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I use to like this girl at work but she left, however around her I felt such a wave of strong energy that my knees started to shake, which never happened before for any girl.
At first I wasn’t attracted to her at all, she wasnt my type but when she looked at me her eye pupils dilated, I was creeped by her, as the way she was looking At me, she wasn’t bad looking or anything but I had no sexual attraction to her, and never did.
At first I felt nothing for her, but constantly I saw her everyday when she was working somewhere else it was like we had to meet, and we would constantly make eye contact, we would always cross paths but never say anything. As time went on my feelings grew for her as I saw her nearly everyday, for example I would be coming out of the canteen and she would be coming in the same exact time, their was no stalking as there was no time I go on break or she goes on break.
her behaviour started to change, she became more shy and started to look on the floor when we passed when before she would confidently head up pass me. At this time I felt strange energy around me enough to actually blind me literally blind me and walk like I have shit up my arse, I felt this for the first time and was shook.
now I have strong feelings for her and everyday going in to work I was so excited to see her but I didn’t see her for a month and forgot about her, my schedule changed and idk where she went, I was doing different shifts, I felt at ease but when I saw her again that energy came bursting back, it was calmer but still effected me.
now her behaviour took another turn as if she stopped liking me, she started to avoid me taking long ways instead of crossing paths with me, she stopped looking down and Looked dead stare infront with apissed off face, and at this point she started talking to another guy at work, lol, I wasn’t upset or anything cuz I was better looking than this guy but I was like why did she never talk to me.
but it was so weird, one day she would stare at me I could see from the corner of my eye and I acted cold because I knew it would get her back because I wasn’t giving the attention, and at some point she would be staring at me, this went on for a few months and she would stare off and on, and it was a game at some point, I was losing because of the energy shit I still had feelings for her and we would always make eye contact somehow even when you would least expect it, I would turn my head around and she would do it at the same time.
As months went on she was getting closer to the other guy, and I started taking care of my self more by looksmaxing, I got a nice haircut which sharpened my face as beard had soften my features and I had strong cheekbones dominant jaw, I was very scruffy, very long hair and patchy beard, my skin was not bad but dry and I wasn’t sexually appealing, so I got a good haircut.
when she walked past me she was in shock and she was with her best friend, even then she didn’t stop looking she literally stared at me in front of him, before that week she walked past me and didn’t even look at me, I looked scruffy and tired. And now she was staring at me with full glance longer than she’s ever done. I saw her more constantly now as if she was putting more effort of being around me and where I work, she would try to make jealous by tryna talk to other guys in front of me but I had loads of attention from very hot white girls so I didn’t care but I still had strong feelings for her, no matter which girl liked me I liked her still and thought as I was cheating on her by looking at other girls which is simp move but idk I liked her tooo much, other girls would try to talk to me but my attraction for her was far greater.
However, I started loosing feelings for her, because at this point I felt like I could get more attractive girls and she noticed this too, she noticed my skin was shinier and hair was nicely textured, at this point we never talked but she started wearing makeup frequently, she was still with her male best friend who she only talked too.
at one point I was walking past her and this other random girl and this girl flicked her while looking at me and the girl I liked got really jealous, I think this made her put even more effort into me.
Later into the year, I wasn’t attracted to her anymore, the energy wasn’t the same anymore, my knees wouldn’t shake or I wouldn’t look away in shyness, I felt strong, she would look at me and I would look straight on, she wanted my attention, and at this point her friendship was deteriorating with her bestfriend.
I was playing a game with another girl who came to the store and she came and saw us laughing have good time and the look on her face turned from happy to sour real quick and she went on to the table and was acting like she’s sulking, maybe she was tired idk, but I was enjoying my revenge, later she got up and she came back wearing makeup and started to stare at me, I was very creeped out, and later she left angrily, maybe she was angry her best friend wasn’t there??
