GhostBoySwag
Jolly 5'8 sub5 human
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Hey guys i know i usually make jolly posts or just random off topic threads to socialise in here or just stick in and stick out.
I never try to be rude to anyone and if i ever do i feel guilt and regret, i always believe that everyone should be loved and be showed with respect.
because we are all humans, we all bleed red. Of course if you are a horrible person and being rude on purpose and have done awful things that might
be hard to give you respect or talk to you, but you werent always like this.
We all were babies before, We all were a innocent little baby/child, loved or not.
we didnt know what had it coming, some did and some did not.
But i know that I was someone's son, and that someone is my Dad and my Mom.
I know both love me very much and i also love them very much.
But it's hard for me to show them love, it's hard for me to socialise with my family.
I feel constantly horrible that everytime my mom asks me if i wanna plan out something
to do with family, i always say no and rot in my room and game.
like it's my mother, i am her baby, i am her child, i am her son.
She gave birth to me, raised me, taken care of me.
and no matter what to, weither she is sick, weither she has to work 2 jobs
cook food, clean the house, take care of me and my 2 siblings, she has gone through
hell in general, living in a house, working night shift, over-working and going through so much.
She has watched me grow, she has once had a joyfull jolly little son who always loved going out with his family to now
a rotten son who only goes out with his friends and never with them.
If only my mom knew how much she really meant for me, it's just hard explaining why i cant do the stuff she likes to do.
it's so useless to vent in here, nobody is going to read this bs. Me with such broken english grammar.
I've lost the capability to speak, write, read and learn.
I am growing backwards, i dont do anything no more, i dont work, i dont go outside, i rot rot rot rot rot rot rot
Play the same 3 games in 15 hours.
check my phone 24/7, stalk my friend on snapchat maps to see what they are up to, like its an absolute joke atp.
I just wanna be able to go outside
I just wanna be able to eat outside
I just wanna be able to do anything outside with people.
I cant go to vacations
i cant go to friends houses
i cant go to anyone.
my house is my comfort zone
I never try to be rude to anyone and if i ever do i feel guilt and regret, i always believe that everyone should be loved and be showed with respect.
because we are all humans, we all bleed red. Of course if you are a horrible person and being rude on purpose and have done awful things that might
be hard to give you respect or talk to you, but you werent always like this.
We all were babies before, We all were a innocent little baby/child, loved or not.
we didnt know what had it coming, some did and some did not.
But i know that I was someone's son, and that someone is my Dad and my Mom.
I know both love me very much and i also love them very much.
But it's hard for me to show them love, it's hard for me to socialise with my family.
I feel constantly horrible that everytime my mom asks me if i wanna plan out something
to do with family, i always say no and rot in my room and game.
like it's my mother, i am her baby, i am her child, i am her son.
She gave birth to me, raised me, taken care of me.
and no matter what to, weither she is sick, weither she has to work 2 jobs
cook food, clean the house, take care of me and my 2 siblings, she has gone through
hell in general, living in a house, working night shift, over-working and going through so much.
She has watched me grow, she has once had a joyfull jolly little son who always loved going out with his family to now
a rotten son who only goes out with his friends and never with them.
If only my mom knew how much she really meant for me, it's just hard explaining why i cant do the stuff she likes to do.
it's so useless to vent in here, nobody is going to read this bs. Me with such broken english grammar.
I've lost the capability to speak, write, read and learn.
I am growing backwards, i dont do anything no more, i dont work, i dont go outside, i rot rot rot rot rot rot rot
Play the same 3 games in 15 hours.
check my phone 24/7, stalk my friend on snapchat maps to see what they are up to, like its an absolute joke atp.
I just wanna be able to go outside
I just wanna be able to eat outside
I just wanna be able to do anything outside with people.
I cant go to vacations
i cant go to friends houses
i cant go to anyone.
my house is my comfort zone
