Suicide

[Brava]

I’m too pussy to do it , I don’t think I’ll ever do it. But I wish I could do it, with out the cowardness and fear, and the anxiety of pulling a trigger or popping a pill. I genuinely am losing the will to live day by day, I am turning into a robot day by day. I really don’t want to live , my life is becoming shit. I’m insecure about every thing , I barely interact with people (outside of my house) and am anxious everywhere. I don’t feel support from my close ones, they think I hate them. I understand this whole fuckass black pill belief and understand the cruelty of this world and I can 100% guarantee some fucked up shit will happen to me one day knowing my character. So much pressure from everywhere, I can’t imagine if things was worse for me, maybe I would’ve already attempted. I’ve never talked to females I literally was such a loser in highschool that I did started doing homeschooling and graduated highschool early to start college and to cope with the fact that im “ahead of everyone” and they are behind, when in reality if I even had a quarter of the social interactions of a somewhat popular dude I would’ve stayed in highschool all 4 years. I live every day hoping for everything to work out and for me to one day live a great life, my dream life that might not even happen. Insecurities run my life , Fuck Life

I was really hesitant on posting this but ig I need a place to vent so this might be the place for me.

 

[Node]

Do it.

 

[Brava]

Do it.

I just can’t. I’m not the type to give up. I can’t it’s not in me

 

[Node]

I just can’t. I’m not the type to give up. I can’t it’s not in me

Idc

 

[snuggylion5]

DOnt care

 

[Algernon]

I’m too pussy to do it , I don’t think I’ll ever do it. But I wish I could do it, with out the cowardness and fear, and the anxiety of pulling a trigger or popping a pill. I genuinely am losing the will to live day by day, I am turning into a robot day by day. I really don’t want to live , my life is becoming shit. I’m insecure about every thing , I barely interact with people (outside of my house) and am anxious everywhere. I don’t feel support from my close ones, they think I hate them. I understand this whole fuckass black pill belief and understand the cruelty of this world and I can 100% guarantee some fucked up shit will happen to me one day knowing my character. So much pressure from everywhere, I can’t imagine if things was worse for me, maybe I would’ve already attempted. I’ve never talked to females I literally was such a loser in highschool that I did started doing homeschooling and graduated highschool early to start college and to cope with the fact that im “ahead of everyone” and they are behind, when in reality if I even had a quarter of the social interactions of a somewhat popular dude I would’ve stayed in highschool all 4 years. I live every day hoping for everything to work out and for me to one day live a great life, my dream life that might not even happen. Insecurities run my life , Fuck Life

I was really hesitant on posting this but ig I need a place to vent so this might be the place for me.

how old are you rn?

 

[Brava]

how old are you rn?

16

 

[Algernon]

16

and you already started college?

definitely don't rope

wgen you turn 18-21, if you still feel a lack of will to live then try and do smth different, kind of basic advice though

 

[thekidd8]

I enjoy your postings, don’t do it. Shit gets better, it always gets better.

 

[Brava]

and you already started college?

definitely don't rope

wgen you turn 18-21, if you still feel a lack of will to live then try and do smth different, kind of basic advice though

You are right. Too early. But if it keeps up idk what I will do. I’m such a incel. Or like incel ++ the fucking VIP of being incel

 

[Acquiescence]

It’s hilarious how bad things are. I can’t stop laughing

 

[Brava]

I enjoy your postings, don’t do it. Shit gets better, it always gets better.

Thanks a lot. I really hope shit will get better. Life has just been going down hill for me rn

 

[Brava]

It’s hilarious how bad things are. I can’t stop laughing

For you? Why laugh tho?
I personally just start crying

 

[soapbubble]

you're only 16, remember that

I'm 16 as well and feel that way every day too (i'm not just saying this to virtue signal or give you fake sympathy, i've made many vent threads here and felt suicidal many times)

i don't really have much to say except i hope it gets better for you

looksmax to MTN minimum and just act a little cocky, it'll genuinely help with confidence

you can feel depressed and want to die but don't actually carry it out, i have faith that you'll do what it takes to fix yourself

 

[sergdying]

Bro, you're gay.

