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“Rage, rage against the dying of the light”
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I’m 81 backwards, soon to be 91 backwards
Did my first surgery recently and it didn’t go perfectly, I’m not able to use both eyes the right way anymore for some reason
I’ll find out by next month if I need another surgery, or might have to do vision therapy which will take a bunch of time and be slow
On top of all this need to begin planning double jaw surgery from scratch which will take years, I haven’t even decided yet if I should even bother going the insurance route as my insurance plan is quite dogshit from what I’ve researched with not the best surgeons to say the least
Or maybe I need to just go be a wageslave to get shat on by normies coworkers and a boss for a year and then fly to turkey and take my chances again, hoping I don’t end up on the wrong side of the gamble
And then surely I need some implants somewhere to fix my bone mass, and something for my zombie inbred eye area
Meanwhile time is passing me by, I’m continuing to miss these social / developmental milestones, blah blah, I haven’t even spoken to an soul my age in person for what feels like a lifetime
I’m a total social failure, very autistic, bad voice, bad mannerisms, bad posture, whole package
I feel like I’m on a ship that’s sailing farther and farther away from the mainland. This must be how it feels to be an inkwell / genetic failure.
Rant / vent post any advice you give me I’ve already thought of and masturbated over so just rep if you relate
Did my first surgery recently and it didn’t go perfectly, I’m not able to use both eyes the right way anymore for some reason
I’ll find out by next month if I need another surgery, or might have to do vision therapy which will take a bunch of time and be slow
On top of all this need to begin planning double jaw surgery from scratch which will take years, I haven’t even decided yet if I should even bother going the insurance route as my insurance plan is quite dogshit from what I’ve researched with not the best surgeons to say the least
Or maybe I need to just go be a wageslave to get shat on by normies coworkers and a boss for a year and then fly to turkey and take my chances again, hoping I don’t end up on the wrong side of the gamble
And then surely I need some implants somewhere to fix my bone mass, and something for my zombie inbred eye area
Meanwhile time is passing me by, I’m continuing to miss these social / developmental milestones, blah blah, I haven’t even spoken to an soul my age in person for what feels like a lifetime
I’m a total social failure, very autistic, bad voice, bad mannerisms, bad posture, whole package
I feel like I’m on a ship that’s sailing farther and farther away from the mainland. This must be how it feels to be an inkwell / genetic failure.
Rant / vent post any advice you give me I’ve already thought of and masturbated over so just rep if you relate
