Sleep Destroyed My Life

[flambria]

My Life is a Complete Mess — I’m 18 and Falling Apart


For the past 2 years, I’ve been trapped in a nightmare. I sleep 16–22 hours a day. My IQ has dropped from 120+ → 110 → 97. My brain feels corrupted. I can’t focus, think straight, or even enjoy anything.


Most days I wake up exhausted. My head aches constantly. My body feels decades older than it should. I drag myself out of bed only to find the day already over. Therapy? Ten sessions. Zero improvement.


I’m completely isolated. It’s been months since I’ve had a real conversation. I watch everyone else laugh, date, live, and I just hear it from the outside, like a ghost. The last time a girl seriously talked to me was 3+ years ago… and she was lesbian, so it was never going anywhere.


Only one friend is left, and I’ll be moving away from him in 3–6 months. My parents compare me to everyone, more successful people, people who failed harder, it doesn’t matter, they compare, and it crushes me. My father laughs while saying I’ll be kicked out at 18. If I stay, he’ll take 90% of my income as rent.


Jobs? Gone. One boss dissolved his 16-year business to go on a spiritual journey. The others vanished too, moved, quit, ghosted. I’m staring at the very real possibility of living in my car, maybe even homelessness.


I’m neurodivergent. Always have been. I can hyperfocus for hours, learn insanely fast, be creative, remember things in insane detail, but that doesn’t stop me from failing grade 12, having no driver’s license, being addicted to porn, or watching my body and mind decay.


I’m physically exhausted, mentally broken, and socially irrelevant. My friends are moving forward with studies, jobs, girlfriends. My parents mock me, shame me, compare me constantly. I’m losing my mind, blackpilled, irrelevant. Life is happening around me, and I’m trapped in the corner, screaming silently.


I don’t want pity. I don’t care about girls. I just want to fix my broken life before it’s too late. I don’t know if it’s ADHD, Autism, hypersomnia, depression, or all of it combined. I just know I’m tired. I’m lost. I’m alone.


If you’ve been here or can offer advice for someone about to turn 18 with no support, no future, and nothing but their own brain against them, please say something. I’m drowning.

I did use ChatGPT to generate this, because it pains me to write this, I'm on the verge of inflicting self-harm today. My brain is decaying slowly like a slow acting poison. I'm pathetically shedding tears in the public library.

My only hope now is test dose + modafinil or some strong brain nootropics.

 

[FiendFiend]

My Life is a Complete Mess — I’m 18 and Falling Apart


For the past 2 years, I’ve been trapped in a nightmare. I sleep 16–22 hours a day. My IQ has dropped from 120+ → 110 → 97. My brain feels corrupted. I can’t focus, think straight, or even enjoy anything.


Most days I wake up exhausted. My head aches constantly. My body feels decades older than it should. I drag myself out of bed only to find the day already over. Therapy? Ten sessions. Zero improvement.


I’m completely isolated. It’s been months since I’ve had a real conversation. I watch everyone else laugh, date, live, and I just hear it from the outside, like a ghost. The last time a girl seriously talked to me was 3+ years ago… and she was lesbian, so it was never going anywhere.


Only one friend is left, and I’ll be moving away from him in 3–6 months. My parents compare me to everyone, more successful people, people who failed harder, it doesn’t matter, they compare, and it crushes me. My father laughs while saying I’ll be kicked out at 18. If I stay, he’ll take 90% of my income as rent.


Jobs? Gone. One boss dissolved his 16-year business to go on a spiritual journey. The others vanished too, moved, quit, ghosted. I’m staring at the very real possibility of living in my car, maybe even homelessness.


I’m neurodivergent. Always have been. I can hyperfocus for hours, learn insanely fast, be creative, remember things in insane detail, but that doesn’t stop me from failing grade 12, having no driver’s license, being addicted to porn, or watching my body and mind decay.


I’m physically exhausted, mentally broken, and socially irrelevant. My friends are moving forward with studies, jobs, girlfriends. My parents mock me, shame me, compare me constantly. I’m losing my mind, blackpilled, irrelevant. Life is happening around me, and I’m trapped in the corner, screaming silently.


