around 23. I can accept life and knowing I've careermaxxed and moneymaxxed over 95% of my peers feels good.

I'm still a lonely cunt but hey at least I have money.... Just no one to spend it with.

 

[NuclearBrainReturns]

I still to this day think finding lookism back in 2017 was one of the worst but also best 'accident' to happen to me in my life.

I experienced so much emotional trauma back in those days as I saw lookism thread topics materialising in real time whilst I was at college. I was suicidal for 3 years but in 2022 I finally processed it all and bounced back.

Just know that I have been there (if not in a worse position because it was lookism.net), all it takes is time and contemplation to accept the situation and truly move on.

You will never be the same, however. Discovering this shit and spending years on sites like this does so much mental damage that I shudder to think what it has really done to my neurotransmitters. But you will get over it and you will eventually become peaceful and happy again.

What you said about instantly thinking blackpilling thoughts when girls talk about relationships is something I also had to put up with for a very, very long time. But somehow I am at peace now. I am very happy and think 2023 will be a very good year.

 

[Deleted member 24589]

I discovered lookism.net when I was only 15/16. People have it way worse than u trust me.

 

[Deleted member 19174]

How did you get the escort? I'm thinking of doing the same thing during before I go back to college. I'm 19 yr KHHV btw.

 

[Deleted member 23558]

I still to this day think finding lookism back in 2017 was one of the worst but also best 'accident' to happen to me in my life.

I experienced so much emotional trauma back in those days as I saw lookism thread topics materialising in real time whilst I was at college. I was suicidal for 3 years but in 2022 I finally processed it all and bounced back.

Just know that I have been there (if not in a worse position because it was lookism.net), all it takes is time and contemplation to accept the situation and truly move on.

You will never be the same, however. Discovering this shit and spending years on sites like this does so much mental damage that I shudder to think what it has really done to my neurotransmitters. But you will get over it and you will eventually become peaceful and happy again.

What you said about instantly thinking blackpilling thoughts when girls talk about relationships is something I also had to put up with for a very, very long time. But somehow I am at peace now. I am very happy and think 2023 will be a very good year.

So you coped so hard you became a Christ cuck. That’s good.

 

[thegoat]

How did you get the escort? I'm thinking of doing the same thing during before I go back to college. I'm 19 yr KHHV btw.

brothel

 

[Deleted member 19174]

brothel

you live in the US?

 

[Deleted member 22063]

Lol how does this happen to people. I legit always knew this. It's obvious.

 

[Entschuldigung]

Don't worry, after two years you won't take anything here seriously just like me and @Biggdink do

 

[NuclearBrainReturns]

So you coped so hard you became a Christ cuck. That’s good.

The concept of 'cope' is also a very interesting one and something I didn't really have a rebuttal for until recently. The idea that a 'cope' is a cope is wrong. Sounds wild but its true. The thought process that goes into calling anything that isnt focusing on getting laid a 'cope' is very weird and damaging. Your life becomes railroaded into lusting after physical pleasures and nothing else in this world matters to you.

I have never seen such a clever deception in all my life. Truly the devil has created this in order to destroy men and women. It's so simple too isn't it? To say 'cope' to any thought process or action that isn't nihilistic nor focusses on attaining wealth or lots of sexual encounters.

When in reality, the only reason you care about attaining lots of women to have sex with is because you cannot 'cope' with reality outside of those parameters. You MUST feel wanted and needed by women. You MUST feel popular and wanted by other men as friends. Why? Because you are terrified of being alone and have not accepted the reality of life for most people. That's the bread and butter of the whole thing. It's sad and its pathetic but I don't blame you in the slightest.

When you really understand just how fucked up this situation is on a spiritual level, you will begin to see the errors of your ways.

 

[Deleted member 23558]

The concept of 'cope' is also a very interesting one and something I didn't really have a rebuttal for until recently. The idea that a 'cope' is a cope is wrong. Sounds wild but its true. The thought process that goes into calling anything that isnt focusing on getting laid a 'cope' is very weird and damaging. Your life becomes railroaded into lusting after physical pleasures and nothing else in this world matters to you.

I have never seen such a clever deception in all my life. Truly the devil has created this in order to destroy men and women. It's so simple too isn't it? To say 'cope' to any thought process or action that isn't nihilistic nor focusses on attaining wealth or lots of sexual encounters.