Start pinning 1000mg of test a day and these weak feelings go away

 

[Brava]

you're only 16, remember that

I'm 16 as well and feel that way every day too (i'm not just saying this to virtue signal or give you fake sympathy, i've made many vent threads here and felt suicidal many times)

i don't really have much to say except i hope it gets better for you

looksmax to MTN minimum and just act a little cocky, it'll genuinely help with confidence

you can feel depressed and want to die but don't actually carry it out, i have faith that you'll do what it takes to fix yourself

I don’t think I’ll ever do it but I do try everyday to better myself. For now I’ve been focusing on studying more that will help me for my degree. It’s just how my family treats me is like half of the problems rn

 

[soapbubble]

I don’t think I’ll ever do it but I do try everyday to better myself. For now I’ve been focusing on studying more that will help me for my degree. It’s just how my family treats me is like half of the problems rn

how does your family treat you?

you're only 16 bruh, try to live your life and do things other than studying

for you to unwillingly live your youth as a shut-in studycel social recluse is a waste

 

[Chance1]

 

[Acquiescence]

For you? Why laugh tho?
I personally just start crying

It’s just the current phase

There’s been crushing depression and sadness

Rage and anger

Empty nothingness

Complete and total mental breakdowns

Who knows what’ll come next

 

[kwjqxlw99]

DNR
(Do Not Rope)

 

[zenserenity]

I’m too pussy to do it , I don’t think I’ll ever do it. But I wish I could do it, with out the cowardness and fear, and the anxiety of pulling a trigger or popping a pill. I genuinely am losing the will to live day by day, I am turning into a robot day by day. I really don’t want to live , my life is becoming shit. I’m insecure about every thing , I barely interact with people (outside of my house) and am anxious everywhere. I don’t feel support from my close ones, they think I hate them. I understand this whole fuckass black pill belief and understand the cruelty of this world and I can 100% guarantee some fucked up shit will happen to me one day knowing my character. So much pressure from everywhere, I can’t imagine if things was worse for me, maybe I would’ve already attempted. I’ve never talked to females I literally was such a loser in highschool that I did started doing homeschooling and graduated highschool early to start college and to cope with the fact that im “ahead of everyone” and they are behind, when in reality if I even had a quarter of the social interactions of a somewhat popular dude I would’ve stayed in highschool all 4 years. I live every day hoping for everything to work out and for me to one day live a great life, my dream life that might not even happen. Insecurities run my life , Fuck Life

I was really hesitant on posting this but ig I need a place to vent so this might be the place for me.

Please, don't.

There are literally so many things to live for.

Just meet people in college dude. Start conversations. No matter how awkward it might seem at first, you will only get better and better with social interactions

If you want to go more into detail about your issues, you can dm me.

 

[Bitterness]

Please, don't.

There are literally so many things to live for.

Just meet people in college dude. Start conversations. No matter how awkward it might seem at first, you will only get better and better with social interactions

If you want to go more into detail about your issues, you can dm me.

this

 

[Bitterness]

are u khhv? either way theres more to live for bro

 

[kaydd]

It’s just the current phase

There’s been crushing depression and sadness

Rage and anger

Empty nothingness

Complete and total mental breakdowns

Who knows what’ll come next

make your own arc

 

[yearningtolookhuman]

I’m too pussy to do it , I don’t think I’ll ever do it. But I wish I could do it, with out the cowardness and fear, and the anxiety of pulling a trigger or popping a pill. I genuinely am losing the will to live day by day, I am turning into a robot day by day. I really don’t want to live , my life is becoming shit. I’m insecure about every thing , I barely interact with people (outside of my house) and am anxious everywhere. I don’t feel support from my close ones, they think I hate them. I understand this whole fuckass black pill belief and understand the cruelty of this world and I can 100% guarantee some fucked up shit will happen to me one day knowing my character. So much pressure from everywhere, I can’t imagine if things was worse for me, maybe I would’ve already attempted. I’ve never talked to females I literally was such a loser in highschool that I did started doing homeschooling and graduated highschool early to start college and to cope with the fact that im “ahead of everyone” and they are behind, when in reality if I even had a quarter of the social interactions of a somewhat popular dude I would’ve stayed in highschool all 4 years. I live every day hoping for everything to work out and for me to one day live a great life, my dream life that might not even happen. Insecurities run my life , Fuck Life

I was really hesitant on posting this but ig I need a place to vent so this might be the place for

