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“Rage, rage against the dying of the light”
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Honestly there are so many times where I wish that I was ND enough to just be utterly oblivious with no awareness because then I wouldn’t have a reason to be so afraid of other people. Just the thought of talking to someone literally sends me into a cold sweat because of how many negative experiences I had over the years.
And it only gets worse and worse the more I listen to it and stay alone. I get even more incompetent and weird the longer I give in to the anxiety and isolate myself, which makes it so that whenever I speak to someone they give me an even more negative reaction which feeds the anxiety even more.
Honestly don’t see a way out at this point, it’s haunted me for like 10 years since I was in 3rd grade and just grown into this bigger and bigger monster. Now it’s overshadowed my entire identity and my entire life. I would rather avoid the discomfort of accidentally running into someone outside and having to interact with them than allow the potential upside.
And it only gets worse and worse the more I listen to it and stay alone. I get even more incompetent and weird the longer I give in to the anxiety and isolate myself, which makes it so that whenever I speak to someone they give me an even more negative reaction which feeds the anxiety even more.
Honestly don’t see a way out at this point, it’s haunted me for like 10 years since I was in 3rd grade and just grown into this bigger and bigger monster. Now it’s overshadowed my entire identity and my entire life. I would rather avoid the discomfort of accidentally running into someone outside and having to interact with them than allow the potential upside.
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