Socializing is impossible for me.

[Deleted member 17578]

Was socializing with dorm-mates, cooking, eating, playing some poker, listening to music, etc.

I felt kinda zoned out all the time, although it got gradually worse over time. The beginning was somewhat enjoyable, then gradually got complete shit.

Then towards the end it suddenly hit me:

'I am a fucking loser, I need to get myself into perfect athletic shape again, get rich, fix my studies/career, get a vibrant social-life, good dating-life, new hobbies, new interestes, travel more. I am not good enough, I need to enjoy life more.'

I just sat there with a blank stare while all these thoughts ran through my brain. All I could think was: "I need to stop socializing right now and get to work.'

just brutal tbh. it's retarded cuz I already know this shit can't be fixed. I can't enjoy life with thoughts and emotions like this and I can't randomly fix my entire life when my brain refuses to reward me, cooperate, etc.

its over

 

[Deleted member 107111]

 

[cobicado901]

brutal bro, but the avi + title combo is killing me

 

[PeakIncels]

Imagine socializing bro

 

[mathis]

Was socializing with dorm-mates, cooking, eating, playing some poker, listening to music, etc.

I felt kinda zoned out all the time, although it got gradually worse over time. The beginning was somewhat enjoyable.

Then towards the end it suddenly hit me:

'I am a fucking loser, I need to get myself into perfect athletic shape again, get rich, fix my studies, get a vibrant social-life, good dating-life, new hobbies, new interestes, travel more. I am not good enough, I need to enjoy life more.'

I just sat there with a blank stare while all these thoughts ran through my brain. All I could think was: "I need to stop socializing right now and get to work.'

just brutal tbh. it's retarded cuz I already know this shit can't be fixed. I can't enjoy life with thoughts and emotions like this and I can't randomly fix my entire life when my brain refuses to reward me, cooperate, etc.

its over

I never feel good tbh. I either don't feel bad or feel bad.

 

[Deleted member 67937]

Just take drugs and don't think too much

 

[Deleted member 17578]

Just take drugs and don't think too much

i have quit all alcohol and almost all drugs so I can fix my entire life in pure focus and with 0 pleasure.

jfl honestly what a failed life

 

[Deleted member 67937]

i have quit all alcohol and almost all drugs so I can fix my entire life in pure focus and with 0 pleasure.

jfl honestly what a failed life

Fighting against your natural instincts is a losing battle, you would need to recondition yourself completely

 

[Deleted member 17578]

Fighting against your natural instincts is a losing battle, you would need to recondition yourself completely

what else can I do?

drugs/alcohol lifestyle will become less enjoyable over time and is a road to suicide

 

[Deleted member 17578]

I never feel good tbh. I either don't feel bad or feel bad.

Without drugs/alcohol, I feel SLIGHT hints of good feelings/happiness, but they are incredibly rare.

I am talking about a couple of hours per week, if it's a good week.

 

[Deleted member 67937]

what else can I do?

drugs/alcohol lifestyle will become less enjoyable over time and is a road to suicide

Idk honestly, i just am happy even rotting and not suicidal at all, your brain chemicals must be fucked up, and you need to detox them.

I guess you just need to try socializing and connecting with other people, i'm sure it may be possible with enough time. Living life with other people without being connected is as shit or even worse than rotting alone.

 

[Deleted member 17578]

Idk honestly, i just am happy even rotting and not suicidal at all, your brain chemicals must be fucked up, and you need to detox them.

I guess you just need to try socializing and connecting with other people, i'm sure it may be possible with enough time. Living life with other people without being connected is as shit or even worse than rotting alone.

what drugs are you taking

 

[Deleted member 67937]

what drugs are you taking

Nothing at all, i just used to drink lots of alcohol sometime ago. I don't need drugs tbh

 

[Deleted member 17578]

Nothing at all, i just used to drink lots of alcohol sometime ago. I don't need drugs tbh

so why you recommend me to take drugs lol

 

[Deleted member 67937]

so why you recommend me to take drugs lol

Because you have already said multiple times you're miserable without, and life is monotone to you

 

[Deleted member 17578]

Because you have already said multiple times you're miserable without, and life is monotone to you

not a solution

 

[Magnus Ironblood]

If you're not NT in 2024 then we might as well just enjoy the new Indiana Jones game on Xbox gamepass.

 

[Deleted member 17578]

If you're not NT in 2024 then we might as well just enjoy the new Indiana Jones game on Xbox gamepass.

I am still enjoying Baldcel's Gate

 

[Huge غرور]

Welcome to chads life buddyboyo

 

[Deleted member 17578]

Welcome to chads life buddyboyo

its good. time to fuck some stacy rn, will be back later