I’m too pussy to do it , I don’t think I’ll ever do it. But I wish I could do it, with out the cowardness and fear, and the anxiety of pulling a trigger or popping a pill. I genuinely am losing the will to live day by day, I am turning into a robot day by day. I really don’t want to live , my life is becoming shit. I’m insecure about every thing , I barely interact with people (outside of my house) and am anxious everywhere. I don’t feel support from my close ones, they think I hate them. I understand this whole fuckass black pill belief and understand the cruelty of this world and I can 100% guarantee some fucked up shit will happen to me one day knowing my character. So much pressure from everywhere, I can’t imagine if things was worse for me, maybe I would’ve already attempted. I’ve never talked to females I literally was such a loser in highschool that I did started doing homeschooling and graduated highschool early to start college and to cope with the fact that im “ahead of everyone” and they are behind, when in reality if I even had a quarter of the social interactions of a somewhat popular dude I would’ve stayed in highschool all 4 years. I live every day hoping for everything to work out and for me to one day live a great life, my dream life that might not even happen. Insecurities run my life , Fuck Life

I was really hesitant on posting this but ig I need a place to vent so this might be the place for me.

Honestly DNR cause it’s too long, but just ascend, go outside, get friends, slay, and you’ll be fine.

 

[Brava]

how does your family treat you?

you're only 16 bruh, try to live your life and do things other than studying

for you to unwillingly live your youth as a shut-in studycel social recluse is a waste

Dude my city has no opportunities for a social life it’s just a boring fuckass suburb for families and for dumbass highschool kids. Even if I could of what do I do go to like the nearest mall or fucking plaza and come up to strangers and ask “hey do you wanna be friends with me” I have 2 friends irl but rarely see them because of how bad transportation is here. I don’t wanna talk about my relationship with my parents ngl sorry it’s really difficult rn. I have no other choice , either LDAR or study, even that is becoming hard to do. Most people tell me that the best times are experienced in your teenage years - early twenties. Well I already fucked it up. I’m really emotional right now sorry. I just wanna go to bed and cry. I’m really sorry I don’t usually act like this on here fuck

 

[Brava]

It’s just the current phase

There’s been crushing depression and sadness

Rage and anger

Empty nothingness

Complete and total mental breakdowns

Who knows what’ll come next

I really hope I can have a great life in all aspects one day. Just imagining it gives me some hope, but will it happen ? I don’t know

 

[italianltn]

I could write for hours about how it's not worth it. Every thing you said you struggle from is fixable. If you rope, it's guaranteed you'll never have the life you want. Try your hardest, I understand how brutal things are however effort is everything. You're putting too much pressure on yourself. Keep going, keep putting effort in.

 

[soapbubble]

Dude my city has no opportunities for a social life it’s just a boring fuckass suburb for families and for dumbass highschool kids. Even if I could of what do I do go to like the nearest mall or fucking plaza and come up to strangers and ask “hey do you wanna be friends with me” I have 2 friends irl but rarely see them because of how bad transportation is here. I don’t wanna talk about my relationship with my parents ngl sorry it’s really difficult rn. I have no other choice , either LDAR or study, even that is becoming hard to do. Most people tell me that the best times are experienced in your teenage years - early twenties. Well I already fucked it up. I’m really emotional right now sorry. I just wanna go to bed and cry. I’m really sorry I don’t usually act like this on here fuck

think you could join clubs/volunteering around your area? sorry your problem's unique af and you're probably the only one i know who has this

just cry and let it out if you need to, your pain is understandable

I really hope I can have a great life in all aspects one day. Just imagining it gives me some hope, but will it happen ? I don’t know

i really hope you do man

 

[Brava]

I could write for hours about how it's not worth it. Every thing you said you struggle from is fixable. If you rope, it's guaranteed you'll never have the life you want. Try your hardest, I understand how brutal things are however effort is everything. You're putting too much pressure on yourself. Keep going, keep putting effort in.

