JesusChristisLord
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Looksmaxxing has completely rotted my brain, and I feel exhausted.
I feel overwhelmed by even the smallest tasks related to looksmaxxing. I've been planning a large order from overseas for months and still haven't managed to finalize it. On top of that, I'm barely consistent with my stack.
Yet despite doing very little, I can't even look in the mirror when I get up to use the bathroom at night without spiraling afterward and struggling to fall back asleep peacefully.
I have OCD, which makes all of this even worse. Sometimes I imagine that God is trying to prevent me from looksmaxxing and making sacrifices for it, and that looksmaxxing comes from the devil. Researching possible suppliers and evaluating options is exhausting, but I've reached a point where even the smallest amount of work overwhelms me. Strangely, this doesn't happen to me with other areas of my life. I'm also constantly worried that I'm running out of time before my growth plates close, but instead of motivating me, that pressure just overwhelms me even more.
I've also completely messed up my dopamine system. After doing any "work" related to looksmaxxing, I can't stop watching edits and imagining what my life will be like once I've achieved all of these goals. Meanwhile, months have passed, barely anything has changed, and every single day feels exactly the same and equally miserable.
I want to know if there are people on this forum who experience similar things. I know this probably sounds weird, but I genuinely don't know what to do anymore or how to break out of this cycle.
I only have one really close friend, and I don't get to see him very often. That definitely doesn't help. I also struggle with social anxiety at school, which makes everything even harder.
I feel overwhelmed by even the smallest tasks related to looksmaxxing. I've been planning a large order from overseas for months and still haven't managed to finalize it. On top of that, I'm barely consistent with my stack.
Yet despite doing very little, I can't even look in the mirror when I get up to use the bathroom at night without spiraling afterward and struggling to fall back asleep peacefully.
I have OCD, which makes all of this even worse. Sometimes I imagine that God is trying to prevent me from looksmaxxing and making sacrifices for it, and that looksmaxxing comes from the devil. Researching possible suppliers and evaluating options is exhausting, but I've reached a point where even the smallest amount of work overwhelms me. Strangely, this doesn't happen to me with other areas of my life. I'm also constantly worried that I'm running out of time before my growth plates close, but instead of motivating me, that pressure just overwhelms me even more.
I've also completely messed up my dopamine system. After doing any "work" related to looksmaxxing, I can't stop watching edits and imagining what my life will be like once I've achieved all of these goals. Meanwhile, months have passed, barely anything has changed, and every single day feels exactly the same and equally miserable.
I want to know if there are people on this forum who experience similar things. I know this probably sounds weird, but I genuinely don't know what to do anymore or how to break out of this cycle.
I only have one really close friend, and I don't get to see him very often. That definitely doesn't help. I also struggle with social anxiety at school, which makes everything even harder.
