Perhaps that is another factor. I just told @It’snotover about how I only leave the house once a month or so and that I had little sleep today and ate little as well. Thank you bhai I appreciate it. Thanks for your insight, I appreciate it a lot.
Whichever is most unwanted!
Brown or White?
Well then I got no drop of passion in my veins.
You mean does it make sense that you were in love with her?
I don’t want to call it love because it’s one-sided; I think “cared for” is the better word in this case but yes.
Animals do not have rascism bhai, and good so.
No it's not actually weird, we are human and sometimes we will fall in love or care about someone even if that passion is not reciprocated. But we also need to be able to move on, the globe keeps spinning and we can't get stuck in the past. Go eat bhai and think about your health. In the end, the only ones that carry you are your knees.
I once again post this to provide sufficient evidence for my utter subhumanity. This is a message that an online female friend sent me a few weeks ago out of nowhere. I have known her since 2011.
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See? My personality is not the problem. So if it’s not personality, what else could it be? Status? She didn’t know I was a NEET who dropped out of college (because I knew she was gonna reject me; didn’t tell her because I didn’t wanna make her feel bad). She knew nothing about me.
She only remembered what I look like from some time before and she realized I’m the ugly ass dude so she went from responding everyday to being incredibly coldhearted and ignoring me after I said who I was and quickly blocked me.
She ignored all my messages that I sent after being blocked; 5 over the next few months. I just wanted to talk platonically if she didn’t want me romantically. All ignored.
I had liked her for 5 years and never spoke to her before, that’s why I was so cringey/clingy. I am embarrassed of my behavior. But this is a testament to how much of an abomination I am. There’s nothing else to blame but my looks here.
Yeah don’t worry having such thoughts during a bad day is normal for us sub chads bhai, happy to hear you'll go to college, when will you start? I wish you'll find nice roomates, and go outside more often, you need vitamin d to have healthy levels of t. Even i go outside 4 or 5 days per week just to walk downtown during the sunset and i'm a certified rotter.
Just be heartless like my oneitis and say no and leave me alone.
Based animals. Makes me sad that people experiment on them.. bastards.
It's time to get a new oneitis so you can get over herJust be heartless like my oneitis and say no and leave me alone.
Oh dang so it didn’t make sense? I always thought it did. Perhaps I should have opened up about it before I bothered her with my sob story. Then I could have snapped out of it before that and never create this “love” for this person who treated me like absolute trash. And oh wow that’s brutal my knees these days are hurting. Looks like even my body doesn’t want to carry me.
The real animals are the humans. They kill and they plot, even tho they know they will die in the end and will take nothing with them.
Thoughts bhai? It was so awful for me I started smoking cigarettes again. I had quit for 7 years at that point.
I will be going by the Fall of 2023. And I am glad to hear that you at least go outside. That’s good to hear bhai. And yes us subchads will have more days feeling awful/bad etc. I am not planning on moving out btw.
You cared about her and that's a normal human feeling. Where it went wrong is when you started to develop some sort of obsession with her. You should know bhai that in the world there are dozens of better women than her in terms of beauty and personality and more loving.
Is this a good idea bhai? @emeraldglass I thought about it but then again…… there’s no one I can meet. And certainly they don’t want a good-for-nothing 2/10 abomination who has nothing going on for him. So I need to get my life in order first.
You are right. People are monsters bhai. And I hate them for that. (I prefer to use the term “people” rather than what you used.)
Stop being a neet
get noodlefoid, noodle love curry pray for you bhai
That’s the thing, I really wish I could see their face clearly so I can say “Ok you are definitely not the prettiest woman in the world.” But I have nothing to go by. Only vague assumptions. I really wish I had a picture or something but I don’t. That also makes it difficult to see/realize they aren’t the most pretty or whatever. As for personality. I personally think they’re a good person but they felt like they had no choice but to treat me like trash which is why they reacted that way. Or perhaps I am just deluding myself once again: trying to mould her into something she’s not and creating a “picture perfect” image of her. Seeing a picture and knowing she’s a HTB instead of a Stacylite or even MTB instead of a HTB but I have nothing to see. I think I’m just coping when I say “there are more beautiful women out there.”
That’s why I am going to college. But I’ll be going for computer science so it’s gonna be a sausage fest hahaha.
If by oneitis you mean a potential marriage partner then yes. if you mean just someone to forget her then no. I think from September you will get your life on track. You're not horrible anyway so the problem is not your face, after college or when you start working, you'll find a woman and get married and you'll never think about her again. You'll will laugh when it happens and when you will think back on this. Many people with depression have told me that years later they reflected on those difficult years and now they laugh about it.
They always seem to be wary around me - it’s sad cause I think they’re kawaii. I am actually eating curry right now. With roti.get noodlefoid, noodle love curry pray for you bhai
Anyway thank you very much bhai. 
