social anxiety/autism is legitimately ruining me

[mogs_me]

it’s not ruining my chances of getting laid, that was already ruined by my face
but tbh even with 0 pussy life can be barely tolerable if you have a decent friend group
i was lucky enough to have this for a while
now pretty much all of my friends have moved away
one of my friends invited me up to meet him and some other friends and some ppl i don’t know for his birthday. i asked what we’d do and he said probably just go out and i just said oh sorry no thanks (he knows i’m an aspie so this wasn’t a surprise/offensive to him)
every weekend my friends are in their respective cities going out and drinking and fucking a new girl while i rot at home without even the motivation to play video games
tonight i legit cried my eyes out for first time in a while like an estrogenic faggot because of how bad things have gotten
i haven’t seen my close childhood friends in months, when i used to see them multiple times a week, and i can’t bring myself to go meet them cuz i’m a socially inept disgrace
i am legit just too terrified of meeting new people to the point i’m completely incapacitated
i’m 23.5 and i’ve never been to a bar or club in my life, and i can’t picture it ever happening. i’d have no idea what to do. i hate drinking, i hate dancing, i hate talking to strangers. i wish i liked/was good at these things of course but it’s not possible, i don’t have anything in common with ppl my age. all i can imagine myself doing is following my friends around like a lost puppy and awkwardly third wheeling on anything they do. or maybe just sitting on my phone by myself and not interacting with anyone. this just sounds like a nightmare to me and id rather not risk putting myself in that situation.

keep in mind i’m not even concerned about getting pussy or anything . i’m literally just concerned about my ability to not be a gigaawkward retard that ruins everyone’s night including my own

what can I even do?

 

[height]

pregabalin

 

[Deleted member 19036]

it’s not ruining my chances of getting laid, that was already ruined by my face
but tbh even with 0 pussy life can be barely tolerable if you have a decent friend group
i was lucky enough to have this for a while
now pretty much all of my friends have moved away
one of my friends invited me up to meet him and some other friends and some ppl i don’t know for his birthday. i asked what we’d do and he said probably just go out and i just said oh sorry no thanks (he knows i’m an aspie so this wasn’t a surprise/offensive to him)
every weekend my friends are in their respective cities going out and drinking and fucking a new girl while i rot at home without even the motivation to play video games
tonight i legit cried my eyes out for first time in a while like an estrogenic faggot because of how bad things have gotten
i haven’t seen my close childhood friends in months, when i used to see them multiple times a week, and i can’t bring myself to go meet them cuz i’m a socially inept disgrace
i am legit just too terrified of meeting new people to the point i’m completely incapacitated
i’m 23.5 and i’ve never been to a bar or club in my life, and i can’t picture it ever happening. i’d have no idea what to do. i hate drinking, i hate dancing, i hate talking to strangers. i wish i liked/was good at these things of course but it’s not possible, i don’t have anything in common with ppl my age. all i can imagine myself doing is following my friends around like a lost puppy and awkwardly third wheeling on anything they do. or maybe just sitting on my phone by myself and not interacting with anyone. this just sounds like a nightmare to me and id rather not risk putting myself in that situation.

keep in mind i’m not even concerned about getting pussy or anything . i’m literally just concerned about my ability to not be a gigaawkward retard that ruins everyone’s night including my own

what can I even do?

its over

 

[Deleted member 19036]

pregabalin

doesnt work for the ppl on the spectrum. nut if only high inhib that may work

 

[height]

doesnt work for the ppl on the spectrum. nut if only high inhib that may work

what does

 

[metagross]

I have the same problem.
I see people going out every weekend, partying etc. These people are what some would consider incel or LTN here. And they're having lots of fun, sometimes these NT-people even have girlfriends while being short and LTN.

So it can't be looks alone. Atleast not for friend groups and socialmaxxing. I have severe autism and just CAN'T act normal. I either sperg and say weird stuff, give unsolicited nerdy advice, or, alternatively, I say nothing at all, because I am afraid to sound autistic, which in turn makes me socially awkward aswell. It's a hellish place to be in.

 

[Deleted member 19036]

what does

rope

 

[height]

rope

cope

 

[Deleted member 19036]

cope

atypical antidepressants work wonders. ssris or snris may work but must be used with caution they did cause manic psychotic behaviour and suicial idetion on me. maybe maois(?). tcas were ok too. also people some ppl claim parkinsons meds, vorinostat, testosterone or thyrioid medication works good for mentalmaxxing but every guy is fifferent and should test the stuff without expectations to objectively understand its effect.

