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My Life is a Complete Mess — I’m 18 and Falling Apart


For the past 2 years, I’ve been trapped in a nightmare. I sleep 16–22 hours a day. My IQ has dropped from 120+ → 110 → 97. My brain feels corrupted. I can’t focus, think straight, or even enjoy anything.


Most days I wake up exhausted. My head aches constantly. My body feels decades older than it should. I drag myself out of bed only to find the day already over. Therapy? Ten sessions. Zero improvement.


I’m completely isolated. It’s been months since I’ve had a real conversation. I watch everyone else laugh, date, live, and I just hear it from the outside, like a ghost. The last time a girl seriously talked to me was 3+ years ago… and she was lesbian, so it was never going anywhere.


Only one friend is left, and I’ll be moving away from him in 3–6 months. My parents compare me to everyone, more successful people, people who failed harder, it doesn’t matter, they compare, and it crushes me. My father laughs while saying I’ll be kicked out at 18. If I stay, he’ll take 90% of my income as rent.


Jobs? Gone. One boss dissolved his 16-year business to go on a spiritual journey. The others vanished too, moved, quit, ghosted. I’m staring at the very real possibility of living in my car, maybe even homelessness.


I’m neurodivergent. Always have been. I can hyperfocus for hours, learn insanely fast, be creative, remember things in insane detail, but that doesn’t stop me from failing grade 12, having no driver’s license, being addicted to porn, or watching my body and mind decay.


I’m physically exhausted, mentally broken, and socially irrelevant. My friends are moving forward with studies, jobs, girlfriends. My parents mock me, shame me, compare me constantly. I’m losing my mind, blackpilled, irrelevant. Life is happening around me, and I’m trapped in the corner, screaming silently.


I don’t want pity. I don’t care about girls. I just want to fix my broken life before it’s too late. I don’t know if it’s ADHD, Autism, hypersomnia, depression, or all of it combined. I just know I’m tired. I’m lost. I’m alone.


If you’ve been here or can offer advice for someone about to turn 18 with no support, no future, and nothing but their own brain against them, please say something. I’m drowning.

I did use ChatGPT to generate this, because it pains me to write this, I'm on the verge of inflicting self-harm today. My brain is decaying slowly like a slow acting poison. I'm pathetically shedding tears in the public library.

My only hope now is test dose + modafinil or some strong brain nootropics.
 
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My Life is a Complete Mess — I’m 18 and Falling Apart


For the past 2 years, I’ve been trapped in a nightmare. I sleep 16–22 hours a day. My IQ has dropped from 120+ → 110 → 97. My brain feels corrupted. I can’t focus, think straight, or even enjoy anything.


Most days I wake up exhausted. My head aches constantly. My body feels decades older than it should. I drag myself out of bed only to find the day already over. Therapy? Ten sessions. Zero improvement.


I’m completely isolated. It’s been months since I’ve had a real conversation. I watch everyone else laugh, date, live, and I just hear it from the outside, like a ghost. The last time a girl seriously talked to me was 3+ years ago… and she was lesbian, so it was never going anywhere.


Only one friend is left, and I’ll be moving away from him in 3–6 months. My parents compare me to everyone, more successful people, people who failed harder, it doesn’t matter, they compare, and it crushes me. My father laughs while saying I’ll be kicked out at 18. If I stay, he’ll take 90% of my income as rent.


Jobs? Gone. One boss dissolved his 16-year business to go on a spiritual journey. The others vanished too, moved, quit, ghosted. I’m staring at the very real possibility of living in my car, maybe even homelessness.


I’m neurodivergent. Always have been. I can hyperfocus for hours, learn insanely fast, be creative, remember things in insane detail, but that doesn’t stop me from failing grade 12, having no driver’s license, being addicted to porn, or watching my body and mind decay.


I’m physically exhausted, mentally broken, and socially irrelevant. My friends are moving forward with studies, jobs, girlfriends. My parents mock me, shame me, compare me constantly. I’m losing my mind, blackpilled, irrelevant. Life is happening around me, and I’m trapped in the corner, screaming silently.


I don’t want pity. I don’t care about girls. I just want to fix my broken life before it’s too late. I don’t know if it’s ADHD, Autism, hypersomnia, depression, or all of it combined. I just know I’m tired. I’m lost. I’m alone.


If you’ve been here or can offer advice for someone about to turn 18 with no support, no future, and nothing but their own brain against them, please say something. I’m drowning.

I did use ChatGPT to generate this, because it pains me to write this, I'm on the verge of inflicting self-harm today. My brain is decaying slowly like a slow acting poison. I'm pathetically shedding tears in the public library.

