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went out with the girl at my volunteering job today for dinner, and it was genuinely lifefuel.
she's a pretty hot above average (mmtb) white bitch, possibly a jew (didnt ask and dont think so), and had a good ass time.
i drove to her house and picked her up in my pussy wetting tesla, i knocked on her door and her big ass jacked dad fucking opened the door in literally nothing but his fucking underwear - it was kinda surprising bc their neighborhood was gated and expensive, and it kind of made me view the girl as a bit ghetto, bc of her family, but that's besides the point. when he opened up the door i deadass looked up at him (5'10 frauding) i felt like a fucking bitch and a low T cuck next to him, i wanted to slit my throat right then and there, and with a pussy beta squeaker voice i asked if she could bring his daughter out cause i was taking her, i thought he was gonna ask if i was good enough for her like in the movies but he didn't give a fuck.
house kind of looked like this if anyone gives a fuck, it's actually eeirely similar - just irl was a bit bigger and there was a stone road connecting the main door to the road of the neighborhood, and the garage was on the side instead:
the girl came out with the most traditional wife clothing ever, it was kinda funny it's like she was over compensating for being a whore (not saying she is/was, but that's what it looked like).
the shirt she was wearing was kinda like this, don't mind the baby bc it's the only fucking picture i could find. no this isn't pedobaiting.
and she was wearing just reg jeans, she was kinda flat so her ass wasn't hot or anything in it.
when i saw her i held out my hand like a fucking dork and held hers, kind of made me feel like a faggot LMAOO. should've just told her to get the fuck in my car. i opened her door and everything, but it was so fucking awkward because i went around the back like towards the trunk to get to my side and i took like 5 seconds extra, dk if this is an autistic fixation i had but i felt like i took too long which was cringe. whole time his dad was watching me from the door, he never actually closed it he was just staring at me the whole time like i was a fucking dork loser. i got so rattled.
after that i drove off, and i started steering with one hand to make me seem cool, but i didnt know how to turn completely with one hand so i accidentally almost hit the curb as i was leaving her neighborhood, another ropefuel moment, didn't think she noticed tho. after driving for a little, we were playing the aux and shit, but it was kinda getting awkward and quiet. i didn't really know what to do, so i was deadass saying the first things that came to my head, and to break the ice i made a semi weird joke if she was going to give me road head or not. when i did i expected her to get weirded out but she just laughed it off and said "we'll see" and when she responded with that i got rly fucking nervous, i was kinda wondering if she was a slut or not but the way she dressed and carried herself didn't make her seem like it. i think i responded with, "i'll force you to" as i was kinda laughing to make it telling that it was a joke. call me autistic, low inhib, idgaf every single time i tried to be funny it came out the weirdest way possible and made it seem like i was a creep. don't think she ever really cared though.
when we reached the mall i couldn't find parking spot so we both literally just started driving back in forth 4 different parking structures for around 20 minutes and she was getting mad as fuck, it's not like that i noticed and i'm really good at social cues, but she literally kept saying "holy shit just get a valet" every 10 seconds and then suggested we should just go back to their house and eat dinner with her old ass parents. kept denying it, but i wouldn't be surprised if she just got off the car right then and there. eventually we did find a parking space though. and it was a downhill area when leaving, so it's really not good for someone who was wearing fucking height boosters. i'm not even kidding as i got out of my car n held her hand to leave the parking lot, i fucking tripped. not a full trip but like my foot went sideways and bc i was holding her hand i kinda tugged her along. the bitch fell a lil but holy fuck when we got back up she deadass looked at me like i was literally retarded. i wanted to hang myself.
after that we just walked like 10 minutes to the restaurant, since it was like in the middle of the mall. as we were walking there i saw like 10 diff people i know from school, and i tried to purposely not look at them so they wouldn't pay me attention. i was very scared if they were gonna just make fun of me in front of the girl.
when we got to the restaurant i felt like a loser trying to get a table for the both of us, because of my height, voice, and semi low confidence i was litearlly stuttering every 2 seconds. like when he asked "table for two" i said "yeah yeah t-table for two" thankfully i told her to sit on a bench that was in the back kinda so she couldn't really hear me, but idk if she did or not. kinda sad if she did.
we waited a little, i sat next to her in the bench and talked to her for a bit. i noticed that when i talked to her i was squinting my fucking eyes and sucking in my cheeks like a retard (subconciously, not on purpose) and i kept trying to fix it but i gave myself duck lips instead and i kjust looked like a retard bro idk how to explain it. i also noticed my abysmal posture that i kept trying to sit up straight and correct, but could never really.