 

[height]

atypical antidepressants work wonders. ssris or snris may work but must be used with caution they did cause manic psychotic behaviour and suicial idetion on me. maybe maois(?). tcas were ok too. also people some ppl claim parkinsons meds, vorinostat, testosterone or thyrioid medication works good for mentalmaxxing but every guy is fifferent and should test the stuff without expectations to objectively understand its effect.

 

[Deleted member 19036]

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you made my day. but stop abusing random dogs if they dont even bite. go punch some weak ass twink in his jaw instead

 

[height]

you made my day. but stop abusing random dogs if they dont even bite. go punch some weak ass twink in his jaw instead

 

[rand anon]

NTpill is too brutal

 

[firethorn]

why don't you like drinking? have you ever tried doing it with an open mind and no autistic preconceptions or fixations about it being bad? anyone who says they dont like alcohol (aside from asian flush) is doing some crazy mental gymnastics imo

and most people feel a bit like that about new people and new activities. the point is drinking makes you give less of a fuck so you can just have fun

 

[Floda]

having anxiety just means u have higher awareness of your surroundings, as well as a better perception of all the possible outcomes of any given social interaction
overcoming anxiety means youve achieved an immeasurable amount of self control, diligence and strength

 

[mogs_me]

why don't you like drinking? have you ever tried doing it with an open mind and no autistic preconceptions or fixations about it being bad? anyone who says they dont like alcohol (aside from asian flush) is doing some crazy mental gymnastics imo

and most people feel a bit like that about new people and new activities. the point is drinking makes you give less of a fuck so you can just have fun

lol alcohol does not do much for me
i’m still similarly socially inhibited around strangers, and generally conversationally inept. it also makes me tired, i usually just end up passing out on a couch early into the night (i only have drunk at ppls houses not at bars as mentioned before)
around friends maybe i speak more openly but this is not really a good thing, last time i ended up apparently talking about some pretty depraved stuff that weirded everyone out
pretty brutal tbh

 

[firethorn]

lol alcohol does not do much for me
i’m still similarly socially inhibited around strangers, and generally conversationally inept. it also makes me tired, i usually just end up passing out on a couch early into the night (i only have drunk at ppls houses not at bars as mentioned before)
around friends maybe i speak more openly but this is not really a good thing, last time i ended up apparently talking about some pretty depraved stuff that weirded everyone out
pretty brutal tbh

sounds like cope

 

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[BigJimsWornOutTires]

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You're not 6 foot 5. You're a midget. Weak. Breakable.

 

[NuclearBrainReturns]

You'll always have us mogs

 

[JovenCansao]

I'd advise going to a crowded club to dance to techno and electronic music.
From experience, all it takes is a few drugs to feel good in those places

 

[Polar]

look into roiding, you really have nothing to lose if youre a high inhib khhv i assume at 23

 

[Gladiator]

if I had a dollar for every post I didn't read

 

[Deleted member 22124]

Who cares about lookism megastars tbh

Y'all just a bunch of repressed homos

 

[mogs_me]

look into roiding, you really have nothing to lose if youre a high inhib khhv i assume at 23

no roids for your brain

 

[Deleted member 8365]

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@FBI

 

[Polar]

no roids for your brain

indeed if ur brain chemistry is this fucked to not even try to take drastic measures to change your life it never even began
my condolences

 

[Deleted member 20399]

Have you tried manning the fuck up

 

[mogs_me]

update on this:
finally got over it and tried it a few times
turns out as always my concerns were perfectly rational
one time i was way too drunk and got in a fight and got kicked out nearly instantly and ended up throwing up and passing out on sidewalk
other times i just awkwardly sipped my drink and didn't say a word to anyone until we left

i’d have no idea what to do. i hate drinking, i hate dancing, i hate talking to strangers. i wish i liked/was good at these things of course but it’s not possible, i don’t have anything in common with ppl my age. all i can imagine myself doing is following my friends around like a lost puppy and awkwardly third wheeling on anything they do. or maybe just sitting on my phone by myself and not interacting with anyone. this just sounds like a nightmare to me and id rather not risk putting myself in that situation.

basically this exactly

there's no fun to any of this if you have autism
i honestly dont even think it'd be that fun even if i was NT/GL

 

[vanillaicecream]

Have you ascended with any girls or still khhv

 

[mogs_me]

Have you ascended with any girls or still khhv

 

[mogger123]

update on this:
finally got over it and tried it a few times
turns out as always my concerns were perfectly rational
one time i was way too drunk and got in a fight and got kicked out nearly instantly and ended up throwing up and passing out on sidewalk
other times i just awkwardly sipped my drink and didn't say a word to anyone until we left

basically this exactly

there's no fun to any of this if you have autism
i honestly dont even think it'd be that fun even if i was NT/GL

how did you get into a fight? story?