My only hope now is test dose + modafinil or some strong brain nootropics.
u defo have orthodontal issues to where u sleep so long. Its why i sleep on average 12 hours a day.
 
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u defo have orthodontal issues to where u sleep so long. Its why i sleep on average 12 hours a day.
depression is what he described, not orthodontics.
 
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My Life is a Complete Mess — I’m 18 and Falling Apart


For the past 2 years, I’ve been trapped in a nightmare. I sleep 16–22 hours a day. My IQ has dropped from 120+ → 110 → 97. My brain feels corrupted. I can’t focus, think straight, or even enjoy anything.


Most days I wake up exhausted. My head aches constantly. My body feels decades older than it should. I drag myself out of bed only to find the day already over. Therapy? Ten sessions. Zero improvement.


I’m completely isolated. It’s been months since I’ve had a real conversation. I watch everyone else laugh, date, live, and I just hear it from the outside, like a ghost. The last time a girl seriously talked to me was 3+ years ago… and she was lesbian, so it was never going anywhere.


Only one friend is left, and I’ll be moving away from him in 3–6 months. My parents compare me to everyone, more successful people, people who failed harder, it doesn’t matter, they compare, and it crushes me. My father laughs while saying I’ll be kicked out at 18. If I stay, he’ll take 90% of my income as rent.


Jobs? Gone. One boss dissolved his 16-year business to go on a spiritual journey. The others vanished too, moved, quit, ghosted. I’m staring at the very real possibility of living in my car, maybe even homelessness.


I’m neurodivergent. Always have been. I can hyperfocus for hours, learn insanely fast, be creative, remember things in insane detail, but that doesn’t stop me from failing grade 12, having no driver’s license, being addicted to porn, or watching my body and mind decay.


I’m physically exhausted, mentally broken, and socially irrelevant. My friends are moving forward with studies, jobs, girlfriends. My parents mock me, shame me, compare me constantly. I’m losing my mind, blackpilled, irrelevant. Life is happening around me, and I’m trapped in the corner, screaming silently.


I don’t want pity. I don’t care about girls. I just want to fix my broken life before it’s too late. I don’t know if it’s ADHD, Autism, hypersomnia, depression, or all of it combined. I just know I’m tired. I’m lost. I’m alone.


If you’ve been here or can offer advice for someone about to turn 18 with no support, no future, and nothing but their own brain against them, please say something. I’m drowning.

I did use ChatGPT to generate this, because it pains me to write this, I'm on the verge of inflicting self-harm today. My brain is decaying slowly like a slow acting poison. I'm pathetically shedding tears in the public library.

My only hope now is test dose + modafinil or some strong brain nootropics.
modafinil is overhyped garbage, just gives me a headache. nootropics are mostly cope. amphetamines / methylphenidate are decent drugs if yoh have a lot of work but its a short term solution.

normie advice but gym + diet + sun will fix a lot of your problems. even during my years of complete isolation i didn't rope because i had a strict gym regiment that gave me some purpose.

also get your vitamin and testosterone levels checked. when i was lethargic all day it turned out i was severely deficient in vitamin D. fixing that made my physical health much, much better.

hope you get better soon man
 
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depression is what he described, not orthodontics.
depression doesnt make u sleep 16 hours a day. Its a health issue 100%. U can be depressed u wont sleep 16 hours a day, trust me man I've been depressed not left house in months, one thing i didnt do is fall asleep for 16 hours
 
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Go to the doctor nigga
 
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u defo have orthodontal issues to where u sleep so long. Its why i sleep on average 12 hours a day.
I can barely fit two index finger in both my upper and lower palate.
Definitely have an overbite, maybe Retrognathia too (recessed chin).
I also have one abnormal eruption, which caused all my teeth to start crowding.

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depression is what he described, not orthodontics.
No depressed nigga, I met fucking sleeps, 16-22 hours a day on average everyday, for over 2 years :dafuckfeels:
 
modafinil is overhyped garbage, just gives me a headache. nootropics are mostly cope. amphetamines / methylphenidate are decent drugs if yoh have a lot of work but its a short term solution.

normie advice but gym + diet + sun will fix a lot of your problems. even during my years of complete isolation i didn't rope because i had a strict gym regiment that gave me some purpose.

also get your vitamin and testosterone levels checked. when i was lethargic all day it turned out i was severely deficient in vitamin D. fixing that made my physical health much, much better.

hope you get better soon man
Modafinil might be overhyped garbage, but I will still try to use it. It's my only hope at this point, maybe I'll need the stronger variant, which would be armodafinil.