if anyone wants to know this is what my posture looked like, but i was turning my head to the side to talk to her:
anyways, the waiter called us up after a while, and we both got up. and guess fucking what, i put my arm around her waist as we were going to the fucking table. she let me asw, as i did i kind of got hard like a virgin, so i tried hiding it with my other hand and tucking it in but it looked so obvious to the point where she was litearlly just staring at it and asked what i was doing. and again like a retarded fucking autist i answered truthfully and said "im kind of hard right now i'm not gonna lie," quietly tho so the person showing us to our table wouldn't hear. and she literally burst out laughing, pretty sure she thought i was some special ed kid she went out on a date with. i still don't know if she laughed at me for being a dork, or laughed w me cause she thought i was joking.
as we got to our table i literally took the closest one and sat down on the seat, and she was standing up for like 10 seconds looking down at me sitting and i was confused what she was doing. she kind of had this cute mad face n she was crossing her arms. i was so close to whipping my dick out and jerking off in front of her. then i realized i was supposed to pull the chair out for her and apologized and told her not to tell her dad cause i was kinda scared of the nigga.
after a while we looked at the menu, figured out what we wanted, i was just gonna get a steak, she was talking about how good the seafood linguini or some fucking pasta looked and on god it was $45 i got fucking rattled. if the date went wrong i wouldve forced her to pay. as we were waiting for the waiter, we talked abt regular shit like our favorite movies, tv shows, etc. when the waiter came out, i thought of the funniest thing to do, i didn't know if it'll land well but i tried it anyways. i told the waiter i wanted steak, and then told my date what she wanted, and when she opened her mouth i shushed her and told the waiter "she'd like a salad"
the joke didn't land hard at all and she just got mad as fuck, i don't really know what i expected tbf. don't even know why i did it. but right after i just said "no i'm joking, she wanted this one" and just pointed to the pasta she wanted.
when the waiter came out we talked as we ate food, was sort of nervous since i jutt my jaw a lot, and when i eat i really can't. so was very scared if she would see that i was frauding my chin projection, but i knew i was acting autistic and just kept eating. the whole time we were talking, i was stuttering a fuckton. i could really feel the adderall in my system, and i was tapping my foot on the ground and scratching my neck like a homeless crackhead. my hands were also very jittery and sweaty as well. we just kept talking about just random shit, she was carrying the conversation a lot. as it was getting more and more dry i was pretty scared that the date was going bad and would've been boring for her (topic-wise and the fact that i kept stuttering and she would think she was going on a date with a cuck). so i told her my stomach was hurting and i had to go to the bathroom.
as i went to the bathroom, i quickly turned on my phone and asked a couple of my friends what to talk about if the conversation was going dry and what i should do abt my stutter, they all gave dogshit advice like to ask if she's a virgin, etc. I decided, as my last resort, to ask org, knowing that it's literally just filled with autists who don't talk to any girls either. But I really had no one else to ask, especially since all my friends were joking around. I did get semi good responses from org, but they weren't too good, it was all mainly people joking. I was so fucking pissed and knew that I was keeping her waiting for a long time. It was roughly around 10 minutes that I was in the bathroom. Pretty sure she thought i was deadass having diarrhea or i was stuck on the fucking toilet. I realized that might be more ropefuel than having a boring, stuttery convo. So I quickly got out, looked at myself in the mirror, saw how hideous I was, lost confidence, and then went back to the table. She asked where I was and if i was trying to get away from her, obviously in a joking way but it was apparent that she was being a little genuine as well. i felt really bad kind of regret going to the bathroom at all.
but at least i got a bit more topic points from org, so i could respark the conversation. i was analyzing her face in real time. yes i'm not even kidding. i was doing it out loud because i had no other talking points, but i was only pointing out her halos. and then i told her how perfect she looked, i'm not that autistic to point out her fucking failios and suggest her surgery. still a bit autistic to the point where i told her "i love your skin" like a retarded fag.
after that i tried breaking the touch barrier a bit more, so i grabbed her hand and asked if i could ask her a serious question. she got a bit startled, but then agreed and looked into my eyes, and i literally just asked her if she was shaved. she giggled a bit and said she she always shaves, and i sort of said "holy fuck we have so much in common" cause i deadass didn't know what else to say.
