Kazura_
Over? It never began..
- Joined
- Apr 11, 2025
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Lowkey cooked atm I feel like since I joined here I have become more aware of my flaws, so the no. flaws I have had increased, I genuinely cannot even look in the direction of women at work, when they are nearby me, I look away, it feels as if I make eye contact, they will pepper spray me and report me 
Probably due to the effects of porn but relationships are something I've almost given up on atp, and it seems I will soon become a 25y.o khhv. Cope answer is just lock in and talk to girls and ask them out, but the issue is with the way I work and the fact I'm a broke retail worker for almost 2 years so even if I had the confidence a relationship would still be impossible. I feel like the only way I to overcome this is to get a better job and pay for surgery but then I would probably feel insecure that I'm actually ugly but used a bunch of fake things to make myself look better and if they knew what i looked like before they would hate me also this solution is kinda cope, most of the woerkers are in relationships and they don't care about any of this stuff or put in any effort to improve their appearance
idk I feel like there's no way anyone could like me when I hate myself so much but I guess I don't hate myself enough to risk it all on test, etc. to ascend since my heart health is fucked and I feel like the reason i don't take risks is because I feel like it will get better but then I remember I work for minimum wage at 24 , have no irl friends or savings and live at home with my mum
I feel like it was a bad idea to post this since I would also have no respect for someone like me but it's good to be open because it allows others to see who you are and if you are truly ugly inside and out people will let you know, if you try to act cool never revealing your flaws, you will be less aware of them with no external exposure, hopefully I can look at this nexct year, read it and think, 'man what a chud '
Probably due to the effects of porn but relationships are something I've almost given up on atp, and it seems I will soon become a 25y.o khhv. Cope answer is just lock in and talk to girls and ask them out, but the issue is with the way I work and the fact I'm a broke retail worker for almost 2 years so even if I had the confidence a relationship would still be impossible. I feel like the only way I to overcome this is to get a better job and pay for surgery but then I would probably feel insecure that I'm actually ugly but used a bunch of fake things to make myself look better and if they knew what i looked like before they would hate me also this solution is kinda cope, most of the woerkers are in relationships and they don't care about any of this stuff or put in any effort to improve their appearance
idk I feel like there's no way anyone could like me when I hate myself so much but I guess I don't hate myself enough to risk it all on test, etc. to ascend since my heart health is fucked and I feel like the reason i don't take risks is because I feel like it will get better but then I remember I work for minimum wage at 24 , have no irl friends or savings and live at home with my mum
I feel like it was a bad idea to post this since I would also have no respect for someone like me but it's good to be open because it allows others to see who you are and if you are truly ugly inside and out people will let you know, if you try to act cool never revealing your flaws, you will be less aware of them with no external exposure, hopefully I can look at this nexct year, read it and think, 'man what a chud '
