ilikelookinggood67
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Story time(gonna be long but please i need an answer). Alright so there is this girl that i met a year and a half ago. We had a total of 4 talking stages(all in different times trough out this year and a half) and now in the 4th one we finally got together. But guess what, every single one of these talking stages has been started from her, but she is also the one who always puts an end to them. She always comes back. First time i was kind of dry so it's understandable why she ended it. Second time around it was going perfectly and then suddenly she stops talking to me, I am left banging my head in the wall trying to understand what i did wrong. She just left me to blame myself. I would constantly ask her every few hours what's wrong or what she's up to and that she can trust me and we can talk it out(this continued a week btw). She would just give me a dry answer and leave me on delivered. Then one day she just said "If you are just going to continue pushing me to tell you what's wrong i won't tell you" - like bitch tf u want me to do, wait for you to get ready to tell me a simple reason on why u are acting like this? 
. So it all ended. 2 weeks later i hear from my friends she's with the most random ass dude she met on a video chat and they already kissed(they went further than we ever did even though we've known each other for a year by that time). I didn't care at the time but after the summer she hits me up again(3rd time btw), so i ask her "What do you want to achieve this time, are we going to both commit and are you going to change some stuff about you like the way you are so immature and you never take any conversations seriously. And also what are you going to tell me about this guy u were going out with after last time". She responds with a "During the time we had no contact i realized i care about you a lot and that i miss you and that guy forced me into the kiss bla bla" - I was like: Alright lets see how it goes. A week goes by and i saw no change in her and i realized that i am tired of her bullshit so i told her that i don't think i want to waste my time anymore. By her reaction i saw she actually cared, she tried to talk me into not ending things but i told her i am tired of this. Another week goes by and she hits me up with a "u sure u don't want to try again". So now my brain snaps the best idea ever. How about i give her what she wants: a relationship with me but play her at the end for all the shit she's done to me(theres many other stuff but i am too lazy to mention them). My plan so far is to play it sweet like i don't care about her past bla bla. I was thinking of continuing this mask parade for 6 months so she gets the full boyfriend experience(i am her very first bf). And you know what they say: "Your first is unforgettable" ,so why not make her first bf be her first everything, first body, first.... and so on. After she gets the full experience she won't be able to forget me and just when she thinks everything is perfect i will wait for her to make a little mistake and i will break up with her for it so she blames herself for the breakup, the same way i blamed myself for months. Now the main problem is that i hate her so much that i don't think i will survive 6 months with her. Give me advices on what i should do. Also ik this place isn't for stuff like this but i think it would be fun to hear other people's opinions. Also excuse my story telling abilities, they are so bad
. So it all ended. 2 weeks later i hear from my friends she's with the most random ass dude she met on a video chat and they already kissed(they went further than we ever did even though we've known each other for a year by that time). I didn't care at the time but after the summer she hits me up again(3rd time btw), so i ask her "What do you want to achieve this time, are we going to both commit and are you going to change some stuff about you like the way you are so immature and you never take any conversations seriously. And also what are you going to tell me about this guy u were going out with after last time". She responds with a "During the time we had no contact i realized i care about you a lot and that i miss you and that guy forced me into the kiss bla bla" - I was like: Alright lets see how it goes. A week goes by and i saw no change in her and i realized that i am tired of her bullshit so i told her that i don't think i want to waste my time anymore. By her reaction i saw she actually cared, she tried to talk me into not ending things but i told her i am tired of this. Another week goes by and she hits me up with a "u sure u don't want to try again". So now my brain snaps the best idea ever. How about i give her what she wants: a relationship with me but play her at the end for all the shit she's done to me(theres many other stuff but i am too lazy to mention them). My plan so far is to play it sweet like i don't care about her past bla bla. I was thinking of continuing this mask parade for 6 months so she gets the full boyfriend experience(i am her very first bf). And you know what they say: "Your first is unforgettable" ,so why not make her first bf be her first everything, first body, first.... and so on. After she gets the full experience she won't be able to forget me and just when she thinks everything is perfect i will wait for her to make a little mistake and i will break up with her for it so she blames herself for the breakup, the same way i blamed myself for months. Now the main problem is that i hate her so much that i don't think i will survive 6 months with her. Give me advices on what i should do. Also ik this place isn't for stuff like this but i think it would be fun to hear other people's opinions. Also excuse my story telling abilities, they are so bad
