sometimes I just wish I could spend more time with my dad

[ArimaWillAscend]

last time I've seen him was before covid I have contact with him through the phone but it's just calling him and him sending me money (idgaf about him giving me money),my mom really mostly gives a shit about herself saying she'll kill herself n shit because I'm causing her trouble,whenever I mention my dad she says some bad shit about him which really is disheartening since I do love my dad very much and I would sacrifice my eye color,hair health,height,looks descending myself to a subhuman just to be able to spend time with him, I'm gonna try to meet him by making documents n shit since he's in the USA rn and I'm in fucking Poland , i have met him multiple times he was with me since my birth,did some horrible stuff and was a pimp,but honestly I don't give a shit since he's my dad and I wish he could be there with me