Summer break

[WannabeEhren]

Being someone who has no friends, no relationships and nothing to do during the summer is by far the worst experience someone can experience. I would not wish this upon my worst enemy. Every single time i go outside and i catch someone looking at me i just know that they are making fun of me, and it just makes me wanna run back home and rot some more. Ive been sitting in my room for 22 hours a day. Only going out to get sun exposure. I havent talked to anyone but myself. And after a person monologues and debates with themselves for hours and hours you eventually find out that you have nothing to dwell on anymore and youre left with a perpetual feeling of emptiness. I stare at the ceiling just blank, even doom scrolling doesn't seem to give my brain the slightest hint of dopamine to keep it running. Every day feels useless and i HATE it. Some days i lay in bed and claw at my own skin because i cant stand being stuck in this body. I used to be able to feel sad at the fact that i wont ever feel love but now even that is overrided by my brain telling me that we already know that its over and to shut that shit up. All i feel is agony and dread stemming from the crushing weight of my own future and current situation.

 

[eiko]

DNR

 

[causeimight]

Being someone who has no friends, no relationships and nothing to do during the summer is by far the worst experience someone can experience. I would not wish this upon my worst enemy. Every single time i go outside and i catch someone looking at me i just know that they are making fun of me, and it just makes me wanna run back home and rot some more. Ive been sitting in my room for 22 hours a day. Only going out to get sun exposure. I havent talked to anyone but myself. And after a person monologues and debates with themselves for hours and hours you eventually find out that you have nothing to dwell on anymore and youre left with a perpetual feeling of emptiness. I stare at the ceiling just blank, even doom scrolling doesn't seem to give my brain the slightest hint of dopamine to keep it running. Every day feels useless and i HATE it. Some days i lay in bed and claw at my own skin because i cant stand being stuck in this body. I used to be able to feel sad at the fact that i wont ever feel love but now even that is overrided by my brain telling me that we already know that its over and to shut that shit up. All i feel is agony and dread stemming from the crushing weight of my own future and current situation.

you have two choices when youre left alone like that

either depression
or evolution

your move