Thank you for the wise words. It has been happening for a while, it has gotten worse ever since I started going to college. My family moved 4 years ago, I think that was the start of it all. My insecurities feel deep and deathly

 

[FORTY6IX&TW0]

quitting's for cowards and pussies. Keep going on no matter what dude or else you'll be remembered as a pussy

 

[Dollus]

I’m too pussy to do it , I don’t think I’ll ever do it. But I wish I could do it, with out the cowardness and fear, and the anxiety of pulling a trigger or popping a pill. I genuinely am losing the will to live day by day, I am turning into a robot day by day. I really don’t want to live , my life is becoming shit. I’m insecure about every thing , I barely interact with people (outside of my house) and am anxious everywhere. I don’t feel support from my close ones, they think I hate them. I understand this whole fuckass black pill belief and understand the cruelty of this world and I can 100% guarantee some fucked up shit will happen to me one day knowing my character. So much pressure from everywhere, I can’t imagine if things was worse for me, maybe I would’ve already attempted. I’ve never talked to females I literally was such a loser in highschool that I did started doing homeschooling and graduated highschool early to start college and to cope with the fact that im “ahead of everyone” and they are behind, when in reality if I even had a quarter of the social interactions of a somewhat popular dude I would’ve stayed in highschool all 4 years. I live every day hoping for everything to work out and for me to one day live a great life, my dream life that might not even happen. Insecurities run my life , Fuck Life

I was really hesitant on posting this but ig I need a place to vent so this might be the place for me.

Nigga if you havent started eating right getting your body right and your face right and just prioritized your looks in general you have no reason to complain

 

[Brava]

think you could join clubs/volunteering around your area? sorry your problem's unique af and you're probably the only one i know who has this

just cry and let it out if you need to, your pain is understandable


i really hope you do man

I’m too awkward idk. Plus I don’t have the time and I might get a job soon so that might help me socialize more. Looking back on it noticing some things that has happened in my life, I’m not surprised I’m thinking like this , thanks again

 

[italianltn]

Thank you for the wise words. It has been happening for a while, it has gotten worse ever since I started going to college. My family moved 4 years ago, I think that was the start of it all. My insecurities feel deep and deathly

It happens for a while, and it feels helpless at times because it doesn't go away for a while but shit like this takes time, believe me. You're stressing out unnecessarily, you're in college, plenty of opportunities. Keep putting in effort, try experience new things as much as possible and eventually you'll see change. You need strength to see change as it takes time.

 

[Brava]

Nigga if you havent started eating right getting your body right and your face right and just prioritized your looks in general you have no reason to complain

It’s all cope for mental health. I do it all I still feel like shit. I really wanna try medicine but my parents are against it and make me do dumb shit

 

[Algernon]

Dude my city has no opportunities for a social life it’s just a boring fuckass suburb for families and for dumbass highschool kids. Even if I could of what do I do go to like the nearest mall or fucking plaza and come up to strangers and ask “hey do you wanna be friends with me” I have 2 friends irl but rarely see them because of how bad transportation is here. I don’t wanna talk about my relationship with my parents ngl sorry it’s really difficult rn. I have no other choice , either LDAR or study, even that is becoming hard to do. Most people tell me that the best times are experienced in your teenage years - early twenties. Well I already fucked it up. I’m really emotional right now sorry. I just wanna go to bed and cry. I’m really sorry I don’t usually act like this on here fuck

when i used to do sports though, i used to have friends + to get around bad transportation i'd usually js walk to places

 

[Brava]

It happens for a while, and it feels helpless at times because it doesn't go away for a while but shit like this takes time, believe me. You're stressing out unnecessarily, you're in college, plenty of opportunities. Keep putting in effort, try experience new things as much as possible and eventually you'll see change. You need strength to see change as it takes time.

I guess I need to pull through and even if it will get harder I just need to be stronger. Maybe when I transfer to a university life will get better. I’m planning on doing that and hoping I meet some new cool people idk maybe not

 

[Chadlite bhai]

Never rope

 

[Brava]

im in a kind of trashy suburb (not crime related)

when i used to do sports though, i used to have friends + to get around bad transportation i'd usually js walk to places

Easily said. I live on like damn near the border of a different city so I’m far away from the center of the city. Walking is impossible I don’t have the time for that it would talk all day to just walk to the center of the city. Plus in my city there is deadass nothing to do, there is nothing here !!!!

