Sub-5 tries to go out and socialize, gets punched in the face

[Pickletoil]

A little more than a week ago I (28M) made a post about feeling like I totaly missed out my life. I received a lot of message (comments and DM) suggering me that its not the case and that I should seriously try again to socialise.

At some point I just wondered, why not ? I guess the fact that I lost 20 pounds (still have 20 more to lose to have a good weight) since the start of the year + the fact that I recently changed my hair style gave me some hope.

So, I found a reddit metting group from my city (Paris) and went to the next meeting they organised at a bar this saturday. I came late (at 11pm) so everyone was already here chatting and barely noticing me, but it was better that way so I just had to make a little "hey" and sit and just listen to them continue their conversation without actually needing to talk myself.

It went that way for 15 minutes until the man sitting next to me, who was clearly drunk, turned on me like "who tf are you btw ?" out of nowhere, the sudden + the stress made me stutter a LOT (I'm a stuttering person), I was not even able to make a complete sentence. And that guy apparantly felt like I was actually mocking him, again because of stutter I was unable to explain myself that it was not that and a few seconds after, he just punched me directly on the face.

I felt of my chair, people around where standing chocked, watching me silently, the whole bar was fucking watching me silently so I just said that I need to go and flee the scene fast, spend the travel home trying to stop my upper lips bleeding and just felt on my bed at arrival.

I was wrong, it the same thing, the same result, no matter how many time I will try, dozen, hundreds, thousands, millions of time, it will always be this same fucking ending. I am unable to socialise, I dont deserve it, listening to all the normies here giving false hope was fucking stupid. I was right since the start, I wasted my life and now I'm far too late for socialization to even have friends/relationships anymore. At least that punch helped me realised that once and for all. Its OVER.

Should've LDARED brah. LDAR IS LAW

 

[Absurdist]

Shit is lowk sad.

 

[DrRodger]

If you think to yourself you have to go out and socialize its already over, don't even try