after i asked the shaving question, we were still sort of holding hands across the table, and then i asked her if she's ever "kissed a real nigga" and went in puckering my lips and closing my eyes, as a joke and she started deadass laughing loud as fuck. not even exaggerating like 5 couples stared at us and it was sort of embarrassing so i told her to be quiet. i realized we were disturbing the other people in the restaurant atp, so I called the waiter to come and give us the check, and on god it came out to be ~$100 and i tried to make it seem like i wasn't mad as fuck. i still paid it but holy shit that's so much for just a steak and fucking pasta. we didn't even finish the fucking food either, should've asked for a to-go box but feel like it would've made me seem poor. so i just didn't.
after that we walked around the mall a bit with my arm around her neck like we were dating, it was so cute to me and i got hard the whole time we were walking around. i told her i wanted to take her shopping (not really just wanted to say it to be nice), but she just said no the food was enough and that she just wants to hang out with me a bit more. we just talked for like 40 more minutes, and it was becoming dark and she said her dad wanted her home soon.
so as we headed back in the car and i drove her, she let me put my hand on her thighs the whole way. it was the hottest shit ever. as i dropped her to her house, i walked her to her front steps, and before knocking she said she had fun and went on her tiptoes and kissed me on the cheek. sadly i should've went mouth and forced her but didn't. that genuinely made me blush, pretty sure she saw how red i became which was ropefuel. but i literally just said i had fun too. she knocked and her dad opened the door, and we all just said bye to each other.
after this i thought the date went fairly well, but i wasn't sure if maybe I got friendzoned or something since I only got a kiss on the cheek. but i'm sure she was into me.
when i got home i saw my messages and saw that she texted me a bit ago where she thanked me. all my worries went away, thought i was gonna get ghosted or something and wouldn't see her at the volunteering job anymore
needless to say i'm a fucking LTN slayer. after i texted her this on god i jerked off to our text messages and the thought of having her in my arms again. i wish i was joking.
I would've taken a picture or a selfie with us together, but thought it was pretty corny and we weren't really kids anymore. or maybe just quickly bring my camera out to take a picture of her to prove it's not tales, but honestly i felt like that'd just be creepy as fuck as well.
if i hang out with her tomorrow again i'll try to prove it's not tales and get a pic of us.
anyways im sleeping fucking well tonight. genuine lifefuel. might not be as hideous as i thought.
she's a pretty hot above average (mmtb) white bitch, possibly a jew (didnt ask and dont think so), and had a good ass time.
i drove to her house and picked her up in my pussy wetting tesla, i knocked on her door and her big ass jacked dad fucking opened the door in literally nothing but his fucking underwear - it was kinda surprising bc their neighborhood was gated and expensive, and it kind of made me view the girl as a bit ghetto, bc of her family, but that's besides the point. when he opened up the door i deadass looked up at him (5'10 frauding) i felt like a fucking bitch and a low T cuck next to him, i wanted to slit my throat right then and there, and with a pussy beta squeaker voice i asked if she could bring his daughter out cause i was taking her, i thought he was gonna ask if i was good enough for her like in the movies but he didn't give a fuck.
house kind of looked like this if anyone gives a fuck, it's actually eeirely similar - just irl was a bit bigger and there was a stone road connecting the main door to the road of the neighborhood, and the garage was on the side instead:
the girl came out with the most traditional wife clothing ever, it was kinda funny it's like she was over compensating for being a whore (not saying she is/was, but that's what it looked like).
the shirt she was wearing was kinda like this, don't mind the baby bc it's the only fucking picture i could find. no this isn't pedobaiting.
and she was wearing just reg jeans, she was kinda flat so her ass wasn't hot or anything in it.
when i saw her i held out my hand like a fucking dork and held hers, kind of made me feel like a faggot LMAOO. should've just told her to get the fuck in my car. i opened her door and everything, but it was so fucking awkward because i went around the back like towards the trunk to get to my side and i took like 5 seconds extra, dk if this is an autistic fixation i had but i felt like i took too long which was cringe. whole time his dad was watching me from the door, he never actually closed it he was just staring at me the whole time like i was a fucking dork loser. i got so rattled.