When in reality, the only reason you care about attaining lots of women to have sex with is because you cannot 'cope' with reality outside of those parameters. You MUST feel wanted and needed by women. You MUST feel popular and wanted by other men as friends. Why? Because you are terrified of being alone and have not accepted the reality of life for most people. That's the bread and butter of the whole thing. It's sad and its pathetic but I don't blame you in the slightest.

When you really understand just how fucked up this situation is on a spiritual level, you will begin to see the errors of your ways.

I didn’t say anything about sex only that Christ cucking yourself is coping. Says more about you that I was referring to sex than anything else

 

[NuclearBrainReturns]

I didn’t say anything about sex only that Christ cucking yourself is coping. Says more about you that I was referring to sex than anything else

That is the only reason anyone would feel upset about the blackpill. Sex and recognition is fuel for the ego and the reason it hurts (when you are in spiritual infancy) is because you are enslaved by the ego. Realising that you 'ain't shit mah boy' is a huge blow to your personal perception of yourself and can take a very long time to reach an acceptance stage.

 

[Deleted member 23558]

That is the only reason anyone would feel upset about the blackpill. Sex and recognition is fuel for the ego and the reason it hurts (when you are in spiritual infancy) is because you are enslaved by the ego. Realising that you 'ain't shit mah boy' is a huge blow to your personal perception of yourself and can take a very long time to reach an acceptance stage.

The ego exists exactly because the organism perceived that “it ain’t shit” . Voluntarily dissolving your ego can be done w lordship , the knight tradition, the hermetic apprentice, the warrior of the lord ( templars) , monasticism etc. you can be blackpilled and still not a blind slave to your id which is what you’re more accurately referring to.

 

[thegoat]

That is the only reason anyone would feel upset about the blackpill. Sex and recognition is fuel for the ego and the reason it hurts (when you are in spiritual infancy) is because you are enslaved by the ego. Realising that you 'ain't shit mah boy' is a huge blow to your personal perception of yourself and can take a very long time to reach an acceptance stage.

After a mega LSD trip i quit vaping and weed and realised it was all cope for not getting bitches. I had made slaying out to be the ultimate pinnacle of human experience, because of this site. I was happy for a while and very grateful for other things in life even if I have had no sexual success.

But over time I've ended up getting depressed again, because my ego can't stand being a 'loser' and it wasn't possible to just convince myself that getting bitches/social success isnt all that. Furthermore, becoming spiritual as an incel is so cope, you're not even really 'rejecting' hedonism because you never even experienced it truly (slaying). It's just escapism.

 

[thegoat]

I still to this day think finding lookism back in 2017 was one of the worst but also best 'accident' to happen to me in my life.

I experienced so much emotional trauma back in those days as I saw lookism thread topics materialising in real time whilst I was at college. I was suicidal for 3 years but in 2022 I finally processed it all and bounced back.

Just know that I have been there (if not in a worse position because it was lookism.net), all it takes is time and contemplation to accept the situation and truly move on.

You will never be the same, however. Discovering this shit and spending years on sites like this does so much mental damage that I shudder to think what it has really done to my neurotransmitters. But you will get over it and you will eventually become peaceful and happy again.

What you said about instantly thinking blackpilling thoughts when girls talk about relationships is something I also had to put up with for a very, very long time. But somehow I am at peace now. I am very happy and think 2023 will be a very good year.

I'm grateful you commented this tho, it gives me hope

 

[thegoat]

Lol how does this happen to people. I legit always knew this. It's obvious.

I'm starting to reframe my view on life and how much we are shaped by our environment and mimic our peers. Realised I'm an NPC sheep in many ways still

 

[NuclearBrainReturns]

The ego exists exactly because the organism perceived that “it ain’t shit” . Voluntarily dissolving your ego can be done w lordship , the knight tradition, the hermetic apprentice, the warrior of the lord ( templars) , monasticism etc. you can be blackpilled and still not a blind slave to your id which is what you’re more accurately referring to.

The ego exists because it is the driver of the 5 senses. It's there for a reason, to preserve your mental integrity in material reality. The physical body wants to reproduce itself and if it is confronted with an ideology straight out of hell which tells you this is off the table, then it hurts because you cannot carry out this necessary biological function.

