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so things got rly fucked up in the last 2 days, my father got diagnosed w terminal disease (2 of my autns already died from the same thing so probably it carries in the subhuman dna, maybe i get it too) , he was the only source of income in the house, he is literaly unable to work right now so idk how we will even manage to surivive, idiot ape mom is already looking for a job and
i guess my plans for surgeries that wouldnt even raise 1 psl get cancelled forever, i was planning to get a student loan of 10k and then do forced labor to pay it off slowly but then i learn that my only hope andreishchev costs 10k for double jaw only (i thought it would be around5k) , and for start i need mso msdo and maybe require imdo for super bimax so if i never fix my jaws ill never fix anything anyway and i see it not happening, but even after that? i would still be an abomiation, so much more would reqire to get fixed, nose, eyes and lack of midface volume idk, limb lenghetning and nuss procedure for my pectus excavatum which lately i suspect is getting worse and causing me shortnss of breath,.... but im penniless, and i will never be able to make a single euro, and heck, even if i completely ruined my life to find those mone,y get all those surgeries, in the end i would wait for even more problems to show, BECAUSE THE PROBLEMS NEVER END WHEN YOU GOT SUBHUMAN DNA, NEVER!
i stopped talking to my 1 idiot fb friend i was ranting on him some of my problems and he says "who cares dude" an shit, ofc he doesnt live life as a deformed subhuman how can he know i wish he gets fucked or sth
honestly, i will never fix, you cant fix subhuman dna, im tired of looking in the mirror feeling the void and hopelessnes inside me, looking at how reccesed all my face is, llooking at my reccessed jaws, my non existing infraorbitals, my assymetric eyes MY OGRE NOSE MY SHIT ETHNIC SKIN FKING MONGOLOID FATHER GOOD THING HE DIES, as im writing this i got tears in my eyes and i got a heavy headhache.. because i will never ever be happy in this life, it is all over
i see the subhuman dna following every single member of my family, shit bones, shit brains, shit bodies manlets, ultimate subhuman voices, dick is small etc etc
im extremely hypohondriac being afraid of dying since i was a kid and still its so close to me and nothing can take my mind away from it, i will never slay, i will never have a pretty girlfriend to kiss, i will never feel love by a woman, i will never be valuable, always crawl in the side in pics and events, afraid of speaking and hateful of listening to my voice
at the moment i cant describe how i feel really, a 29yr old girl that i liked and i was "playing" with to get validation online, but i ended up catching feelings messaged me in skype after 1 month, i know she prob wants to fuck and it would all be cool and id be happy if i was human..i cant get any validaton right now, i can never meet any girl, i cant imagine myself ksising a girl, i cant imagine MYSELF HAVING SEX, I FUCKING CANT DO IT BECAUSE I CRINGE DOING IT,, DEEPP DOWN INSIDE ME I KNOW THAT MY DESTINY IS TO ROT IN MY HOUSE, DONT PROCREATE AND DESTROY MY SUBHUMAN DNA.. AAA
my flaws? where could i start, i was a normal kid, with good skin, average bones, not deformed body, now idk its pointless to even list them its not a competition, im just tired
i dont plan to suicide, im afraid of death, the only life that awaits for me is rotting in fear of dying and living in agony and feeling my youth getting wasted because im a fucking subhuman AND I DONT DESERVE TO FEEL GOOD, I FUCKING DONT, I DONT WANT TO BE A CUCK, I DONT WANT TO SEE OTHERS HAVE FUN, I WISH SOMEONE COULD LOVE ME I WISH IWAS HUMAN, I WISH I WAS HUMAN
in the 18.5 years of my life, i had 13 interactions with girls, 7 irl friends in the past, 0 since 2 years, 1 online friend to whom i stoppeed talking and i dont care anymore, i dont know what im gonna do
if someone asks me "so what do uexpect dude, to do nothing and deserve good things to happen to u? why are u so entitled" , in a sense he would be right, but in the other hand, every single day im giving 100 % of my self and i get NOTHING BACK , because literally nothing happens and this is as much as my mental capabilities reach....