after that i drove off, and i started steering with one hand to make me seem cool, but i didnt know how to turn completely with one hand so i accidentally almost hit the curb as i was leaving her neighborhood, another ropefuel moment, didn't think she noticed tho. after driving for a little, we were playing the aux and shit, but it was kinda getting awkward and quiet. i didn't really know what to do, so i was deadass saying the first things that came to my head, and to break the ice i made a semi weird joke if she was going to give me road head or not. when i did i expected her to get weirded out but she just laughed it off and said "we'll see" and when she responded with that i got rly fucking nervous, i was kinda wondering if she was a slut or not but the way she dressed and carried herself didn't make her seem like it. i think i responded with, "i'll force you to" as i was kinda laughing to make it telling that it was a joke. call me autistic, low inhib, idgaf every single time i tried to be funny it came out the weirdest way possible and made it seem like i was a creep. don't think she ever really cared though.
when we reached the mall i couldn't find parking spot so we both literally just started driving back in forth 4 different parking structures for around 20 minutes and she was getting mad as fuck, it's not like that i noticed and i'm really good at social cues, but she literally kept saying "holy shit just get a valet" every 10 seconds and then suggested we should just go back to their house and eat dinner with her old ass parents. kept denying it, but i wouldn't be surprised if she just got off the car right then and there. eventually we did find a parking space though. and it was a downhill area when leaving, so it's really not good for someone who was wearing fucking height boosters. i'm not even kidding as i got out of my car n held her hand to leave the parking lot, i fucking tripped. not a full trip but like my foot went sideways and bc i was holding her hand i kinda tugged her along. the bitch fell a lil but holy fuck when we got back up she deadass looked at me like i was literally retarded. i wanted to hang myself.
after that we just walked like 10 minutes to the restaurant, since it was like in the middle of the mall. as we were walking there i saw like 10 diff people i know from school, and i tried to purposely not look at them so they wouldn't pay me attention. i was very scared if they were gonna just make fun of me in front of the girl.
when we got to the restaurant i felt like a loser trying to get a table for the both of us, because of my height, voice, and semi low confidence i was litearlly stuttering every 2 seconds. like when he asked "table for two" i said "yeah yeah t-table for two" thankfully i told her to sit on a bench that was in the back kinda so she couldn't really hear me, but idk if she did or not. kinda sad if she did.
we waited a little, i sat next to her in the bench and talked to her for a bit. i noticed that when i talked to her i was squinting my fucking eyes and sucking in my cheeks like a retard (subconciously, not on purpose) and i kept trying to fix it but i gave myself duck lips instead and i kjust looked like a retard bro idk how to explain it. i also noticed my abysmal posture that i kept trying to sit up straight and correct, but could never really.
if anyone wants to know this is what my posture looked like, but i was turning my head to the side to talk to her:
anyways, the waiter called us up after a while, and we both got up. and guess fucking what, i put my arm around her waist as we were going to the fucking table. she let me asw, as i did i kind of got hard like a virgin, so i tried hiding it with my other hand and tucking it in but it looked so obvious to the point where she was litearlly just staring at it and asked what i was doing. and again like a retarded fucking autist i answered truthfully and said "im kind of hard right now i'm not gonna lie," quietly tho so the person showing us to our table wouldn't hear. and she literally burst out laughing, pretty sure she thought i was some special ed kid she went out on a date with. i still don't know if she laughed at me for being a dork, or laughed w me cause she thought i was joking.
as we got to our table i literally took the closest one and sat down on the seat, and she was standing up for like 10 seconds looking down at me sitting and i was confused what she was doing. she kind of had this cute mad face n she was crossing her arms. i was so close to whipping my dick out and jerking off in front of her. then i realized i was supposed to pull the chair out for her and apologized and told her not to tell her dad cause i was kinda scared of the nigga.
after a while we looked at the menu, figured out what we wanted, i was just gonna get a steak, she was talking about how good the seafood linguini or some fucking pasta looked and on god it was $45 i got fucking rattled. if the date went wrong i wouldve forced her to pay. as we were waiting for the waiter, we talked abt regular shit like our favorite movies, tv shows, etc. when the waiter came out, i thought of the funniest thing to do, i didn't know if it'll land well but i tried it anyways. i told the waiter i wanted steak, and then told my date what she wanted, and when she opened her mouth i shushed her and told the waiter "she'd like a salad"
the joke didn't land hard at all and she just got mad as fuck, i don't really know what i expected tbf. don't even know why i did it. but right after i just said "no i'm joking, she wanted this one" and just pointed to the pasta she wanted.
