suicidal thoughts

[FoidObliterator]

Im tired of this shit man, i literally cant stop thinking about killing myself its a constant nagging feeling in the back of my head. It only gets worse too when i look at my life situation realizing my parents raised me like shit so im recessed as my bones never had a chance to develop properly, i was fed fucking goyslop until i hit middle school and started feeding myself so my nutrition was fucked for the most important developmental years of my life, on top of that i was cursed with autism so doing really anything at all is fucking awful. The level of ropefuel it is too when i see all these motherfuckers running around in their happy relationships where they cycle through people like every 2 months god it pisses me off. Its so annoying to watch people complain that their 5th ex was slightly funnier than their current relationship when im a lifelong khhv, i mean i would do genuinely anything to feel genuine love from another person. also the public humiliation of being, well me throughout day to day life, i mean people semi consistently walk by me and laugh, my existence is enough to be seen as humourous because of how fucking ugly i am i mean holy shit, do these neurotypical genetically gifted people have no souls? no humanity? holy shit dude im a person too, it doesnt matter to them though because i dont look good enough im not considered human in their minds. This is sort of a ranty post but i just needed to type this out somewhere, my life fucking sucks because i was unlucky and the more i think about it the more i want to kill myself

 

[Scarlet]

ok idc mate

 

[PeaceAndLove4ever]

theres users on here posting slay threads at 15 years old

then, theres users who post about ending their failure of a life

 

[TonyTony]

why kys over recession and looks before trying surgery

 

[TheWigger]

Im tired of this shit man, i literally cant stop thinking about killing myself its a constant nagging feeling in the back of my head. It only gets worse too when i look at my life situation realizing my parents raised me like shit so im recessed as my bones never had a chance to develop properly, i was fed fucking goyslop until i hit middle school and started feeding myself so my nutrition was fucked for the most important developmental years of my life, on top of that i was cursed with autism so doing really anything at all is fucking awful. The level of ropefuel it is too when i see all these motherfuckers running around in their happy relationships where they cycle through people like every 2 months god it pisses me off. Its so annoying to watch people complain that their 5th ex was slightly funnier than their current relationship when im a lifelong khhv, i mean i would do genuinely anything to feel genuine love from another person. also the public humiliation of being, well me throughout day to day life, i mean people semi consistently walk by me and laugh, my existence is enough to be seen as humourous because of how fucking ugly i am i mean holy shit, do these neurotypical genetically gifted people have no souls? no humanity? holy shit dude im a person too, it doesnt matter to them though because i dont look good enough im not considered human in their minds. This is sort of a ranty post but i just needed to type this out somewhere, my life fucking sucks because i was unlucky and the more i think about it the more i want to kill myself

relatable i think the worst part is that your parents probably dont take any accountability for the malnutitrion and are unable/ unwilling to empathise with your issues, idk man just live with the dream in your head 24/7 that you will get rich get surgery and become the man you were born to be