 

[vanillaicecream]

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Hehehe. @slop slinger

 

[mogs_me]

how did you get into a fight? story?

spilled my drink on someone
it didn't even get physical really

 

[mogger123]

spilled my drink on someone
it didn't even get physical really

kinda boring. you could have probabyl offered to get them a free drink or something and they wouldve been chill

 

[justinzayn]

I been completely socially isolated for past 5plus year
, zero social contact or conversation unless shopkepper

Have developed extreme mental fatigue, can't walk behave normal, keep falling, missing steps, dropping things, bumping into people and things
Can't make eye contact with have anxiety attack and weirding everyone out

I tryna to recover my going outside but gets even more sucidal when I see couples my age enjoying

 

[mogs_me]

Hehehe. @slop slinger

 

[mogs_me]

kinda boring. you could have probabyl offered to get them a free drink or something and they wouldve been chill

it was an ugly fat chick and i was pretty much blacked out atp
i didn't even understand why they were yelling at me

 

[mogger123]

it was an ugly fat chick and i was pretty much blacked out atp
i didn't even understand why they were yelling at me

brutal

 

[vanillaicecream]

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Ok let's get serious now have you at least had some opportunities to get intimate with a girl or not even that? I know that you ultimately blew whatever chance you might've had but have you come close to ascending in that area

 

[mogs_me]

Ok let's get serious now have you at least had some opportunities to get intimate with a girl or not even that? I know that you ultimately blew whatever chance you might've had but have you come close to ascending in that area

i can identify two times in my life where ive had anything that i would consider an "opportunity"
at my job in high school, there was this fat white coworker girl who was talking about wanting to see a movie but having no one to go with. it didn't occur to me until later that she was probably wanting me to volunteer. and if she was asking me on some kind of movie date i guess she probably would've been down to fuk. this sounds like a stretch but i could tell she liked me. but she was quite overweight as i mentioned.
second time was in college freshman year a 2 psl (legit 2 psl, no exag.. maybe 2.5 at best) asian girl asked me if i wanted to come over to "study" and i said no. she asked a few more times and i kept rejecting and it got awkward. i assume i could've fucked her. but she was srs deformed and had a lisp and rly masculine personality i just couldn't

i guess it's worth mentioning that ive also snapchatted girls from other countries and gotten them to send nudes
ive tried larping that i lived near them to convince them to "meet up" so I could obviously ghost them, but nothing ever came to fruition

that's about everything in my entire pathetic existence tbh

 

[mogs_me]

i can identify two times in my life where ive had anything that i would consider an "opportunity"
at my job in high school, there was this fat white coworker girl who was talking about wanting to see a movie but having no one to go with. it didn't occur to me until later that she was probably wanting me to volunteer. and if she was asking me on some kind of movie date i guess she probably would've been down to fuk. this sounds like a stretch but i could tell she liked me. but she was quite overweight as i mentioned.
second time was in college freshman year a 2 psl (legit 2 psl, no exag.. maybe 2.5 at best) asian girl asked me if i wanted to come over to "study" and i said no. she asked a few more times and i kept rejecting and it got awkward. i assume i could've fucked her. but she was srs deformed and had a lisp and rly masculine personality i just couldn't

i guess it's worth mentioning that ive also snapchatted girls from other countries and gotten them to send nudes
ive tried larping that i lived near them to convince them to "meet up" so I could obviously ghost them, but nothing ever came to fruition

that's about everything in my entire pathetic existence tbh

i also had another overweight white girl ask me to prom but i think it was just out of desperation cuz she wanted to go but had no one, and didn't actually have any interest in me..(i said no)

 