The scariest thing to conclude from this (if you have read my other threads on this topic) is that the material reality we live in is inherently evil even if you are able to satisfy primal urges. But the kicker, is that we are now in a situation where you are a slave to these primal urges and are unable to satisfy them due to the effects of hypergamy and social media narcissism.

When you truly wrap your head around how evil this is, to give primal urges to a material form but not allow them to satisfy them even in a tempered way (with marriage for instance) then truly, you will begin to shift gears into the spiritual and away from the material.

This world in which we live is so evil I cannot even fully describe it.

 

[190cm90kg]

looks forever fgt

 

[NuclearBrainReturns]

After a mega LSD trip i quit vaping and weed and realised it was all cope for not getting bitches. I had made slaying out to be the ultimate pinnacle of human experience, because of this site. I was happy for a while and very grateful for other things in life even if I have had no sexual success.

But over time I've ended up getting depressed again, because my ego can't stand being a 'loser' and it wasn't possible to just convince myself that getting bitches/social success isnt all that.

Very relatable experience.

Furthermore, becoming spiritual as an incel is so cope, you're not even really 'rejecting' hedonism because you never even experienced it truly (slaying). It's just escapism.

I hear this quite a lot but think about it this way.

If we really are on our last reincarnation cycle on this earth (as I said, id read my most recent megathread titled "this world is literally hell (explained)"), then being unattractive might be the key to attaining the kingdom of god.

'If the world rejects you, know that it rejected me first" - words of the Christ.

Rejection of everything in the material seems to be the only solution and if you are naturally unable to become a hedonistic lustful gremlin then perhaps you should look at that as a blessing in disguise. The reason it is painful is because satisfying the passions is extremely tempting. But nobody said it was going to be easy.

 

[MoggerGaston]

cant relate.

Being a 23yo khhv with no social circle, traumatic childhood and abusive parents ruined me.

This site just made me understand why all of this happened.

 

[Deleted member 23558]

After a mega LSD trip i quit vaping and weed and realised it was all cope for not getting bitches. I had made slaying out to be the ultimate pinnacle of human experience, because of this site. I was happy for a while and very grateful for other things in life even if I have had no sexual success.

But over time I've ended up getting depressed again, because my ego can't stand being a 'loser' and it wasn't possible to just convince myself that getting bitches/social success isnt all that. Furthermore, becoming spiritual as an incel is so cope, you're not even really 'rejecting' hedonism because you never even experienced it truly (slaying). It's just escapism.

There's no answer. Do a heroic dose to completely rip your shreds of reality. Low doses are great but sometimes a huge dose is needed.

 

[justinzayn]

Now Imagine what's life is like for us subhumans who are public with their pic here
I look aspie/cringe before now I look homeless and aspie/cringe
Truecel to gigatruecel

But i seen even turbocurrycels living enjoying life
While I Overthink alone and waste my prime teen and early 20s

 

[reborn]

I used to cage when users said this and just thought they were pussies. But this site eventually will take too big of a toll on your mental health

Every social interaction is tarred by realising how unwanted I am and how easy Chad gets it. Would rather be bluepilled and innocent and at least could make more friends that way. For instance, when female friends would tell me about a date, my mind instantly goes full blackpill hatred mode. Obviously I hide this, but it means a lot of social interactions I have aren't genuine.

Failed first year of medicine due to depression. I wish I got blackpilled a little later in life. I would've careermaxxed way harder with the (false) hope that it'd get me bitches and that I was a beast. It's too difficult to operate on zero self-esteem.

Lost my virginity to an escort recently at 22. This maybe will improve things because whenever people allude to anything sexual/romantic now, I will feel like I missed out a little less.

My life was already ruined when I signed up here.

 

[NordicMaxxer]

Being blackpilled during university years would be torture. I'm glad I found out about blackpill around 23. I can accept life and knowing I've careermaxxed and moneymaxxed over 95% of my peers feels good.

I'm still a lonely cunt but hey at least I have money.... Just no one to spend it with.

Which education?

 

[Deleted member 22829]

I discovered this at 14.

