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Every time things get better for me they end up getting worse. Today was the first fucking time my dad and I went out and spoke to each other, we even made jokes and laughed with each other. He took me to practice my driving and I actually had a good time. He said I’ve been working hard and deserved to have my phone back and be ungrounded after 8 months.
Just now I did the laundry and put too much clothes in the dryer that it started a leak. My dad started screaming and cursing at me and then started saying that everything I do just turns to shit. I get it, I did something retarded but it isn’t even this. Every single fucking mistake I make he just screams at me like it’s the end of the world. I don’t finish a whole apple, it’s a problem, I leave the garage door open, it’s a problem, I send him a meme, it’s a problem. I had a D in math 2 weeks ago and he told me that I’ll never be anything in life, I’ll end up being a bald, fat, single father, living in the streets, smoking crack, and working at McDonald’s.
Why is my dad like this with me?
I remember when I was in middle school. I asked for help on my homework, and he got so mad at me for not understanding it that he grabbed my head and almost banged it against the table but my mom stopped him before he did and he just pushed me to the ground. I cried so much that day. The worst part is all of my friends have amazing parents. Whenever I hear them complain about theirs I get so fucking mad because they have no idea. The shit my dad has done to me, and he still makes me feel like I’m at fault. This is why every relationship I get into I always end up pushing them away because my parents made me feel like I’m worth nothing.
I used to be one of the best track runners in my team 2 years ago. That year I went to nationals, I didn’t get first but ended up getting 6th. My parents quit track because they said I didn’t try hard enough. The only thing that gave me life and they took it away from me.
I just can’t anymore.
Just now I did the laundry and put too much clothes in the dryer that it started a leak. My dad started screaming and cursing at me and then started saying that everything I do just turns to shit. I get it, I did something retarded but it isn’t even this. Every single fucking mistake I make he just screams at me like it’s the end of the world. I don’t finish a whole apple, it’s a problem, I leave the garage door open, it’s a problem, I send him a meme, it’s a problem. I had a D in math 2 weeks ago and he told me that I’ll never be anything in life, I’ll end up being a bald, fat, single father, living in the streets, smoking crack, and working at McDonald’s.
Why is my dad like this with me?
I remember when I was in middle school. I asked for help on my homework, and he got so mad at me for not understanding it that he grabbed my head and almost banged it against the table but my mom stopped him before he did and he just pushed me to the ground. I cried so much that day. The worst part is all of my friends have amazing parents. Whenever I hear them complain about theirs I get so fucking mad because they have no idea. The shit my dad has done to me, and he still makes me feel like I’m at fault. This is why every relationship I get into I always end up pushing them away because my parents made me feel like I’m worth nothing.
I used to be one of the best track runners in my team 2 years ago. That year I went to nationals, I didn’t get first but ended up getting 6th. My parents quit track because they said I didn’t try hard enough. The only thing that gave me life and they took it away from me.
I just can’t anymore.