psl forums is a big portion of my life and i love u all guys
i wish no one suffered in this world and everyone was happy, this life fking sucks and idk what imgoing to do, im literally crying right now, , i will try to not lurk in the future, then again i got nothing to do in my life, i dont plan to quit forums to go out moer or fix my life, idk what ill do my life is unfixable, i literally HAVE NO PLAN, IM FUCKED
i dont want anyone to read what i wrote, and i dont even know what i wrote, maybe im writing shit, i just feel better writing about it
bye to all of u guys, ure awesome
@Master @Lorsss @BigBiceps ban me again pls, i wont come back, and thanks
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAJFDJDGJEWEIGE
so things got rly fucked up in the last 2 days, my father got diagnosed w terminal disease (2 of my autns already died from the same thing so probably it carries in the subhuman dna, maybe i get it too) , he was the only source of income in the house, he is literaly unable to work right now so idk how we will even manage to surivive, idiot ape mom is already looking for a job and
i guess my plans for surgeries that wouldnt even raise 1 psl get cancelled forever, i was planning to get a student loan of 10k and then do forced labor to pay it off slowly but then i learn that my only hope andreishchev costs 10k for double jaw only (i thought it would be around5k) , and for start i need mso msdo and maybe require imdo for super bimax so if i never fix my jaws ill never fix anything anyway and i see it not happening, but even after that? i would still be an abomiation, so much more would reqire to get fixed, nose, eyes and lack of midface volume idk, limb lenghetning and nuss procedure for my pectus excavatum which lately i suspect is getting worse and causing me shortnss of breath,.... but im penniless, and i will never be able to make a single euro, and heck, even if i completely ruined my life to find those mone,y get all those surgeries, in the end i would wait for even more problems to show, BECAUSE THE PROBLEMS NEVER END WHEN YOU GOT SUBHUMAN DNA, NEVER!
i stopped talking to my 1 idiot fb friend i was ranting on him some of my problems and he says "who cares dude" an shit, ofc he doesnt live life as a deformed subhuman how can he know i wish he gets fucked or sth
honestly, i will never fix, you cant fix subhuman dna, im tired of looking in the mirror feeling the void and hopelessnes inside me, looking at how reccesed all my face is, llooking at my reccessed jaws, my non existing infraorbitals, my assymetric eyes MY OGRE NOSE MY SHIT ETHNIC SKIN FKING MONGOLOID FATHER GOOD THING HE DIES, as im writing this i got tears in my eyes and i got a heavy headhache.. because i will never ever be happy in this life, it is all over
i see the subhuman dna following every single member of my family, shit bones, shit brains, shit bodies manlets, ultimate subhuman voices, dick is small etc etc
im extremely hypohondriac being afraid of dying since i was a kid and still its so close to me and nothing can take my mind away from it, i will never slay, i will never have a pretty girlfriend to kiss, i will never feel love by a woman, i will never be valuable, always crawl in the side in pics and events, afraid of speaking and hateful of listening to my voice
at the moment i cant describe how i feel really, a 29yr old girl that i liked and i was "playing" with to get validation online, but i ended up catching feelings messaged me in skype after 1 month, i know she prob wants to fuck and it would all be cool and id be happy if i was human..i cant get any validaton right now, i can never meet any girl, i cant imagine myself ksising a girl, i cant imagine MYSELF HAVING SEX, I FUCKING CANT DO IT BECAUSE I CRINGE DOING IT,, DEEPP DOWN INSIDE ME I KNOW THAT MY DESTINY IS TO ROT IN MY HOUSE, DONT PROCREATE AND DESTROY MY SUBHUMAN DNA.. AAA
my flaws? where could i start, i was a normal kid, with good skin, average bones, not deformed body, now idk its pointless to even list them its not a competition, im just tired
i dont plan to suicide, im afraid of death, the only life that awaits for me is rotting in fear of dying and living in agony and feeling my youth getting wasted because im a fucking subhuman AND I DONT DESERVE TO FEEL GOOD, I FUCKING DONT, I DONT WANT TO BE A CUCK, I DONT WANT TO SEE OTHERS HAVE FUN, I WISH SOMEONE COULD LOVE ME I WISH IWAS HUMAN, I WISH I WAS HUMAN
in the 18.5 years of my life, i had 13 interactions with girls, 7 irl friends in the past, 0 since 2 years, 1 online friend to whom i stoppeed talking and i dont care anymore, i dont know what im gonna do
if someone asks me "so what do uexpect dude, to do nothing and deserve good things to happen to u? why are u so entitled" , in a sense he would be right, but in the other hand, every single day im giving 100 % of my self and i get NOTHING BACK , because literally nothing happens and this is as much as my mental capabilities reach....
psl forums is a big portion of my life and i love u all guys
i wish no one suffered in this world and everyone was happy, this life fking sucks and idk what imgoing to do, im literally crying right now, , i will try to not lurk in the future, then again i got nothing to do in my life, i dont plan to quit forums to go out moer or fix my life, idk what ill do my life is unfixable, i literally HAVE NO PLAN, IM FUCKED
i dont want anyone to read what i wrote, and i dont even know what i wrote, maybe im writing shit, i just feel better writing about it
bye to all of u guys, ure awesome
@Master @Lorsss @BigBiceps ban me again pls, i wont come back, and thanks
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAJFDJDGJEWEIGE
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