 

[Deleted member 22058]

shi wack nb cares ab a website tht much fk all yall femboys

 

[Deleted member 25667]

I discovered this at 14.

Jfl I was also super young (13) when I discovered the blackpill. Literally grew up on these forums, but idk how these sites can ruin someone's mind. You'd have to be turbo bluepilled for the discovery of lookism to impact your life

 

[Deleted member 25377]

I don’t, this site made me finally accuse my deadbeat father and smoke like a boss in front of bluepilled parents, now I’m high T and mogger.

high T success story

 

[Mouthbreath]

Discovering the blackpill was an amazing experience, cant relate with you

 

[MoggerChad]

This site made me leanmaxx

 

[Deleted member 17872]

PSL had a negative effect on me. Especially the intrusive thoughts became worse. But porn is more to blame for that.

But at the same tims it made me more social.

 

[Bashan]

Especially the intrusive thoughts became worse.

About what

 

[Deleted member 17872]

About what

i used to have thoughts about getting impaled then it was about blasphemy and eating non kosher, then it was about being raped and other weird sexual stuff i'm too embarrassed to talk about.

I literally have intrusive thoughts about anything and everything that makes me uncomfortable.

 

[Bashan]

i used to have thoughts about getting impaled then it was about blasphemy and eating non kosher, then it was about being raped and other weird sexual stuff i'm too embarrassed to talk about.

I literally have intrusive thoughts about anything and everything that makes me uncomfortable.

Are you diagnosed? sounds like an obvious pure ocd

 

[Deleted member 17872]

Are you diagnosed? sounds like an obvious pure ocd

Not but it feels like i'm

 

[Bashan]

Not but it feels like i'm

How much it bothers you day to day

 

[Deleted member 17872]

How much it bothers you day to day

The intrusive thoughts? Somedays not all almost. While other days most of the time i'm not busy with some stuff.

 

[Deleted member 17872]

I don't know if i have ocd tho. I was kinda obsessed with routines when i was a teenager but these i don't care much about it.

 

[Deleted member 22924]

didnt read just leave then faggot

 

[Bashan]

.

 

[Bashan]

I don't know if i have ocd tho. I was kinda obsessed with routines when i was a teenager but these i don't care much about it.

You have a super obvious pure OCD. It's different than the cleaning / organized type.

 

[Deleted member 18522]

BBC has ruined your life

 

[Bashan]

@David Rothschild

That's what u have, undeniably from your description.

 

[kranerman23123]

I used to cage when users said this and just thought they were pussies. But this site eventually will take too big of a toll on your mental health

Every social interaction is tarred by realising how unwanted I am and how easy Chad gets it. Would rather be bluepilled and innocent and at least could make more friends that way. For instance, when female friends would tell me about a date, my mind instantly goes full blackpill hatred mode. Obviously I hide this, but it means a lot of social interactions I have aren't genuine.

Failed first year of medicine due to depression. I wish I got blackpilled a little later in life. I would've careermaxxed way harder with the (false) hope that it'd get me bitches and that I was a beast. It's too difficult to operate on zero self-esteem.

Lost my virginity to an escort recently at 22. This maybe will improve things because whenever people allude to anything sexual/romantic now, I will feel like I missed out a little less.

taking the blackpill genuinely turns you into a sociopath whether you are incel or chad and theres nothing you can do about it

 

[Bashan]

@David Rothschild Sexual, religious, self harm. You literally fit the description like a glove. And by how much it bothers you, It's so easy to tell ngl.

 

[Deleted member 17872]

@David Rothschild

That's what u have, undeniably from your description.

While i might have some intrusive thoughts going as far as back when i was 15, it only become significant when i was 20 and only for the past few years it has started affecting my life.

I used to be pretty absent minded growing up though.

 

[Bashan]

While i might have some intrusive thoughts going as far as back when i was 15, it only become significant when i was 20 and only for the past few years it has started affecting my life.

Jfl now you fit it EVEN BETTER. It tend to get worse without treatment. It takes 17 years for people with your condition to seek help.
it start around that age for most people (12-17)

 

[Deleted member 17872]

Jfl now you fit it EVEN BETTER. It tend to get worse without treatment. It takes 17 years for people with your condition to seek help.
it start around that age for most people (12-17)

Are you messing with me or is it legit?