social interaction stresses me out extremely

[Emerq]

I can't even order food because the delivery driver will have to look at me and judge me based on my face, and their reaction will decide my mood for the entire day, same with going to a store just to get some stuff, or grocery store.

It distresses me so bad I get headaches and I don't wanna interact with people until I get surgery so I can be somewhat pleasant to look at for once

Even if I put on a fragrance, good clothes, I'm at low bodyfat, no acne, the facial features will always be there

It really doesn't matter how kind or how pure your heart is, I remember in this Chicago nutella place where they write down your name I went with my sister and the one that was gonna write mine just frowned and I felt so bad back then

not sure if anyone relates but those were my main wake up calls of how much looks matter growing up

 

[EvilSatanArseRapist]

I can't even order food because

because i get this really wierd thing were i forget how to talk properly and then i'm really really quiet and slur my words and then the niggas don't unserstand me and then i just insist on not havinz said anything.
Or one time i was in munich at the augustiner keller.
(HOLY SHIT I LOVE THIS PLACE, YOU HAVE TO EAT THERE IF YOU GO TO MUNICH THE FOOD IS REALLY GOOD REALLY TRADITIONAL REALLY CHEAP AND THE SERVICE IS VERY FAST!! It's also very cool cuz there is THOUSANDS of people and hundreds of tables there.)
I had to send him back like 7 times and then i managed to fumble my order out of my retarded lips and i orderd the wrong fucking thing


About your thread:
I'm sorry to hear all of that.
Honestly after reading it, my first thought was "this shit's all in your head, OP"
and maybe it is. Maybe it's not.
In a way i do understand you tho.
I hope for you, that it is all in your head and that you'll get over it.

 

[Emerq]

because i get this really wierd thing were i forget how to talk properly and then i'm really really quiet and slur my words and then the niggas don't unserstand me and then i just insist on not havinz said anything.
Or one time i was in munich at the augustiner keller.

Yeah I tend to overthink like crazy when nothing's really happening bc high inhib or my mind is trying to protect me since in cavemen times rejection would mean death and ending up alone would be death too

ty, appreciate it still n yeah just wanted to get that off me, it helps somehow

 

[160cmcurry]

because you care too much about what the other side thinks of you lol

you probably have shit t levels too

low t does correlate with higher anxiety, worse stress tolerance, and more rumination

then you start associating people with stress, not because people are scary, but because your body is already on edge before anything even happens

 

[Emerq]

because you care too much about what the other side thinks of you lol

you probably have shit t levels too

I don't have Low T. I eat whole foods (carnivore diet), sleep well, sports, and went through many physical changes (mainly from working out and body transformation). It's more about traumatic experiences than hormones. I would post it but I'm not trying to brag about anything or sound egoistical

I'm pretty sure you heard of roid rage and how a lot of people on insane testosterone stress themselves more (hair loss, infertility, more body dysmorphia, etc) so it's not really true, I'm healthy and low bodyfat its just the mental health aspects I need to fix.

I appreciate the analogy still, i agree w the first part

 

[NoExit]

i hate socializing cuz its fake

 

[nsk4ll]

I can't even order food because the delivery driver will have to look at me and judge me based on my face, and their reaction will decide my mood for the entire day, same with going to a store just to get some stuff, or grocery store.

It distresses me so bad I get headaches and I don't wanna interact with people until I get surgery so I can be somewhat pleasant to look at for once

Even if I put on a fragrance, good clothes, I'm at low bodyfat, no acne, the facial features will always be there

It really doesn't matter how kind or how pure your heart is, I remember in this Chicago nutella place where they write down your name I went with my sister and the one that was gonna write mine just frowned and I felt so bad back then

not sure if anyone relates but those were my main wake up calls of how much looks matter growing up

just dont socialize

 

[Emerq]

i hate socializing cuz its fake

Yeah short fake talk like " hii how are you " omg im good and how are you

but yeah ngl finding a few good friends or a social circle you trust and arent fake is pretty important imo, to live a healthy life, more isolation is proven to reduced lifespan, premature death. I might try it's good getting in clubs, teams, etc

just dont socialize

hikikomorimaxxing

 

[NoExit]

but yeah ngl finding a few good friends or a social circle you trust and arent fake is pretty important imo, to live a healthy life, more isolation is proven to reduced lifespan, premature death. I might try it's good getting in clubs, teams, etc

isolation is good