Struggle with dpdr

[mtnchud]

Dpdr is retarded, I’ve had it for two years and I just try to not let it affect me but when I don’t have any other emotional outlet it hits hard because I’m obviously real (hopefully not) but with my type of perception I just think a lot, analyze faces, every moment of my day, then it gets deeper into thinking about the existence of my consciousness and the existence of all that we have. Wish I would go back to when I was a kid, not insecure, not overthinking everything, analyzing etc, I also wish to have not been blessed with such emotionally smart mind it’s a gift and a curse, I hate knowing I have a existence even when it feels like I don’t have one. Maybe one day we can all ascend, slay hypergamous htbs and live life as a attractive person.