[vanillaicecream]

i can identify two times in my life where ive had anything that i would consider an "opportunity"
at my job in high school, there was this fat white coworker girl who was talking about wanting to see a movie but having no one to go with. it didn't occur to me until later that she was probably wanting me to volunteer. and if she was asking me on some kind of movie date i guess she probably would've been down to fuk. this sounds like a stretch but i could tell she liked me. but she was quite overweight as i mentioned.
second time was in college freshman year a 2 psl (legit 2 psl, no exag.. maybe 2.5 at best) asian girl asked me if i wanted to come over to "study" and i said no. she asked a few more times and i kept rejecting and it got awkward. i assume i could've fucked her. but she was srs deformed and had a lisp and rly masculine personality i just couldn't

i guess it's worth mentioning that ive also snapchatted girls from other countries and gotten them to send nudes
ive tried larping that i lived near them to convince them to "meet up" so I could obviously ghost them, but nothing ever came to fruition

that's about everything in my entire pathetic existence tbh

You have some nerve calling yourself a social anxietycel when you've had a job and gone to college. I've never done any of this because I legit freeze and act like a retard who can't string a coherent sentence together when talking to other people irl. I've also never come even remotely close to having an opportunity to get laid. How did you manage to not at least bag some mid girls in your college years.

 

[mogger123]

i can identify two times in my life where ive had anything that i would consider an "opportunity"
at my job in high school, there was this fat white coworker girl who was talking about wanting to see a movie but having no one to go with. it didn't occur to me until later that she was probably wanting me to volunteer. and if she was asking me on some kind of movie date i guess she probably would've been down to fuk. this sounds like a stretch but i could tell she liked me. but she was quite overweight as i mentioned.
second time was in college freshman year a 2 psl (legit 2 psl, no exag.. maybe 2.5 at best) asian girl asked me if i wanted to come over to "study" and i said no. she asked a few more times and i kept rejecting and it got awkward. i assume i could've fucked her. but she was srs deformed and had a lisp and rly masculine personality i just couldn't

i guess it's worth mentioning that ive also snapchatted girls from other countries and gotten them to send nudes
ive tried larping that i lived near them to convince them to "meet up" so I could obviously ghost them, but nothing ever came to fruition

that's about everything in my entire pathetic existence tbh

just lower your standards jfl

 

[lonelycurry]

24 and a retard its already over nigga

 

[mogs_me]

You have some nerve calling yourself a social anxietycel when you've had a job and gone to college. I've never done any of this because I legit freeze and act like a retard who can't string a coherent sentence together when talking to other people irl. I've also never come even remotely close to having an opportunity to get laid. How did you manage to not at least bag some mid girls in your college years.

id credit my education and career to extreme persistence and willpower rather than a lucky circumstance that i just stumbled into.
my college years were absolutely miserable. i had literally 0 friends, just one or two study partners. this makes things harder academically too cuz more difficult to cheat. too anxious to go to office hours or anything also, i had to grind thru my difficult engineering degree depressed and alone. it took my 9 months of constant searching and applying to get a job. if i could've seen my future, i would've tried harder to take those "opportunities", but at that point i simply wasn't desperate enough, and now ive had absolutely nothing for the past 5 years. im completely invisible to women.

 

[der_komische]

Every time I socialize (or forced to socialize) I get extremely nervous, sweat all over my body and feel like bugs are crawling up my back. Autism has ruined my social life completly. alcohol or working out helps a little bit tho.

 

[mogs_me]

just lower your standards jfl

they're lower now but i have no opportunities now

 

[mogger123]

id credit my education and career to extreme persistence and willpower rather than a lucky circumstance that i just stumbled into.
my college years were absolutely miserable. i had literally 0 friends, just one or two study partners. this makes things harder academically too cuz more difficult to cheat. too anxious to go to office hours or anything also, i had to grind thru my difficult engineering degree depressed and alone. it took my 9 months of constant searching and applying to get a job. if i could've seen my future, i would've tried harder to take those "opportunities", but at that point i simply wasn't desperate enough, and now ive had absolutely nothing for the past 5 years. im completely invisible to women.

i can sorta relate but i think overall im at the midpoint between your position and a "normie"

my new job seems like it is gonna require me to be really sociable and outgoing though so we'll see how this works out

 

[mogs_me]

i can sorta relate but i think overall im at the midpoint between your position and a "normie"

my new job seems like it is gonna require me to be really sociable and outgoing though so we'll see how this works out

r u khv or v or slayer