Good, people can be rude so without moving out you avoid the risk to find bad roomates, especially because young guys could think you are too old or something. T is the most important thing to not feel like shit, takes vit d bhaiI will be going by the Fall of 2023. And I am glad to hear that you at least go outside. That’s good to hear bhai. And yes us subchads will have more days feeling awful/bad etc. I am not planning on moving out btw.
believe me bhai, there is alway a better person out there.
I am a person who only wants a marriage. I have zero interest in slaying. So yes I mean a future wife or something like that. Also how can I believe my face is not the problem when she rejected me just because of my face? Everything else is fine about me. But yeah I already feel better than before, nowadays I think “lol I can’t believe I bothered her after she rejected me.” Even though I said nothing wrong or tried to guilt trip her. I did my best to avoid this so she wouldn’t feel bad.
I'm barely a LTN in looks and I'm the best looking in all my computer science classes
. Only Asians and subhumans show up
Hahaha yeah I think I am gonna be the oldest in my class in college. It was the case when I went to a vocational school. XD But generally people tend to like me as a person so I don’t think I will have trouble getting along with others. I remember when I came back from Pakistan and one of my mulatto classmates got up when I entered the classroom and gave me a hug. Such a bhai.
I really want to believe you. And you are right, anyway. But I want to have proof something. That’s why I asked bhai.
I went to the orientation day and I got mogged by everyone there. (facially)I'm barely a LTN in looks and I'm the best looking in all my computer science classes
Then yes that would be a good idea.
She never mentioned your face bhai, for all we know it could be anything.
That's what I want to hear bhai, your mind will become cleaner and cleaner. We can't take an elevator, we take the stairs one step at a time.
Are you dark skin or light skin , some Chinese chick told me that curry are funny and smart.asian foid are biggest nerd lover so i think you just need be confident and pull yourself out there. Btw what brown girl think about east asian guy?They always seem to be wary around me - it’s sad cause I think they’re kawaii. I am actually eating curry right now. With roti.
Of course, that’s for wageslaving redditors nerds. Most people go for economy classes or shit like that
He is not curry
The first step is acceptance bhai. If your mind isn't in order, no evidence will change your mind. Statistically, it is impossible that she was the perfect woman in terms of beauty and personality. i know rationality won't work because feelings take over, but it's the truth bhai. There's better out there.
Do you know people who went through a rejection and they took it really badly (like afterwards, not in the moment itself and couldn’t really cope with it)? If yes did they do this to fix themselves?
I think actions speak louder than words and she had nothing else to reject me on. That’s why I am convinced it’s my looks. Even if girls outside give me attention one way or the other, I just can’t be convinced otherwise.
Thanks a lot for listening to my sadboy-schizo rants. It means a lot to me. One day we gotta meet and I will treat you to Pakistani food.
I am in-between bhai. I will PM a picture of my chin if you want to see my skintone. Brown girls love East Asians bhai. Even my oneitis liked some k-pop bands which saddened me cause I was like “fuck, something else we have in common.” I found out cause I found her Facebook a few years ago haha. I wanted to get a better idea of who she was and perhaps what she looked like but couldn’t find anything.
Knowing we have plenty of things in common and she still rejected makes me sad about the things we have in common. If that makes sense.
You are correct. I really wish I could see a picture. I could imagine her brother but with a wig hahahah but that’s clearly not realistic.
Because women still look different even if they look similar to a a male sibling or whatever.
Imagine thinking that Pakistanis are curries in 2023Thanks bhai. Indeed Pakistanis are not curry.
Yes I know a man and a woman who both took rejection very badly. Crying every day, complaining every day, no sense, no food, no more laughing all day in the room or sleeping all day. It's the thoughts that play with you. You have to set goals for yourself. After a certain time they came across it themselves. They both married now, he 2 years ago and she 4 years ago.
I think it was more about the circumstances, not your face.
It's my honor brother, thank you.Thanks a lot for listening to my sadboy-schizo rants. It means a lot to me. One day we gotta meet and I will treat you to Pakistani food.
that may actually work. Serious.You are correct. I really wish I could see a picture. I could imagine her brother but with a wig hahahah but that’s clearly not realistic.
Sadly we have a lot of morons like these.Imagine thinking that Pakistanis are curries in 2023
It's like people who thinks chinese and japanese looks the same
Damn that sucks. Luckily I never cried. But I did complain to myself like a schizophrenic. I admit to not being able to eat and sleeping all day etc. I am glad to hear they got their happy ending. I stopped laughing / smiling for a while but after some time I could laugh and smile again effortlessly. How old were they?
Trust me, women make so many exceptions for chaddam. They bend every rule in their own playbook. If I looked like @Htobrother she never would reject me.
Ever tried it before bhai? And no need to thank me. I did nothing but vent.
I don’t think it will because perhaps she’s a Stacy fogger and her brother is just capped at MTN. I would say he is MTN. I could show you his picture someday if you want. Perhaps you disagree and say he’s HTN or chadlite in which case she will be the female version of this. Harmony is a crazy thing.