I don’t want pity. I don’t care about girls. I just want to fix my broken life before it’s too late. I don’t know if it’s ADHD, Autism, hypersomnia, depression, or all of it combined. I just know I’m tired. I’m lost. I’m alone.


If you’ve been here or can offer advice for someone about to turn 18 with no support, no future, and nothing but their own brain against them, please say something. I’m drowning.

I did use ChatGPT to generate this, because it pains me to write this, I'm on the verge of inflicting self-harm today. My brain is decaying slowly like a slow acting poison. I'm pathetically shedding tears in the public library.

My only hope now is test dose + modafinil or some strong brain nootropics.

u defo have orthodontal issues to where u sleep so long. Its why i sleep on average 12 hours a day.

 

[Corleone]

u defo have orthodontal issues to where u sleep so long. Its why i sleep on average 12 hours a day.

depression is what he described, not orthodontics.

 

[Vantablack]

My Life is a Complete Mess — I’m 18 and Falling Apart


For the past 2 years, I’ve been trapped in a nightmare. I sleep 16–22 hours a day. My IQ has dropped from 120+ → 110 → 97. My brain feels corrupted. I can’t focus, think straight, or even enjoy anything.


Most days I wake up exhausted. My head aches constantly. My body feels decades older than it should. I drag myself out of bed only to find the day already over. Therapy? Ten sessions. Zero improvement.


I’m completely isolated. It’s been months since I’ve had a real conversation. I watch everyone else laugh, date, live, and I just hear it from the outside, like a ghost. The last time a girl seriously talked to me was 3+ years ago… and she was lesbian, so it was never going anywhere.


Only one friend is left, and I’ll be moving away from him in 3–6 months. My parents compare me to everyone, more successful people, people who failed harder, it doesn’t matter, they compare, and it crushes me. My father laughs while saying I’ll be kicked out at 18. If I stay, he’ll take 90% of my income as rent.


Jobs? Gone. One boss dissolved his 16-year business to go on a spiritual journey. The others vanished too, moved, quit, ghosted. I’m staring at the very real possibility of living in my car, maybe even homelessness.


I’m neurodivergent. Always have been. I can hyperfocus for hours, learn insanely fast, be creative, remember things in insane detail, but that doesn’t stop me from failing grade 12, having no driver’s license, being addicted to porn, or watching my body and mind decay.


I’m physically exhausted, mentally broken, and socially irrelevant. My friends are moving forward with studies, jobs, girlfriends. My parents mock me, shame me, compare me constantly. I’m losing my mind, blackpilled, irrelevant. Life is happening around me, and I’m trapped in the corner, screaming silently.


I don’t want pity. I don’t care about girls. I just want to fix my broken life before it’s too late. I don’t know if it’s ADHD, Autism, hypersomnia, depression, or all of it combined. I just know I’m tired. I’m lost. I’m alone.


If you’ve been here or can offer advice for someone about to turn 18 with no support, no future, and nothing but their own brain against them, please say something. I’m drowning.

I did use ChatGPT to generate this, because it pains me to write this, I'm on the verge of inflicting self-harm today. My brain is decaying slowly like a slow acting poison. I'm pathetically shedding tears in the public library.

My only hope now is test dose + modafinil or some strong brain nootropics.

modafinil is overhyped garbage, just gives me a headache. nootropics are mostly cope. amphetamines / methylphenidate are decent drugs if yoh have a lot of work but its a short term solution.

normie advice but gym + diet + sun will fix a lot of your problems. even during my years of complete isolation i didn't rope because i had a strict gym regiment that gave me some purpose.

also get your vitamin and testosterone levels checked. when i was lethargic all day it turned out i was severely deficient in vitamin D. fixing that made my physical health much, much better.

hope you get better soon man

 

[FiendFiend]

depression is what he described, not orthodontics.

depression doesnt make u sleep 16 hours a day. Its a health issue 100%. U can be depressed u wont sleep 16 hours a day, trust me man I've been depressed not left house in months, one thing i didnt do is fall asleep for 16 hours

 

[pope]

Go to the doctor nigga