Suicide.

[Deleted member 10699]

I would lie if I say that I enjoy life; I've never fully enjoyed it. Since I was a kid, I've been having social issues (due to autism, but we'll get to that later), negative thoughts, suicidal ideation, etc. I've been called ugly a lot by girls through years and I've been treated coldly by them (I've been also called ugly by guys). This has made to grow up with no self esteem, and to hate most people. My autism just feels like an excuse; I've been going to therapy during more than 8 years, just to learn about how to behave like a normal person, and to have friends, but people (specially girls) don't want to talk to me, and I'm scared of talking to them (and I'm really scared of talking to girls, due to the negative feedback that I've been receiving in my life). My problem is not solitude; I'm used to be alone, why would it hurt me? What hurts me is that I can't enjoy anything, because I feel that nothing matters. I lied. I hate solitude and being unable to make relationships normally, but I can't force people into talking with me when I don't talk. I want to be able to cope with being ugly and to stop holding hate for people, which will lead me to kill someone in the future, and that's why I want to kill myself. I preffer the absence of consciousness than being conscient about my fall. I'm having an anxiety attack right now, because I'm thinking again about killing the people that hurted me. If I had a button to kill everyone, I would push it; if I'm going to die, I won't do it alone. Have a nice day.
Today I saw my face in a picture, and I punched my jaw repeteadly; I forgot to take my antidepressants today, and I'm in the place that reminds me that this world is just a dream. What I truly hate is that I'm unable to say this in real life, because no one gives a fuck. The people around you just lie, the psychologist give you some shitty advice to develop some confidence (and you just want to be alright with being ugly, not to try to believe that you look normal). I just hope that some more people would get beaten up.

 

[Deleted member 11748]

ERs me

 

[Deleted member 6382]

If I had a button to kill everyone, I would push it; if I'm going to die, I won't do it alone. Have a nice day.

yo wtf lmao

 

[gamma]

if I'm going to die, I won't do it alone. Have a nice day.

 

[Growth Plate]

mElkoR

 

[Deleted member 11053]

Life is really unfair is there even a reasons life is this way?

 

[Stare]

 

[Babyblackcarrot]

yeah that’s cool but don’t kill anyone

 

[Deleted member 12669]

I would lie if I say that I enjoy life; I've never fully enjoyed it. Since I was a kid, I've been having social issues (due to autism, but we'll get to that later), negative thoughts, suicidal ideation, etc. I've been called ugly a lot by girls through years and I've been treated coldly by them (I've been also called ugly by guys). This has made to grow up with no self esteem, and to hate most people. My autism just feels like an excuse; I've been going to therapy during more than 8 years, just to learn about how to behave like a normal person, and to have friends, but people (specially girls) don't want to talk to me, and I'm scared of talking to them (and I'm really scared of talking to girls, due to the negative feedback that I've been receiving in my life). My problem is not solitude; I'm used to be alone, why would it hurt me? What hurts me is that I can't enjoy anything, because I feel that nothing matters. I lied. I hate solitude and being unable to make relationships normally, but I can't force people into talking with me when I don't talk. I want to be able to cope with being ugly and to stop holding hate for people, which will lead me to kill someone in the future, and that's why I want to kill myself. I preffer the absence of consciousness than being conscient about my fall. I'm having an anxiety attack right now, because I'm thinking again about killing the people that hurted me. If I had a button to kill everyone, I would push it; if I'm going to die, I won't do it alone. Have a nice day.

We are going to see this nigga on the news for a mass shooting, mark my words.

 

[Deleted member 4430]

is painless

 

[Deleted member 10699]

yo wtf lmao

I'm an impulsive person, and I get mental breakdowns, so I would push the button when I get out of my mind.

 

[Growth Plate]

I've read your essays and assumed you were truecel or something, but you're not that bad just autistic

 

[Deleted member 10699]

yeah that’s cool but don’t kill anyone

I don't want to, that's why I'm considering suicide, because I don't trust myself.

 

[SkinjobCatastrophe]

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[Deleted member 12669]

I don't want to, that's why I'm considering suicide, because I don't trust myself.

Don't do either tbh, send pics of ur face to see whether you should

 

[Deleted member 1476]

hope you are ok bro there is help out there

 

[gamma]

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[Deleted member 10699]

Don't do either tbh, send pics of ur face to see whether you should

I have posted some treads with my face on them.

 

[Deleted member 2214]

I would've guaranteed you (no offense) that your social defectiveness is a result of you being very ugly rather than any external factors, but if you aren't self diagnosed due to your therapy then ok, I am sorry for you.

But tbh... why would you hate ALL the people for that matter? If anything you should hate yourself for being a failure.

Don't go ER.

if I'm going to die, I won't do it alone. Have a nice day.

Tell me you're talking about relationships and dying with a loved one please...

 

[Deleted member 8919]

none cares faggot

 

[Deleted member 8919]

Remember op is a femboy

 

[Deleted member 12669]

I have posted some treads with my face on them.

Wtf man u are good looking, just got bad skin and your hair is meh, which are like the two easiest things to fix. You can easily be a mogger IMO, how tall are you?

 

[Deleted member 10699]

I would've guaranteed you (no offense) that your social defectiveness is a result of you being very ugly rather than any external factors, but if you aren't self diagnosed due to your therapy then ok, I am sorry for you.

But tbh... why would you hate ALL the people for that matter? If anything you should hate yourself for being a failure.

Don't go ER.

