So tired of my stupidity. Feel like I'm going to commit suicide soon.

[hunnidrounds]

I just can't get solve it. I legit have intellectual disabilities because it baffles me how I'm still struggling and turn simple things into giant fuckups in my age. It's gotten to the point where it's driven me mad and caused me to have Schizophrenia. I'm not cut out for this shit at all. I'm just tired man.... I want to ctb cause this shit is just not worth living.

 

[Beavis]

calm down whats making you tweak anyways

 

[HowToBasic]

I just can't get solve it. I legit have intellectual disabilities because it baffles me how I'm still struggling and turn simple things into giant fuckups in my age. It's gotten to the point where it's driven me mad and caused me to have Schizophrenia. I'm not cut out for this shit at all. I'm just tired man.... I want to ctb cause this shit is just not worth living.

Blow your shit off

 

[hunnidrounds]

calm down whats making you tweak anyways

Bro like I've tried to get women by agreeing to pay them via cash app and they just ghosted and this happened on different occasions. I'm too stupid to learn from my mistakes. Even an escort refused to give me sex face to face and just took 350 from me and only gave me a handjob. I don't stick up for myself. I failed out of school. I have Schizophrenia. I don't know how to do anything. Wtf I can't believe this is my life and that this is happening to me.

 

[Beavis]

Bro like I've tried to get women by agreeing to pay them via cash app and they just ghosted and this happened on different occasions. I'm too stupid to learn from my mistakes. Even an escort refused to give me sex face to face and just took 350 from me and only gave me a handjob. I don't stick up for myself. I failed out of school. I have Schizophrenia. I don't know how to do anything. Wtf I can't believe this is my life and that this is happening to me.

stop giving a fuck about women it's not everything, people on this forum will make you believe pussy is everything but just genuinely try to better yourself and do things that'll improve you instead of wasting your time and money trying something that you've got fucked over multiples times for already

 

[truelarping]

Bro like I've tried to get women by agreeing to pay them via cash app and they just ghosted and this happened on different occasions. I'm too stupid to learn from my mistakes. Even an escort refused to give me sex face to face and just took 350 from me and only gave me a handjob. I don't stick up for myself. I failed out of school. I have Schizophrenia. I don't know how to do anything. Wtf I can't believe this is my life and that this is happening to me.

wow. what the fuck
getting high and jerking off in solice > paying any amount of money before even meeting a women so just like wtf
you will not get satisfaction from paid slays
you will from ascending or actual slays

 

[Edelweiss]

try niacinamide and coffee

 

[htbslayeer]

Bro like I've tried to get women by agreeing to pay them via cash app and they just ghosted and this happened on different occasions. I'm too stupid to learn from my mistakes. Even an escort refused to give me sex face to face and just took 350 from me and only gave me a handjob. I don't stick up for myself. I failed out of school. I have Schizophrenia. I don't know how to do anything. Wtf I can't believe this is my life and that this is happening to me.

Nah wtf bro you have to end it u are just unfit for life, thought I was a bum but damn this is just unbelievable

 

[pslturi]

stop giving a fuck about women it's not everything, people on this forum will make you believe pussy is everything but just genuinely try to better yourself and do things that'll improve you instead of wasting your time and money trying something that you've got fucked over multiples times for already

holy low iq people telling you to give up. don’t listen life will always go on and no matter what you think in ur mind women aren’t everything. there is a lot more to life than pussy trust me when i say this things can change and all you have to do is start a routine. dm me if you wanna talk ill be here

 

[hunnidrounds]

Hey everybody. I know I've been struggling with sin lately and it's caused me to rant and entertain thoughts of suicide, but I wanted to let you guys know I'm not going through with it. I hope my post above didn't cause any of the younger users to stumble. There have been a lot of us who are going through suffering and I am sure the thought of ending it crossed your minds and not just mine. Even Jesus mentioned that hating our lives was a byproduct of our discipleship with him in Luke 14:26:

"If anyone comes to me and does not hate Father and Mother, wife and children, brothers and sisters- yes, even their own life-such a person cannot be my disciple". And John 12:25- "Anyone who loves their life will lose it, while anyone who hates their life in this world will keep it for eternal life".

I had an overdose attempt in 2021 and it was frightening because in my coma, in my near death experience, it felt like God was denying my plea to be delivered from Hell. But, it was out of mercy that he woke me up as I was not in my right mind when I overdosed. Even though it is written we are saved by grace through faith, it's scary.

And I'm not trying to get pity points through this post through "false or voluntary humility" (Colossians 2:18). I do this because every empty word a person uttered will be taken into account on Judgment Day as said in Matthew 12:36; so I want to make amends. No one escapes divine judgment, surely not the rich. Not Jeffrey Epstein, not even beloved Cowboys player Marshawn Kneeland, who took his own life a few days ago. Consider the parable Jesus told of the Rich Man and Lazarus:

Luke 16:19-31

19 “There was a rich man who was dressed in purple and fine linen and lived in luxury every day. 20 At his gate was laid a beggar named Lazarus, covered with sores 21 and longing to eat what fell from the rich man’s table. Even the dogs came and licked his sores.

22 “The time came when the beggar died and the angels carried him to Abraham’s side. The rich man also died and was buried. 23 In Hades, where he was in torment, he looked up and saw Abraham far away, with Lazarus by his side. 24 So he called to him, ‘Father Abraham, have pity on me and send Lazarus to dip the tip of his finger in water and cool my tongue, because I am in agony in this fire.’

25 “But Abraham replied, ‘Son, remember that in your lifetime you received your good things, while Lazarus received bad things, but now he is comforted here and you are in agony. 26 And besides all this, between us and you a great chasm has been set in place, so that those who want to go from here to you cannot, nor can anyone cross over from there to us.’

27 “He answered, ‘Then I beg you, father, send Lazarus to my family, 28 for I have five brothers. Let him warn them, so that they will not also come to this place of torment.’

29 “Abraham replied, ‘They have Moses and the Prophets; let them listen to them.’

30 “‘No, father Abraham,’ he said, ‘but if someone from the dead goes to them, they will repent.’

31 “He said to him, ‘If they do not listen to Moses and the Prophets, they will not be convinced even if someone rises from the dead.’”


Lazarus struggled, Job struggled, Jesus struggled. And even though my poor mental health is the bane of my existence, I just got to pick up my cross and carry on the best I can with Jesus helping me by my side. Like the Apostle Paul and Barnabas said:

Acts 14:21-22:

21 They preached the gospel to that city and made many disciples. Then they returned to Lystra, Iconium, and Antioch, 22 strengthening the souls of the disciples and encouraging them to continue in the faith. “We must endure many hardships to enter the kingdom of God,” they said.

So if I have to arrive at the gates of Heaven battered, bruised, and defeated I guess that's just the way it has to be.

 

[hunnidrounds]

Let's take the time to repent, for the Kingdom of Heaven is at hand.

 

[hunnidrounds]

I really am in no position to judge as I have sinned greatly too. I cannot tell my brother to take the beam out of his eye when I have a beam in mine. I cannot be going about hypocritical like the Pharisees. We just have to repent and keep progressing towards the Kingdom of Heaven.