At the end before she left I had no attraction to her and it was like a dying star she was the only one who was trying at this point
Long story but what can happened in less than a year
At first I wasn’t attracted to her at all, she wasnt my type but when she looked at me her eye pupils dilated, I was creeped by her, as the way she was looking At me, she wasn’t bad looking or anything but I had no sexual attraction to her, and never did.
At first I felt nothing for her, but constantly I saw her everyday when she was working somewhere else it was like we had to meet, and we would constantly make eye contact, we would always cross paths but never say anything. As time went on my feelings grew for her as I saw her nearly everyday, for example I would be coming out of the canteen and she would be coming in the same exact time, their was no stalking as there was no time I go on break or she goes on break.
her behaviour started to change, she became more shy and started to look on the floor when we passed when before she would confidently head up pass me. At this time I felt strange energy around me enough to actually blind me literally blind me and walk like I have shit up my arse, I felt this for the first time and was shook.
now I have strong feelings for her and everyday going in to work I was so excited to see her but I didn’t see her for a month and forgot about her, my schedule changed and idk where she went, I was doing different shifts, I felt at ease but when I saw her again that energy came bursting back, it was calmer but still effected me.
now her behaviour took another turn as if she stopped liking me, she started to avoid me taking long ways instead of crossing paths with me, she stopped looking down and Looked dead stare infront with apissed off face, and at this point she started talking to another guy at work, lol, I wasn’t upset or anything cuz I was better looking than this guy but I was like why did she never talk to me.
but it was so weird, one day she would stare at me I could see from the corner of my eye and I acted cold because I knew it would get her back because I wasn’t giving the attention, and at some point she would be staring at me, this went on for a few months and she would stare off and on, and it was a game at some point, I was losing because of the energy shit I still had feelings for her and we would always make eye contact somehow even when you would least expect it, I would turn my head around and she would do it at the same time.
As months went on she was getting closer to the other guy, and I started taking care of my self more by looksmaxing, I got a nice haircut which sharpened my face as beard had soften my features and I had strong cheekbones dominant jaw, I was very scruffy, very long hair and patchy beard, my skin was not bad but dry and I wasn’t sexually appealing, so I got a good haircut.
when she walked past me she was in shock and she was with her best friend, even then she didn’t stop looking she literally stared at me in front of him, before that week she walked past me and didn’t even look at me, I looked scruffy and tired. And now she was staring at me with full glance longer than she’s ever done. I saw her more constantly now as if she was putting more effort of being around me and where I work, she would try to make jealous by tryna talk to other guys in front of me but I had loads of attention from very hot white girls so I didn’t care but I still had strong feelings for her, no matter which girl liked me I liked her still and thought as I was cheating on her by looking at other girls which is simp move but idk I liked her tooo much, other girls would try to talk to me but my attraction for her was far greater.
However, I started loosing feelings for her, because at this point I felt like I could get more attractive girls and she noticed this too, she noticed my skin was shinier and hair was nicely textured, at this point we never talked but she started wearing makeup frequently, she was still with her male best friend who she only talked too.
at one point I was walking past her and this other random girl and this girl flicked her while looking at me and the girl I liked got really jealous, I think this made her put even more effort into me.
Later into the year, I wasn’t attracted to her anymore, the energy wasn’t the same anymore, my knees wouldn’t shake or I wouldn’t look away in shyness, I felt strong, she would look at me and I would look straight on, she wanted my attention, and at this point her friendship was deteriorating with her bestfriend.
I was playing a game with another girl who came to the store and she came and saw us laughing have good time and the look on her face turned from happy to sour real quick and she went on to the table and was acting like she’s sulking, maybe she was tired idk, but I was enjoying my revenge, later she got up and she came back wearing makeup and started to stare at me, I was very creeped out, and later she left angrily, maybe she was angry her best friend wasn’t there??
At the end before she left I had no attraction to her and it was like a dying star she was the only one who was trying at this point
Long story but what can happened in less than a year