Tell me you're talking about relationships and dying with a loved one please...

Why would I respect people? The only reason for me to not kill someone, right now, is the fear of being in jail. I hate the people who treated me like shit; I don't forget, neither forgive. And if I can hurt the people that treated me like shit, I will find my way. And yes, I'm autistic, but asperger. Which means that I can socialize, but have issues.

 

[Deleted member 12669]

Remember op is a femboy

WAIT its this nigga I forgot. OP kys u fucking faggit worthless piece of shit, no wonder you aren't loved

 

[Growth Plate]

Wtf man u are good looking, just got bad skin and your hair is meh, which are like the two easiest things to fix. You can easily be a mogger IMO, how tall are you?

inb4 5'2

 

[Deleted member 2214]

Why would I respect people? The only reason for me to not kill someone, right now, is the fear of being in jail. I hate the people who treated me like shit; I don't forget, neither forgive. And if I can hurt the people that treated me like shit, I will find my way.

Why don't you forgive? Most things people do are just instinct.

 

[Deleted member 8919]

WAIT its this nigga I forgot. OP kys u fucking faggit worthless piece of shit, no wonder you aren't loved

yeah its him

 

[Deleted member 10699]

Why don't you forgive? Most things people do are just instinct.

Because our instinct is not an excuse. It's a reason for me to hate them; if they aren't aware, will they be if they're teached the hard way?

 

[Deleted member 5048]

Not a word

 

[Deleted member 2214]

Because our instinct is not an excuse. It's a reason for me to hate them; if they aren't aware, will they be if they're teached the hard way?

Yes but you shouldn't go that way for your own good. If you see like a path for revenge in a divorce for example to scam your partner then go for it, but in this case you just sound like you have pent up rage.

 

[Deleted member 10185]

I don't want to, that's why I'm considering suicide, because I don't trust myself.

Why you would do suicide if you are already good looking? Stop this nonsense.. bro life is more than looks.

 

[Deleted member 10699]

WAIT its this nigga I forgot. OP kys u fucking faggit worthless piece of shit, no wonder you aren't loved

The funny thing is that this really hurts me; feeling this hate is destroying me, because I like people (paradoxically), but I hate how they've been treating me for years.

 

[Deleted member 12669]

The funny thing is that this really hurts me; feeling this hate is destroying me, because I like people (paradoxically), but I hate how they've been treating me for years.

Good, stop being a fucking twink no wonder people hate on you

 

[Deleted member 10185]

The funny thing is that this really hurts me; feeling this hate is destroying me, because I like people (paradoxically), but I hate how they've been treating me for years.

Stop listening these people. They are shit posting and you are taking it way too seriously. I dont give a shit if people call me ugly in this place... It means no shit to me.

 

[Deleted member 10699]

Yes but you shouldn't go that way for your own good. If you see like a path for revenge in a divorce for example to scam your partner then go for it, but in this case you just sound like you have pent up rage.

That's what I have; I usually display my hate with imagining how to kill or torture someone (as in the text that I've posted to you earlier), or just repress it by self harm, which makes my parents to be anxious, so I just cry.

 

[Deleted member 12669]

That's what I have; I usually display my hate with imagining how to kill or torture someone (as in the text that I've posted to you earlier), or just repress it by self harm, which makes my parents to be anxious, so I just cry.

Brutal man, genuinely feel sorry for you

 

[Deleted member 10699]

Stop listening these people. They are shit posting and you are taking it way too seriously. I dont give a shit if people call me ugly in this place... It means no shit to me.

I mean real life people. Those are the ones that have called me ugly quite a few time, and they have been girls like 90% of the times. Which makes me fight to not fall into misogyny.

 

[Deleted member 10699]

Brutal man, genuinely feel sorry for you

I want my parents to understand that self harming makes me to feel relaxed. I don't want them to know about what I think, believe, etc., because they'll be really worried.

 

[Deleted member 12669]

I want my parents to understand that self harming makes me to feel relaxed. I don't want them to know about what I think, believe, etc., because they'll be really worried.

Self harming is for faggits, jfl at causing pain to yourself to cope with your depression you sad fuck Jesus christ

 

[Introvertednarc]

bro life is more than looks.

Cucktears cope

 

[Deleted member 10699]

But I have no reason to live because the world reminds that I'm ugly, always. And I need to be happy, and to be quiet, because those pieces of shit feel offended when you talk about this. If looks aren't not that important, then why do people use physical appearance to display superiority? I don't want to still feel like this, because I won't improve.

 

[Deleted member 10699]

Self harming is for faggits, jfl at causing pain to yourself to cope with your depression you sad fuck Jesus christ

I preffer that than to harm my pets, for example, something that I have thought. Hurting myself is better than hurting my family.

 

[Deleted member 10699]

Why you would do suicide if you are already good looking? Stop this nonsense.. bro life is more than looks.

People have only judged me for looks, and I'm always insulted by women, that should be respected (meanwhile, they can hate men without any kind of consecuence).

 

[Enfant terrible]

 

[Deleted member 10699]

I can't breath right now. Sorry.

 

[Deleted member 10699]

I'm just putting into words the thoughts of many people.

 

[Deleted member 1003]

@FBI

 

[Deleted member 10699]

@FBI

Am I saying something wrong?

 

[Deleted member 1003]

Am I saying something wrong?

Entschuldigung, aber ich spreche kein Englisch

 

[Deleted member 10699]

Entschuldigung, aber ich spreche kein Englisch

Ok.