 

[Dollus]

It’s all cope for mental health. I do it all I still feel like shit. I really wanna try medicine but my parents are against it and make me do dumb shit

YOUR PARENTS ARE SMART . medication is for slaves and i can say that because i was on medication for MUH ANXIETY ... MUH DEPRESSION... MUH SELF HARM. whole fucking time i was just subhuman getting bullied for it and treated my body like shit on top of that. i had to take shit in my own hands and realize what i had to fix . i straight up rejected taking meds from my parents and it was hard because theyd give me constant shit for it and i felt like shit for years. i was gonna rope and on top of that i had some bitch ex blackpill me because she would give me shit for how i would look . you just need to stick with looksmaxxing and taking care of yourself and excluding every negative aspect of your life bro . seriously . i ghosted so many of my "best friends" because i knew they were holding me back . do what you need to do

 

[Brava]

YOUR PARENTS ARE SMART . medication is for slaves and i can say that because i was on medication for MUH ANXIETY ... MUH DEPRESSION... MUH SELF HARM. whole fucking time i was just subhuman getting bullied for it and treated my body like shit on top of that. i had to take shit in my own hands and realize what i had to fix . i straight up rejected taking meds from my parents and it was hard because theyd give me constant shit for it and i felt like shit for years. i was gonna rope and on top of that i had some bitch ex blackpill me because she would give me shit for how i would look . you just need to stick with looksmaxxing and taking care of yourself and excluding every negative aspect of your life bro . seriously . i ghosted so many of my "best friends" because i knew they were holding me back . do what you need to do

Except I don’t have any friends (almost) I will definitely hop on medication when I turn 18

 

[Dollus]

Except I don’t have any friends (almost) I will definitely hop on medication when I turn 18

Fuck friends youll have friends automatically from being attractive and im telling you medication is the worst idea ever . you need a healthy brain . medication will just further your radicalism

 

[italianltn]

I guess I need to pull through and even if it will get harder I just need to be stronger. Maybe when I transfer to a university life will get better. I’m planning on doing that and hoping I meet some new cool people idk maybe not

Strength is key. When you transfer to a university things will change, it's guaranteed. Good luck and keep going brother.

 

[Dollus]

Strength is key. When you transfer to a university things will change, it's guaranteed. Good luck and keep going brother.

i would strongly recommend taking a gap year before more schooling

 

[Brava]

Fuck friends youll have friends automatically from being attractive and im telling you medication is the worst idea ever . you need a healthy brain . medication will just further your radicalism

I really hope so. Talking to the people under this thread genuinely gave me hope. It may sound like simple stuff but I just haven’t heard about it ever in that way

 

[Brava]

i would strongly recommend taking a gap year before more schooling

Yea parents would kill me

 

[Brava]

Strength is key. When you transfer to a university things will change, it's guaranteed. Good luck and keep going brother.

Thank you. Talking to you gave me hope. It’s kinda simple stuff but still I really appreciate it. I don’t know about uni it’s not guaranteed but I hope for the best

 

[Algernon]

Easily said. I live on like damn near the border of a different city so I’m far away from the center of the city. Walking is impossible I don’t have the time for that it would talk all day to just walk to the center of the city. Plus in my city there is deadass nothing to do, there is nothing here !!!!

are there no sports centers, clubs etc?

idk, water but just find general social stuff, (library, clubs, gyms, etc), then find the most populous ones and the ones you enjoy the most

ones with a lot of people and enjoyable is the best, but if not...

then you can either fraud something a lot of people do (lets say a lot of people go to the library but you don't enjoy it, if you fraud it correctly you can make more friends in comparison but on a fake thing, if you are good at frauding though its a good choice)

or

you can do something you enjoy, make less friends but it is based upon something else you enjoy

also while it is better to make irl stuff, sm times you can learn to do stuff (a good habit is just learn random stuff for like 3-6 months, for example coding) and it can be online you make friends instead

you originally said your will to live was kind of decreasing, ig learning for a time period snd trying to get good at a skill, while bluepill advice, it is pretty good for getting a singular purpose of yourself and finding what you enjoy

 

[Dollus]

Yea parents would kill me

my parents would kill me over so much shit i would do to them but in the back of my mind i knew i was smarter than them (still am) and i was making the right choice. also, i was so subhuman i faught hard as fuck to be homeschooled so i wouldnt have to deal with bullying . I KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE .

 

[italianltn]

Thank you. Talking to you gave me hope. It’s kinda simple stuff but still I really appreciate it. I don’t know about uni it’s not guaranteed but I hope for the best

Anytime.