when the waiter came out we talked as we ate food, was sort of nervous since i jutt my jaw a lot, and when i eat i really can't. so was very scared if she would see that i was frauding my chin projection, but i knew i was acting autistic and just kept eating. the whole time we were talking, i was stuttering a fuckton. i could really feel the adderall in my system, and i was tapping my foot on the ground and scratching my neck like a homeless crackhead. my hands were also very jittery and sweaty as well. we just kept talking about just random shit, she was carrying the conversation a lot. as it was getting more and more dry i was pretty scared that the date was going bad and would've been boring for her (topic-wise and the fact that i kept stuttering and she would think she was going on a date with a cuck). so i told her my stomach was hurting and i had to go to the bathroom.
as i went to the bathroom, i quickly turned on my phone and asked a couple of my friends what to talk about if the conversation was going dry and what i should do abt my stutter, they all gave dogshit advice like to ask if she's a virgin, etc. I decided, as my last resort, to ask org, knowing that it's literally just filled with autists who don't talk to any girls either. But I really had no one else to ask, especially since all my friends were joking around. I did get semi good responses from org, but they weren't too good, it was all mainly people joking. I was so fucking pissed and knew that I was keeping her waiting for a long time. It was roughly around 10 minutes that I was in the bathroom. Pretty sure she thought i was deadass having diarrhea or i was stuck on the fucking toilet. I realized that might be more ropefuel than having a boring, stuttery convo. So I quickly got out, looked at myself in the mirror, saw how hideous I was, lost confidence, and then went back to the table. She asked where I was and if i was trying to get away from her, obviously in a joking way but it was apparent that she was being a little genuine as well. i felt really bad kind of regret going to the bathroom at all.
but at least i got a bit more topic points from org, so i could respark the conversation. i was analyzing her face in real time. yes i'm not even kidding. i was doing it out loud because i had no other talking points, but i was only pointing out her halos. and then i told her how perfect she looked, i'm not that autistic to point out her fucking failios and suggest her surgery. still a bit autistic to the point where i told her "i love your skin" like a retarded fag.
after that i tried breaking the touch barrier a bit more, so i grabbed her hand and asked if i could ask her a serious question. she got a bit startled, but then agreed and looked into my eyes, and i literally just asked her if she was shaved. she giggled a bit and said she she always shaves, and i sort of said "holy fuck we have so much in common" cause i deadass didn't know what else to say.
after i asked the shaving question, we were still sort of holding hands across the table, and then i asked her if she's ever "kissed a real nigga" and went in puckering my lips and closing my eyes, as a joke and she started deadass laughing loud as fuck. not even exaggerating like 5 couples stared at us and it was sort of embarrassing so i told her to be quiet. i realized we were disturbing the other people in the restaurant atp, so I called the waiter to come and give us the check, and on god it came out to be ~$100 and i tried to make it seem like i wasn't mad as fuck. i still paid it but holy shit that's so much for just a steak and fucking pasta. we didn't even finish the fucking food either, should've asked for a to-go box but feel like it would've made me seem poor. so i just didn't.
after that we walked around the mall a bit with my arm around her neck like we were dating, it was so cute to me and i got hard the whole time we were walking around. i told her i wanted to take her shopping (not really just wanted to say it to be nice), but she just said no the food was enough and that she just wants to hang out with me a bit more. we just talked for like 40 more minutes, and it was becoming dark and she said her dad wanted her home soon.
so as we headed back in the car and i drove her, she let me put my hand on her thighs the whole way. it was the hottest shit ever. as i dropped her to her house, i walked her to her front steps, and before knocking she said she had fun and went on her tiptoes and kissed me on the cheek. sadly i should've went mouth and forced her but didn't. that genuinely made me blush, pretty sure she saw how red i became which was ropefuel. but i literally just said i had fun too. she knocked and her dad opened the door, and we all just said bye to each other.
after this i thought the date went fairly well, but i wasn't sure if maybe I got friendzoned or something since I only got a kiss on the cheek. but i'm sure she was into me.
when i got home i saw my messages and saw that she texted me a bit ago where she thanked me. all my worries went away, thought i was gonna get ghosted or something and wouldn't see her at the volunteering job anymore
needless to say i'm a fucking LTN slayer. after i texted her this on god i jerked off to our text messages and the thought of having her in my arms again. i wish i was joking.
I would've taken a picture or a selfie with us together, but thought it was pretty corny and we weren't really kids anymore. or maybe just quickly bring my camera out to take a picture of her to prove it's not tales, but honestly i felt like that'd just be creepy as fuck as well.
if i hang out with her tomorrow again i'll try to prove it's not tales and get a pic of us.
anyways im sleeping fucking well tonight. genuine lifefuel. might not be as hideous as i thought.
