Something is absolutely wrong with my body

[Veridic]

Night 5, no sleep throughout my 4-5 week amphetamine (daily) and low dose methamphetamine hci usage (spread out every 2 days for an experiment). The hallucinations have completely stopped (I’d usually get them around night 3 in the prior weeks) and I have never felt better.

My tolerance has lowered, I only need to take half or less of my usual dosage. Junk food keeps me lean and not retain any water as compared to lean meat and carb diets which absolutely fuck with my looks.
It’s absolutely ridiculous how clear my skin is, eyes are bright from adrenaline, energy and strength have kept climbing, and everything else in my life feels amazing.

I’m becoming a bit concerned as I hadn’t planned to continue the experiment for this long, to see when my body would “crash” but it’s only been improving.

Any ideas on why doing the absolute worst to my body for over a month when most people would’ve crashed weeks ago has the opposite effects that you’d see within a healthy human?

I will be getting some sleep tonight to tomorrow just to ensure I’m not damaging my brain, but this is wild.

 

[Zygomaticos]

This will become a creepy pasta in 3 years when you´re dead.

 

[Veridic]

This will become a creepy pasta in 3 years when you´re dead.

 

[alikay]

brochacho, ur already fkn addicted. watch when u try and get off, its gna be so hard bc you've literally been relying on it for a month. you prolly havent noticed much change to ur body bc of ur dosage and the fact you've been using it for a short time. maybe the 'no crash' is because the meth is what's keeping u from feeling like that and actually making it feel like you're getting better (i could be wrong tho). it could be that right now (because its so early) you feel amazing but down the line it will definitely get worse. theres a reason why meth is banned and right now (though it might not feel like it), your immune system and organs are declining, your brain is getting cooked from the dopamine and your js shortening ur lifespan. the fact that ur also eating junk food n shi is js exacerbating that effect. get off that shi bruh

 

[Veridic]

brochacho, ur already fkn addicted. watch when u try and get off, its gna be so hard bc you've literally been relying on it for a month. you prolly havent noticed much change to ur body bc of ur dosage and the fact you've been using it for a short time. maybe the 'no crash' is because the meth is what's keeping u from feeling like that and actually making it feel like you're getting better (i could be wrong tho). it could be that right now (because its so early) you feel amazing but down the line it will definitely get worse. theres a reason why meth is banned and right now (though it might not feel like it), your immune system and organs are declining, your brain is getting cooked from the dopamine and your js shortening ur lifespan. the fact that ur also eating junk food n shi is js exacerbating that effect. get off that shi bruh

I've been off for a few days, I have no issue with not redosing but the withdrawal effects definitely suck. Had an episode today where I passed out just to be tormented in a sleep paralysis moment of demons screaming in my face while holding me down.

Worth the leanmaxxing though. We'll back at it in a week or two

Still doesn't explain any of the effects I talked about, and most of this also occurred when I would try to eat healthy while sober and look like absolute shit unless some junk food was involved.

 

[alikay]

I've been off for a few days, I have no issue with not redosing but the withdrawal effects definitely suck. Had an episode today where I passed out just to be tormented in a sleep paralysis moment of demons screaming in my face while holding me down.

Worth the leanmaxxing though. We'll back at it in a week or two

Still doesn't explain any of the effects I talked about, and most of this also occurred when I would try to eat healthy while sober and look like absolute shit unless some junk food was involved.

i def hear u, ur body's prolly weird like that, like how some people when they take caffeine, they become tired instead of energised etc.

if it actually gave u gains, fair enough, but ur brain is def getting fried so you need to think about whether the tradeoff between ur health and looking good is worth it.

thats genuinely scary asl, lowk glad ive never had sleep paralysis.

also dont fkn overdose on ts, ur genuinely going to die

also, was there a difference facially after you used it? if so, how significant?

 

[Veridic]

i def hear u, ur body's prolly weird like that, like how some people when they take caffeine, they become tired instead of energised etc.

if it actually gave u gains, fair enough, but ur brain is def getting fried so you need to think about whether the tradeoff between ur health and looking good is worth it.

thats genuinely scary asl, lowk glad ive never had sleep paralysis.

also dont fkn overdose on ts, ur genuinely going to die

also, was there a difference facially after you used it? if so, how significant?

The facial difference was insane, I looked so healthy and my eyes were glowing in a youthful way to the point of people mentioning it which I assume was the adrenaline. Skin was perfect and tight, with total body debloat effects kicking in within hours.

It's not that scary tbh, disturbing? Yes, for sure but I'm always conscious enough to be able to manipulate "reality" in my head enough to where I bit one of the demons and it got pretty angry but overall it's escapable with a few mind tricks I've learned since none of it is real anyways.

My strength gains have been pretty insane on the dosages, which were very low to be fair since I wasn't chasing a high in the first place but productivity and the false confidence it gives you. Genuinely got so many girl's contacts off that stuff because of how low inhib and smooth I was with my speech, despite usually stuttering and being neurodivergent due to my diagnosed adhd and autism

I have a whole thread written about my experience and how I manipulated certain bodily functions timed with sleep deprivation and things of that nature as well as injecting insulin and semax to enhance certain aspects. I will be redoing a shorter cycle after the withdrawals pass, but surprisingly I have no urges to redose besides the typical weak "if I take some this will all go away", which is really easy to control tbh.