Hopefully it's the magic pill I'm looking for...

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Going the the gym makes me beyond tired. I feel like falling asleep every time, I go the the gym.

My fucking GP is like, muuh it's not your testosterone levels :rage:
I'll wait till I'm 18 by the end of the month to get it checked.

I used to have iron deficiency, but that got fixed years ago. Had full bloods checked, not problems found, did it few months a go.


What was the JFL react for :dafuckfeels:
@org3cel.RR I thought you held, yourself up to higher standards than this

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Go to the doctor nigga
I'm not even joking, my sleep problems magically revolved itself, when I went to get an appointment :fuk:
They probably think I'm schizo or something.

I also had 10+ appointments with a qualified therapist, fucking did jack shit.
 
modafinil is overhyped garbage, just gives me a headache. nootropics are mostly cope. amphetamines / methylphenidate are decent drugs if yoh have a lot of work but its a short term solution.

normie advice but gym + diet + sun will fix a lot of your problems. even during my years of complete isolation i didn't rope because i had a strict gym regiment that gave me some purpose.

also get your vitamin and testosterone levels checked. when i was lethargic all day it turned out i was severely deficient in vitamin D. fixing that made my physical health much, much better.

hope you get better soon man
Yup modafinil is super trash I have to take 400mg to even maybe feel any nootropic effect if it isn’t placebo I find it’s better for when I have days where I sleep less which might be perfect for @flambria as it is a narcolepsy medication

150-200mg test, maybe modafinil, and like you said Vitamin D+ k2 and maybe some other multivitamin would be a good start @flambria

Amphetamines like Adderall aren’t decent, they’re fucking goated but might be too expensive or out of reach in Australia
 
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Raw meat
 
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Yup modafinil is super trash I have to take 400mg to even maybe feel any nootropic effect if it isn’t placebo I find it’s better for when I have days where I sleep less which might be perfect for @flambria as it is a narcolepsy medication

150-200mg test, maybe modafinil, and like you said Vitamin D+ k2 and maybe some other multivitamin would be a good start @flambria

Amphetamines like Adderall aren’t decent, they’re fucking goated but might be too expensive or out of reach in Australia
I really do need to get some test, but delaying until I'm 18 which is by end of month.

Lately my parents have been very strict and micro managing too much. My father gutted the entire WI-FI network 2 weeks ago, so nowadays I have to go to the library and hop on the free public WI-FI or hotpot my mother's phone, which is only limited to 1 hour.
 
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3 small pieces of raw meat a day :feelshehe:
Working my way up, to eat more

To commit to it full-time I'll wait till I'm 18 y/o which is in less than a month.
 
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I really do need to get some test, but delaying until I'm 18 which is by end of month.

Lately my parents have been very strict and micro managing too much. My father gutted the entire WI-FI network 2 weeks ago, so nowadays I have to go to the library and hop on the free public WI-FI or hotpot my mother's phone, which is only limited to 1 hour.
Yeah bro fucked situation but a kit of test can go a long way and idk maybe look into some sleep apnea thing
Or mouth tape :forcedsmile:
 
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I’d go straight to armodafinil
I'm testing Modafinil and Dexamphetamine first, I don't want to dismiss it, just because it's weaker, it might be the miracle pill I need.
 
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Yeah bro fucked situation but a kit of test can go a long way and idk maybe look into some sleep apnea thing
Or mouth tape :forcedsmile:
Sleep doctor said I don't have sleep apnea. I have recorded myself sleeping to hear for any snoring, there was none present in the audio. I don't mouth breathe when I sleep, only nasal breathe.
 
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I'm testing Modafinil and Dexamphetamine first, I don't want to dismiss it, just because it's weaker, it might be the miracle pill I need.
Lmk
 
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stupid ai ass thread
 
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anyway i think you have sleep apnea
 
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stupid ai ass thread
Yeah I admit it was ai, I usually put much more effort. All things said in the post, are quite real though. I was contemplating suicide when I wrote this, so I didn't really feel like writing a long post.
 
I can barely fit two index finger in both my upper and lower palate.
Definitely have an overbite, maybe Retrognathia too (recessed chin).
I also have one abnormal eruption, which caused all my teeth to start crowding.

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yeah man visit your dentist and orthodontist, they will give u ur best explaination, some "chemical imbalance" or some shit isnt your problem your bones are literally causing u to not get enough oxygen leaving u exhausted the whole day.

Get it fixed and also ascend in the process
 
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